Chapter 39 [Who is Anya to Abhimaan]

To say i was shy would be a understatement.

I felt extremely shy to even stand before him after the night .

And on the other hand Samaira had noticed his mark on my neck the next morning and started teasing me on how i would be pregnant soon and at the exact moment Naina had entered the room and thought i was pregnant and got excited in the process misleading Rudra and Abhimanyu too.

Everyone was happy hearing this and for the first i felt that this was a family and i could not be more happy to see them talk so freely with each other about the baby and seeing their happiness i could not bring myself to tell them that it was not how they were thinking.

Finally when Rana saa came back I told him when he was confused pulling him in the room after they had all congratulated him .

I explained to him everything and he understood clearing it out on the dining room to everyone and it hurted that everyone's smile fell.

To be practical it is the truth that now when we have already had it once some or the other day i would be pregnant with his child.

This palace this politics is not at all safe in this matter . People can go to any extent to kill the heirs and i know what i had to do .

I need to know who Anya Rajput is for the time being.

Moving in i noticed him sitting on the throne chairs busy with some files and looked at him "Rana saa" i said and he immediately looked up at me and nodded "mujhe aapse kuch baat karni hai" and he looked at me for a few seconds and sighed nodding.

"Baithiye" he said gesturing me to try to come to him and i moved to him with a confused look not finding any seat nearby and before i could ask him anything he pulled me in his lap making me gasp and I looked at him with wide eyes and heat crept up My body as he kissed my cheeks.

(Sit)

I looked at him as he kept on looking at me with raised eyebrows and I sighed not knowing how to talk to him about it .

It was not a small thing that could be ignored and i needed to talk it out with him in some or the other way. The things are better now and I want to end this with no confusions and lack of knowledge for everyone even for our dear readers they must know what our truth is and what actually happened !

"Rudra aapka Saga Bhai nahi hai" i said and he looked at me and sighed "khoon se rudra Mera saga bhai nahi hai" and he looked at me as i asked "aapki maa kaun hai aur woh kaha hai is wakt" i knew this question would hurt him but it's better to hurt him for sometime and sort things out instead of keeping in lifetime guilt , sorrow and misunderstandings.

(Rudra is not your real brother)

(From blood he is not)

(Who is your mother then and where is she)

"Usse kya fark padta hai Aadiya" i heard him say and he buried his face in my neck taking in deep breaths and i embraced him caressing his hairs as i carefully answered him "yeh Janna toh Mera hak hai na" and he exhaled a breath saying "sach sunne ki himmat nahi hai abhi aap me" and i shook my head saying "mujhe Janna hai" and i did not know the effect the words were going to have on me as they Escaped his lips.

(Why does I'd matter Aadiya)

(Knowing this is my right)

(You won't be able to hear the truth)

(I want to know)

"Anya Rathore meri biological mother hai" i felt my world still and a wave of shock flowed through my body and i looked at him with shock.

(Anya Rathore is my biological mother)

Anya Rathore as in kaki ma !

Abhimanyu 's mother ?

I looked at him not knowing what to say or ask to shocked to ask anything as he pulled me in his embrace enveloping my body and caressing my hairs as he kissed my forehead.

"Ha Aadiya keval Rudra nahi ek tarah se Abhimanyu bhi Mera sautela Bhai hi hai aur yahi karan hai Abhimnyu mujhse maafi mangna chahta tha usse lagta hai ki usne mujhse mere hisse ka pyaar cheena" and i looked at him .

(Yes Aadiya in a way Even Abhimanyu is my half brother and that is that is the reason he wanted to apologize to me he felt it was because of him I did not get my share of love)

But how ?

She is kaku saa's wife then ?

"She and my father got divorced only after that she married kaka" and i looked at him not knowing anything like that could be possible.

"Rana saa" were the only words that left my lips as i tried to take in the information.

"Hua kya tha" i finally asked not being able to believe any of it and he sighed saying "mujhe Puri baat toh nahi pata Aadiya Anya Rathore aur papa shadi shuda the aur mai tab bas ek saal ka tha jab dono ka divorce hua toh kya hua kyu hua mujhe nahi pata" and i looked at him nodding not knowing what to say.

(What had happened my king)

(Anya Rathore and Father got married but before that uncle and Anya Rathore were in relationship but broke up because of them misunderstanding and then after one year of my birth they divorced)

"Aap America kyu bheje Gaye" i asked now knowing it had something to do with Anya Rathore now .

(Why did you go to America)

"Aadiya , mai 10 saal tha tab bas Rudra bahot attached tha mere se aise ki mere alawa kisi aur ki sunta hi nahi tha aur Abhimanyu meri har baat sabse badh ke sunta tha Padmini Rathore ko lagta tha ki agar rudra itna attached rahega toh sahi nahi hoga toh woh usse mujhse door karne lag gayi aur anya rathore nahi chahti thi ki Abhimanyu ko kabhi bhi yeh pata chale ki unhone apne ek bete ki chod Diya kyuki unhe pata tha agar Aisa hua toh Abhimanyu ka nazariya unki taraf badal jaega aur woh dheere dheere Abhimanyu ko mujhse baat karne ke liye rokne lagi" and i looked at him not being able to believe how bad he might have felt at that time .

(I was 10 years old and Rudraveer was very much attached to me he only listened to me among all and Abhimnyu he heard me over anyone and Padmini Rathore felt that this would pull her son away from her so she started taking him away from me and Anya Rathore never wanted people to know that she has left one of her son so she started keeping Abhimanyu away because she knew if Abhimnyu got to know it he would never look at her the same way)

He too was a kid at that time and such a thing happening to a kid was so unfair.

"Phir papa ne mujhe America bhejne ka decision liya kyu mujhe nahi pata shayad unhe Mera yaha hona pasand nahi tha ya shayad abya Rathore ka beta hone ke karan woh mujhe pasand nahi karte the ais mujhe ab tak lagta tha par sach yeh tha ki pata nahi chahte ki Mai hamesha Padmini Rathore ko rudra ko dularta dekhu aur anya Rathore ko Abhimanyu woh nahi chahte the Mai yeh sab dekhu aur akela mehsoos Karu par mujhe America bhej ke ulta unhone mujhe aur hi akela kar diya kal maafi mangi unhone mujhse" and i frowned hearing him .

(Then father took the decision to send me to America maybe because he did not like me here maybe he did not like me because I was the son of his and Anya i always thought it but no I was wrong he did not want me to see Padmini loving Rudra and Anya loving Abhimanyu when I had no place to look for motherly affection he did not want me to feel alone so he sent me there)

This was not the truth.

I was sure about it .

Papa loved Rana saa a lot otherwise he would have never literally joined his hands and begged me for keeping him happy after marriage and now all this made sense !

Also

Senselessness ran in Rathore blood !

All the man are freaking senseless !

Hey Narayan I don't want my son to be senseless like his ancestors!

I felt a touch on my cheeks and Looked at him as he caressed both my cheeks and slowly closed the distance between us as his lips touched mine and i looked at him .

"Rana saa" i hissed as he bit my collar bone moving down and he smiled and i looked at him with shock it was the second time he smiled and his smile is droll worthy to be honest.

"You are so sensitive yet biwi" and i blushed hearing him and snuggeled into his chest.

"Aadiya sab jitna aasan dik Raha hai utna hai nahi agar aapko itna sab pata hai toh yeh bhi pata hoga ki rudra ne kaise behave Kiya jab mai ja raha tha" and i nodded looking at him as he kept on playing with my hairs because he loved them.

(Aadiya things are seeming very easy but they were not)

"Aapko lagta hai ek teen saal ka baccha Aisa kar bhi sakta hai" i heard him and sighed.

(You think a three year old could talk like that)

"Kisi ne use bhadkaya tha" i said the thing i already knew .

Ofcourse it is impossible for someone of just 3 to 4 years talk about property and all.

It did not make sense.

"Bahot bada khel khel Rahi thi bua saa aur mai nahi chahta ki mere koi kadam uthane se sab kuch bikhar jaye toh ham sab shant rahe" i heard him and looked at him.

(It was a game and I did not want to complicate it more than it was)

"Iske peeche bua saa thi isiliye papa naraz the unpe" i said and he nodded with a sigh.

(So it was aunt that is the reason father was angry on her)

"Anya Shekhawat ko mere chacha se milane wali Bua saa , papa aur anya ka rishta karane wali Bua saa phir mere janm ke baad anya ko samjhane wali ki woh papa se pyaar nahi karti bhi bua saa" i heard him and looked at him.

(Anya shekhawat and Father met through aunt , father and Anya marriage was suggested by aunt then after my birth making anya realise she did not live Father was also aunt)

It seems like at every point she was involved and as if it was all pre planned.

Chachi meeting chachu the two of them Falling in love and staying as lovers for 2 years of college and then a sudden misunderstanding between them and then her suddenly marrying papa , and the misunderstanding getting cleared just after a year of Rana saa's birth and then her marrying Chachu divorcing papa .

It seemed as if it was a game .

And now it made sense of why the family was like this.

Dada and dadi has seen it being just infront of them .

Their family breaking down in pieces just before them .

Papa how could he even look at kaka with fondness when his ex wife is his brothers wife and with what face would even kaka saa talk to him .

Anya Rathore being ignored and sided in all of the major family decisions made sense now.

Why was Padmini maa not crowned the queen made sense .

I looked at him to see him. Looking at me caressing my hairs .

"Sab ek khel tha Aadiya pag badhaya toh Jaan chali jaegi phas Gaye the ham sab is khel me" i heard him and sighed .

(Everything was a game Aadiya where all of us were trapped in a deadly battle against our own people)

He was right we were at a point where we can't even talk freely about what happened it would be like rubbing salt on wounds and it would hurt and anger them and when Bua saa was playing so well that even after all this happening she was loved and cherished by everyone show how cunning she is .

She did everything in such a way that no one would even notice of how she was involved in everything that was happening.

"Can I request you something" i said and he shook his head saying "you can demand biwi" and i smiled saying "Abhimanyu and Rudra unke rishte kyu kharab hue aapse" and he sighed saying.

"I am not angry Aadiya not from them not from anyone it's just that I can't be all okay and loving towards everyone when no one even cared for me all the years i was in US or so i thought i was just a kid and i grew up without a family and i felt guilty that because of me Padmini maa scolded rudra and anya kaki to Abhimnyu so I just maintained a bit of distance.

"I never meant to make you feel like this Abhimaan" we heard a voice and I immediately moved away and looked at him to see him frowning and Rana saa immediately sat up as Padmini maa entered the room.

"Maa saa" i acknowledged her presence and she nodded looking at him .

"I did not meant to evesdrop but it just reached my ears while i was moving and I wanted to meet Both of you as we are all leaving soon" and we nodded.

"I don't want to lie Abhimaan , i never loved you as my son and you know that but I never hated you for me you were always the hier to the throne i never decpised you and i never had a problem with You or your and Rudra's love but when he started walking he spent all his day with you and Nanad ji started warning me about how it would not be good if you were with Rudra she told me that you would make him against me because you were my step son and when the Little rudra started to hear you more than me i felt she was right and i started to get him distanced from you but I never asked you father to send you too US i was against this idea but he was the one who took the decision and said that i did not have a right to take descisions for his son" she said and i could feel she was being genuine and sighed.

Again bua saa.

No doubt Rana saa was right it is her.

Thank God she is dead !

"Ho sake toh mujhe maaf kar dena abhimaan kabhi bura nahi chaha tumhara Maine par tumhe bacha bhi nahi payi in rishto me tum teen phas Gaye jabki sab ulta seedha toh ham bado ne kar rakha tha ham sabko maaf kar Dena aur Mai chahti hu ki aage ki zindgi tum sab ek saath hasi Khushi jeeyo" and i sighed as she moved out joining her hands and he roughly moved his hands through his hairs and sighed saying "let's go to sleep" and i nodded.

(Please forgive me if possible Abhimaan I never wanted anything wrong for you but I wasn't even able to save you it was all messed up by us the elders and you three got caught in between and I want that in future all of you love your life happily together)

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