You Drive Me Crazy

The bell rings and everybody starts rushing out of the classroom.

Roper's on the phone, so I slowly start making my way out of the classroom. Hoping I can get by without her noticing.

"Hold on a sec. Lilleth, you have detention, sit down"

Damn it...

She resumes talking and I sit down at a desk.

After 2 hours of talking she ends her phone call.

Okay, it was only 10 minutes but you get my point.

She stands up and makes her way over to me.

"You have no right to talk to me like that in my own classroom, Lilleth" she says.

I wait a few seconds before replying.

"Oh, are you talking to me? Im sorry, i thought I went by Anderson now" i reply with strong sarcasm.

She rolls her eyes at me and sighs.

"Do you mind if I take a page out of your book and walk out of the classroom, leaving you here"? I add.

She sighs once more. I can see that hurt her and i start to feel a little guilt settle in.

I dont want to hurt her, but she hurt me when she ran out on me.

"Im sorry, okay? I didn't mean to run out on you like that. I just panicked and i didn't know what to do" she says to me.

Damn it. Now i feel like shit...

I started to feel less angry and my guilt settles in more.

"I've never broken down like that in front of anyone and you were right there comforting me. I've never felt so safe with anyone like that before and i lost my control" she says further.

I see a small tear escape her eye and roll down her cheek.

My vision starts to blur as I see this.

I stand up and make my way over to her.

"Don't cry, Tay. I can't handle it when you cry" I tell her as I put my arms around her.

"I'm sorry, I don't know why I'm having a hard time controlling myself" she apologizes.

"Don't apologize, love. I don't want you to control yourself around me" I say as I hold her.

She lifts her head from my shoulder and looks at me.

"Thank you" she whispers.

I smile at her.

"I'm sorry for being a bitch today" I apologize.

"It's Ok. I was being a bitch yesterday" She replies back.

"Will you still let me help you out after class" ? I ask hopefully.

"Yes of course. I'm gonna consider it detention though. I can't have the other students suspecting that I'm favoring you" she says.

I chuckle. "No of course not, Ms. Roper"

After she's dried her eyes,

She looks at me and slowly bites her lip as if she's thinking.

Fuck, don't do that

I start to feel warm inside and my head gets a little fuzzy.

"You probably shouldn't do that" I warn her.

"Do what"? She asks confused.

Damn it, how do I say this?

"Bite your lip" I say quietly with a hint of embarrassment.

"Why"? She's asks.

I don't answer, I just stand there and I discover this really interesting dot on the floor.

"Lilleth, why does it bother you"? She asks again.

I advert my eyes away from hers and I barely whisper "It just does"

"Ok" she replies. She seems like she really wants to know, but let's it go for the moment.

"Yeah, so what do you need help with today"? I change the subject.

"Um, maybe you could help me with the Google slide for tomorrows lesson"?

"I'd be happy to help with that, Ms. Roper" I say with a smirk.

A blush begins to appear on her face, as the corners of her lips start to raise.

I pull a chair closer to her and start helping her with the plan for tomorrow.

I point to the computer screen to explain something to her. As I do that, my arm grazes her shoulder.

Goosebumps immediately appear on my arm and I notice a shiver run over her.

I turn my head and look over at her. She see's me looking at her and also turns her head.

"You know I can't do that again" she whispers to me.

"Do what"? I ask her.

"What we almost did yesterday" she replies.

"Of course, I understand, Roper"

I notice the blush appear again.

I can't promise anything if you keep blushing...

I look away from her because if I don't, I will lose control. I want nothing more than to grab the sides of her face and do what I've wanted to do the moment I laid my eyes on her.

"If I wasn't married and if you weren't my student... " she doesn't finish her sentence, but we both know what she meant.

"I know" I smile at her.

She smiles at me but again it doesn't reach her eyes...

"I promise not to jump you" I hold out my pinky finger to seal it in stone.

Everybody knows the only way to make a promise is with your pinky... It's sacred...

She chuckles and connects her pinky with mine.

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It's been about and hour and a half and we're still working on the lesson.

Oh my God.. This is so boring..

I look over at her and she's got that concentrated look on that she had yesterday.

So adorable when she's concentrating...

"Hey, could you try and find a picture of Don Quixote? I need to get my pink folder" she asks me.

"Yep"

As I'm looking for a picture I hear a grunt of frustration.

I look over and she's on a step stool reaching for her pink folder.

"Damn it! Just come here!" She yells at her pink folder who can't exactly defend itself...

I chuckle at her frustration and get up to help her.

"Here, let me get it" I tell her.

Apparently I should have warned her that I was behind her because she had no idea.

She gasped and tried to turn around but her foot slipped. She would have hit her head if I had not been right behind her.

I noticed immediately as soon she gasped that she was going to fall. On instinct, I held out my arms before she could hit her head on the desk.

"Whoa, are you okay?"I ask concerned.

I had managed to catch her in my arms and she was laying there. The only thing that was keeping her from falling to the ground was my arms against her back.

As I gazed into her eyes, I saw shock in them at what had almost happened.

"Oh my God" she says, her eyes as big as they could go.

She takes a few moments to catch her breath.

"Yes I'm ok, thank you" she replies.   She seems a little bit more calm.

I was just standing there holding her in my arms and I didn't want to let go. She fit so perfectly in them, like I was made to hold her in my arms, forever.

We were both staring at each other. Her eyes looked like they had a million emotions in them. I couldn't decifer one from the other.

God she looks so beautiful...

My eyes travel down to her lips.

so pink...

They look so soft...

I bet they taste so sweet...

All I wanted to do in that moment was to feel her lips against mine. I've never wanted anything more in my life.

But I promised her earlier I wasn't going to try anything and a promise is a promise.

And I was going to keep my promise.

For her...