Bitter Sweet

"You look awfully happy today" Jake said with suspicion.

...

"What? I can't be happy?"

"No you can. Your just sort of smiling like an idiot."

Carter laughs at Jake's remark.

I narrow my eyes at the both of them.

"The pretty reckless came out with a new album" I tell them.

I try and come up with an excuse and it was the first thing that came to mind.

Jake and Carter laugh, and I try my best to laugh along with them.

I take notice of Blossom's silence and I look over at her.

She's looking at me with narrowed eyes, like she knows something's up.

My heart rate starts to pick up.

There is no way she knows...

She can't know...

Oh God, what if she knows?

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"So if you take this sentence and add a transition word..."

I tried really hard to pay attention, but she was so distracting...

She was wearing a pair of maroon skinny jeans, which in turn showed off her perfect ass. A black button up dress shirt, that "coincidently" had a few buttons undone, and cute knee length black boots. She looked incredibly beautiful.

Everyone was either listening to her or on their phones. I'm glad they were, because I could not stop devouring her with my eyes.

My eyes slowly raked over her body, stopping at her cleavage, she let show for me.

A beautiful sight to behold.

"Lilleth"

I look up and see she's talking to me.

"Hmm?" I quirk my eyebrow.

Shit...

Did she ask me a question?...

Why is everyone staring at me?...

"Ummm..."

I sound like an idiot...

She looks at me expectantly, and she looks so fucking hot...

"You got an answer for us, Lilleth?"

Why is she insisting on humiliating me in front of the whole damn class?...

"No" I simply reply.

****riiinnng****

Everybody makes their way out of the classroom.

She walks up to the door, locking it.

"What's your fucking problem?" I ask, slightly angry.

"You still need to pay attention in my class" she replies.

"So you needed to embarrass me in front of the whole damn class?" My voice was starting to raise.

"I'm your teacher" she yells at me.

Of fuck...

That really stung...

I knew it was the truth but she was more to me than just a teacher, and I guess I thought deep down I was something more than a student...

I guess not...

"Okay" I nod my head.

"Lilleth, I didn't mean it like that" she says to me.

"I know what you meant" I say and I walk out the door.

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"Are you okay?" Carter asks me with concern.

Damn!

Can I never hide anything?...

"Yeah, I'm fine" I reply.

"You don't seem okay" Jake adds.

"It's a certain time of the month" I lie.

"Oohhhh" Jake says.

"Ew, i aint about that life" Carter says, as he dramatically walks away.

"So on a different note, who's hungry?" Jake asks.

We all raise our hands and laugh.

As we're walking to the Pizza Palace, Carter and Jake are ahead of me and Blossom, talking about God knows what.

"So what's really going on?" She asks out of nowhere.

"What do you mean?" I ask, confused.

"Well last Saturday, you were on your period, and I know that because you asked if I had any tampons with me"

Oh fuck...

I feel my heartbeat pick up.

Jake and Carter are too engrossed in what their speaking about to even notice Blossom and me are here.

*note sarcasm

"Lilleth, you know you can talk to me about anything, right?" She takes ahold of my hand.

"Yeah I know, it's just something i can't really talk about right now. I need to figure some things out first" I gently squeeze her hand.

She looks at me, really wanting to know but she shows me mercy.

"Okay, I'll be here whenever your ready to talk"

I glance at her and smile, and she smiles back.

I turn my attention to Jake and Carter to see them still talking...

Man, I'm so screwed...

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I threw on some purple skinny jeans, and a Pretty Reckless band shirt, and lastly, a grey beanie.

I didn't feel like dressing up today.

I made it through all my classes.

And by made it through, I mean I slept through all of my classes, and now I'm heading to the very last class.

I almost decided to ditch last period, and go to a bar, but decided last minute to stick through it.

I mean I still wanted to graduate.

I walk into the classroom and I see her sitting there, talking to that teacher who interrupted us.

They were laughing with each other, and he seemed to be touching her shoulder here and there. It was getting on my nerves.

I know it was wrong, but I felt jealousy course through me as I saw him making her laugh.

I was jealous because I knew making Taylor laugh was a beautiful thing. Seeing her laugh made you laugh and it made you feel happy and carefree.

I put my head down and made my way to my seat.

"All right, I'll see you later, Roper"

God I need a beer...

"Alright class, how are you guys today?" She asks.

She was wearing aeropostale jeans and a cute black cardiagan. Her hair was straightened, and even though I was angry at her, her beauty didn't cease to make my heart melt.

As she asked this, her eyes very subtly glanced over at me, and I met her gaze briefly, before shifting them to the floor.

Everybody mumbled back in response to her question.

This class is so lazy...

She continues on with her lesson, and I just stare at her.

I hated it. I wanted to be mad at her. I wanted to distance myself from her, but my heart kept pulling me towards her and i didn't understand it.

I didn't know what to make of the emotions erupting inside me, everytime i looked at her.

My thoughts were interupted as i saw everybody packing up and leaving.

Did the bell ring??

I glance up at Taylor to see her staring at me.

Everybody was gone. It was just me and her.

I told myself to get up and leave but my legs wouldn't move.

It was that force that wouldn't allow me to go, the force that always pulled me to her. The force that strayed my thoughts to her, all the time.

"Please stay" i shifted my gaze to her and i saw that she was pleading me with her eyes.

At that point i couldn't have left even if i wanted to.

"Ok" i whisper.

She started walking towards me and i felt my heart beat faster, and it happened everytime i was around her.

She kneeled down in front of me and her hand took ahold of mine.

And I immediately felt the saftey surround me. Which also happened everytime her skin touched me.

"I'm sorry, Lilly. I didn't mean it the way you took it yesterday... You know you're different, but I still have to treat you like any other student when there are people around. Look at me. You mean more to me than words can tell. I know I've only known you for a short amount of time, but you are more to me than just a student, okay?"

My eyes started to blur at her statement. I had no idea she felt this way, and i now felt like shit for not respecting her in her classroom.

"I know. I'm sorry too. I shouldn't have talked back to you in your classroom" I said with my gaze aimed at the floor.

I always had a hard time looking people in the eyes during serious moments.

I felt her hand under my chin, pulling my head up, forcing me to look at her.

"I forgive you, Lilly" she said with sweetest smile on her face, and I could have gotten lost staring into her eyes forever.

I can't help but smile at her and she returns my smile.

"Tomorrow's Friday" I say sadly.

Normally I would have been relieved since it's the weekend, and that means no school, and sleeping in, but it also meant not seeing her for the weekend.

She looks down at the ground.

"My husband's on a business trip for the weekend."

She said with such shyness.

I knew what she was implying and i was practically already driving to her place in my mind.

"Yes" i say quickly.

She looks up at me and smiles.

This is going to be a fun weekend...