chapter 79

Sadhvi's pov:

I woke up after hearing my alarm sound......

I quickly got up and switched it of not willing to listen it anymore.

Suddenly remembering something I frowned my brows.......

Why was Siddarth not holding me today?

I mean it was like we had a silent agreement that we would cuddle everyday.

Because we if I sleep at the end of the bed,I would eventually wake up in his arms.....

And I....kind of habituated to it.

Now I am feeling somewhat weird.

But I shrugged of all my negative feelings and said to myself that may be he is extremely tired.

I didn't even know when he he came yesterday.....

I waited him till eleven when he still didn't reached I retired to my room.

May be he came late at night.....

Sometimes ....not many times it is worrying me.

Is he eating on time or just doing his work all the days?

I just want him to take rest for sometime.

I know in my heart that this would happen ......he would be busy as an intern.

Anyways.....today is our anniversary....so I will make some plans for us.

I quickly had my bath and got dressed into  a turquoise blue kurthi and a coral pink pants.

After 15 minutes.....I am all ready to go college.

I saw the time.....it was already 7:30....

Just then Siddarth came after doing his gym.

I cooked poha as it takes less time.

I quickly made it.....because he will not even have breakfast sometimes as he had to reach college before 8:15

I served the poha and also heated some milk and made some coffee for him.

He joined me not so late.....

I looked at him,he was in his White shirt with black trousers.....

I like this look of him so much.

I am too obvious to him maybe as I am oogling at him.

But I came out of my trance quickly at sat with him.

We quickly ate our breakfast and we went to college together.

But he was tensed as he may get late today.....

I stayed quite as I didn't know what to say to reduce his anxiousness.

Daily we were going together to college but I was returning home  by a cab as he comes late.

He parted our ways.....as I went to our room.

They were still getting ready for today.......

I sat on the bed at waited for him.

Today is our anniversary......don't think he remembers it. Because he had not wished me yet.

Anyways......I will plan a surprise for him.

Or some big one.....but just a small one.

After their breakfast we went for our morning postings which is pediatrics for the past two months.

From tomorrow we will be having emergency medicine postings.....

After postings my friends went to have their lunch .I bade my good byes with them as I said that I was planning a dinner with Siddarth on this occasion.

I want everything to be at it's best.

I have already booked a cab while I got time in my postings.

After the city's terrific traffic.....I reached home after half and hour.

As soon as I reached home my stomach grumbled.

God.....now I have to eat something.

I threw my bag carelessly on the sofa and directly went to kitchen.

I chopped few veggies and also cooked rice.

After making rice I quickly took some egged and made egg fried rice.

Now I am feeling like rats in my stomach are participating in some marathon.......

I took my plate and served myself and are too quickly.....

After eating I sat on my bed thinking how should I plan.

It's not like I can afford expensive things and all....

I have to make do with the little money with me.

I regretted that I should have planned it way before so I could save some money,as I want to buy a gift for him.

I sighed as I couldn't do anything right now than just a simple cosy dinner plan with him.

Yeah....I should do it.

I said to myself and grabbed a pen and paper and wrote all the things I need for the evening.

What should I cook??

Yeah.....I will try chicken biryani

It will be tasty.

I am apprehensive as I never cooked it my Amma says I cook edible food.....even if it doesn't taste the best we can atleast eat right?

I took my wallet and phone and locked the apartment.

I came out and saw many autos roaming on the roads.....

I stopped one and said my destination.

After half and hour I reached there.

I went near groceries section and took all the things I will be needed for today and also some chicken.

After billing them I took the bags and went to flower shop and brought a bouquet of peonies.......

It looked really pretty and also had a good meaning.

It symbolises a happy relationship.

I now we are not at our best......but I can hope for it in future.

It was already 5:30 untill I reached home.

I was quite tired as I was browsing all the things in mall.

It looks quite fun......it was my first time going for shopping alone,and it was not odd....and was interesting too.

As I kept browsing all things without asking for anyone's opinion......I liked it.

I washed my face and laid on my bed feeling tired......

I still had a lot of work To do....

Sighing.....

I woke up and arranged the flowers I brough in addition to that bouquet in a vase.

I have already decided that we will have dinner in balcony under the stars.....

I think it's quite fascinating.

I am glad that I had brought a small table with two chairs for balcony last month.

Even Siddarth liked that view from there......

I placed the vase on the table, and went for kitchen taking the groceries bag with me.

I took my mobile and opened YouTube to see the tutorial video for chicken biryani.

After scrolling few videos I sticked to the local hyderabadi YouTube channel as I find them as the best biryani makers.......

I saw the instructions and followed them correctly.

Though I am doing it slowly.....may be I will improve in future.

After nearly 2 hours the chicken biryani was all ready.......

I saw the time.

Oh god it was almost 8.....

I still have to dress up.

I ran into the bed room and started my search for clothes.....

After all the turmoil I have decided to wear a plain red saree with black sequined blouse.

It looks elegant.

I freshened up and changed into saree and braided my hair properly......

Not into some stylish hairstyle and all.....

Just usual as I don't know how to braid in different styles......

Even if I know it will be difficult to do it myself as my hair is too long to experiment and all .

I am looking okay.....

I saw the clock.....it was near to 9.

He will come at any time....

I ran into kitchen and then served the biryani in a bowl and kept in on the table.

I even placed the plates and spoons in a nice manner as I see in date nights of movies....

I am quite satisfied with my work.

Even the ambience is nice.

I sat on one of the chair and started browsing my mobile.

I read few articles on how guys expect their girls to be on dates and all.

Also read few relationship advices.....

Time was passing.....

I kept looking at the door hoping Siddarth comes....

But I am disappointed every single time.

It was already 10:30

Why is he not coming ......

Did something happened to him?

God....

I don't know what to do.

This dinner and all can go to hell......right now I just want him to be safe.

He usually comes home by 10.

All the negative thoughts are occurring in my mind......I hope it should not be real.....

I was praying nothing should happen to Siddarth.......

Just then I saw the door opening.

I kept looking there with hopeful eyes.

It was Siddarth.

Now all I wanted to do was hug him tightly and reassure myself that he is fine.

But I just stayed there.....like a statue.

It was like I was struck at that place.

He came and crashed on sofa.....while I stood near dining table.

I was just looking at him...may be he still did not notice me....

He was massaging his brows.

He suddenly looked at me and nodded acknowledgingly.

I pressed my lips into a thin line.

I wanted to spend sometime with him..... celebrate our six month anniversary or may be confess my feelings if I am confident enough.

I wanted it to be a memorable day for us......

I know he didn't know about anything I was doing and the fact that it wasn't intentional.

But my heart was blaming him......

For what?

For neglecting me.....for crushing my heart.....

Yeah.....right now I feel heart broken when I should be relieved that he is safe.

He is just doing his duty as a doctor,as a good doctor.

But he is forgetting that he is a husband to me.

I may not stop pursuing his dreams.....but I too have some expectations from him.

I am a human too.

I wanted to have a peaceful and happy marriage from my childhood more than anything.....

To be honest I wanted that more than I wanted to become a doctor.

I wanted to be a good wife first.....and then comes my profession.

He may be busy....but can't he remember our six month anniversary......we are bound in this marriage for six months....

I know he respects our marriage.

And also know he like me.......may be as a companion.

But I want to be with him.....do things together make memories.

Right now I feel I should just come to reality leaving all the hopeful things I am dreaming about.

Like this will happen in future too.....

Peacefulness and happiness.....this were the things I am not at all feeling right now when all I wanted was them.

"Hey....I didn't saw you before.What were you doing late in the night?

Anyways I am sleepy.....goodnight."he said getting up from the sofa and went inside bedroom.

I did not utter a word.......

To be honest I don't know anything....

My mind is a mess.

My heart was saying not to think much about it and it was just his busy schedule.....we will be fine after this phase.

And my mind was mocking my heart to support him even when I am drowned in sadness.

I was so excited for the dinner today.......all the preparation I did went waste.

He didn't even asked if I had dinner.

Tears started flowing from my eyes uncontrollably......

I started biting my lips in an attempt to not make sound.

I was still  dressed up in a saree.....I think even food turned cold until now.

Now I am not even interested in cleaning up that stuff.

So I just went to bedrooms and saw Siddarth who was already deep asleep.

I grabbed my pyjamas and a quilt from cupboard and went to living room.

I dont want to face him right now.

I am so angry with him......I may do something which I will definitely regret.....

Because now I am just thinking about myself and my pain......I don't know anything about him.

But what ever.

I think I now have right to stay angry with him.

As I laid on the sofa I am having all the glimpses of what happened today.

How my over excitement turned into extreme sadness.

Again my eyes teared up.

"It is not your fault Sadhvi...." I said to myself as I rubbed my tears....

I closed my eyes trying to sleep......

I don't know when I drifted into sleep.

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