Chapter-25

I wander aimlessly in the amusement park. Not knowing where to go. The sky was turning dark by each passing second and the park becoming more and more deserted.

I see a bench in front of me. Being tired I go and sit on the bench. I tilt my head back and rest it against the bench. I close my eyes. There is complete darkness at this moment. In my vision, my mind and my heart.

Now that I come to think of it, I know nothing about lorenzo except the fact that he kidnapped me and is a mafia.

It hits me that I am just a hostage. How could I even think of myself as his love interest? How stupid of me.

And as I face this relatisation my heart shatters.

My eyes getting filled up with all these stupid tears.

It's funny that you can feel the pain of a heartbreak in you chest, stomach, in your whole body. I can feel my heart twisting, the bile rising in my throat, my mouth dry.

It's a replusive feeling.

I can't even expect lorenzo to clear my doubts or demand answers after all I am just another hostage. God knows how many times he have done this before.

But what is worse is how much this is affecting me. How could I be this naive? How could I care so about a man? How could a man's action hurt me this much?

I always thought mumma was a fool to be in so much love, to be blinded so much by that stupid love. I used to hate how she was not able to figure out the bigger picture but now I am stuck like her.

A drop of water hits the palm of my hand. I look up to see the sky all cloudy. And soon the rain starts falling.

I close my eyes and let my tears fall just like the rain.

"Kuhu"

His voice hits me. I open my eyes, my vision a liitle blurry due to my tears and rain. But soon I see lorenzo standing in front of me.

"Sweetheart, what are you doing here and why are you sitting in rain? You will catch cold. Come lets go back."

He grabs my hands and yanks me up making me stand.

"God! you are so cold."

His hand touches my cheek as he says.

"You give me your coat."

He mentions to the guard standing beside him. The guard immediately takes off his coat and gives him.

He takes the coat and wraps it around me.

"I told you to wait for me then why did you come here? Now you are drenched."

He pushes my wet hair back and cups my cheek.

He cares so much, how can he not love me? He must have something for me too. I can't be the other women.

These thoughts run in my head. I want to ask him but I am too sacred of his answer.

That image of him patting the girls back. Her beautiful face, those woman's words all these put an end to my will to question him.

What if I am the other women? What if I end up like mumma? Will he leave like dad?

I don't want to be in the same situation as mum. But I am way too in to leave him on my own. Besides I am a captive. I don't have a say in it.

My eyes fill up with tears as I ask him in a cracked voice.

"Lorenzo will you ever let me go?"

He looks astonished at my question. A dark look passes over his face. He grabs my hand and makes me walk along with him.

We both reach the exit of the park. A car was already waiting there for us. He opens the door. I get in the car without any question. He closes the door and comes to sit beside me from the other side.

"To answer your earlier question."

"Never."

The unshed tears finally fall from my eyes realising my situation.

I am too weak to leave him and he will not let me go.

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I sit by the window watching the aftermath of the rain. The wind chilly, tiny droplets of rain still falling from leaves, the ground wet and my heart engulfed in an ambiguous feeling.

I feel sad knowing I am in a place which I hated my mumma for but it feels good that finally there is a person in my life who doesn't wish to let me go. Who cares whether or not I stay in their life.

This feeling of being wanted, being cared for is so addicting.

The irony of it all is that this feeling is what have landed me here and I still crave it.

A knock interruptes me out of thoughts. I look up to see Lorenzo standing on the door.

A normal t shirt and grey sweatpants should not look this good. His hair is still a bit wet from the rain earlier. It looks he came to me as fast as he could after changing.

"May I come in sweetheart?"

He asks

Everytime he says the word sweetheart my heart skips a beat. It makes my heart flutter with joy.

I nod.

He comes and sits besides me on the balcony.

Suddenly I see him comig near. He hugs me and lays his head on my bosom.

"I don't know what changed but I don't like this sad version of you. I want my girl back."

He looks up at me with those gorgeous sapphire eyes of his. He looks like a puppy with his head half buried in my breasts and his hands around my waist. Just like a little child asking for his favourite treat.

I smile and course my hand around his hair, lightly massaging his scalp.

How do I tell him that my fear of facing reality may never let me ask the questions I so desperately want the answers of.

"Even your hands are magical."

He says nuzzling deeper into my chest.

"Please sing me a song, sweetheart."

He says and his hands tightens around me.

Maybe that's what we both need, a song.

Abhi na jaao chhod kar ki dil abhi bhara nahi

Do not go and leave me now, for my heart is not yet staited.

Abhi abhi to aayi ho

You have only just come

Abhi abhi to aayi ho bahaar banke chhaaii ho

You have only just come, you became the Spring as you arrived

Hawaa zaraa mahak to le nazar zara bahak to le

Let the wind spread your fragrance, let your gaze wander

Yeh shaam dhal to le zaraa

Let the night fall a little more

Yeh dil sambhal to le zaraa

Let my heart steady itself

Main thodi der jii to luu, nashe ke ghunt pi to luu

Let me live a little longer, let me taste a sip of your intoxication

Nashe ke ghunt pii to luu, abhi to kuch kahaa nahi

Let me taste a sip of your intoxication, for I have said nothing yet

Abhii to kuch sunaa nahi

You have heard nothing yet

Abhii na jaao chod kar ke dil abhi bhara nahi

Do not go and leave me now, for my heart is not yet filled

Sitaare jhil milaa uthe

The stars have begun to sparkle

Sitaare jhil milaa uthe, chiraag jagmagaa uthe

The stars have begun to sparkle, the lamps have been lit

Bas ab na mujhko Toknaa

Enough, do not scold me now

Bas ab na mujhko Toknaaa, na badhke raah rokna

Enough, do not scold me now, do not come forward to block my path

Agar main ruk gayi abhi to jaa na paaungi kabhi

If I stop now, I will never be able to leave

Yehii kahoge tum sadaa ke dil abhii nahi bharaa

For you will keep on saying that your heart is not yet filled

Jo khatm ho kisii jagah yeh aisaa silsila nahi

This is not the kind of affair that ends easily

Abhi nahi, abhi nahi!

Not yet, not yet!

Nahi, nahi, nahi, nahi!

No, no, no, no!

Abhi na jaao chod kar ke dil abhi bhara nahi

Do not go and leave me now, for my heart is not yet filled

Adhuurii aas

Unfulfilled desire

Adhuurii aas chhodke, adhuurii pyaas chhodke

Leaving me with unfulfilled desire, leaving me with unfulfilled thirst

Jo roz yun hi jaaogi to kis tarhaa nibhaaogi

If you go every day like this, then how will you keep your promise?

Ki zindagi ki raah mein jawaan dilon ki chaah mein

For in the path of life, in the desire of two young hearts

Kai maqaam aayenge jo humko aazmaenge

Many challenges will come to test us

Buraa na maano baat kaa, yeh pyaar hai, gilaa nahii.

Do not be hurt by my words, for they are words of love, not a complaint

Haan, yehi kahoge tum sadaa ki dil abhi bharaa nahi!

Yes, but you will keep on saying that your heart is not yet filled!

Haan, dil abhi bharaa nahi

Yes, my heart is not yet filled!