: Chapter 3
Sin and Redemption
âTimeâs running out. You have exactly five minutes to fuck her, or weâll do it and maybe cut her a little while we do. Iâve never tried blood play. Maybe itâs worth the hype.â
I took a step toward Sara. She became even more still if that was possible.
With Jabbaâs, Yevgenyâs, and a third manâs keen eyes on us, I moved toward her even if it was the last thing I wanted. I memorized each face for later reference. One day, their faces would be scrunched up in agony and beg me for mercy.
I got down on my haunches right in front of Sara.
âNo secret messages or whispering!â Jabba roared.
Sara stared right into my eyes, and I had a hard time not looking away. Her doe eyes killed me with their softness and fear.
âIâll pretend,â I mouthed, hoping she understood despite her agitated state. Iâd never pretend-fucked someone.
She didnât react, and the fear in her face increased.
I tried again.
She shook her head slowly.
She obviously didnât get what I meant. This was a fucking mess.
âYou only have four minutes now. I guess quick fucks are your thing, Max?â
I touched her shoulder, but before I could push her back, she lay down on her back on the dirty concrete floor.
I looked her in the eyes as I reached under her skirt and grabbed the waistband of her tights and her panties. She tensed as I pulled them down her legs, but she didnât fight. She knew this was the only chance to protect her from the Russiansâ touch and maybe even death. They wouldnât pretend like me.
She remained still as I unzipped my pants and pulled them down. My cock was limp, but I didnât need a hard-on for what I had planned. I moved between her legs, shoved up her skirt, then pretended to thrust into her.
Sara closed her eyes with an audible wince. I wasnât sure if her reaction or my thrusts were convincing. I couldnât think straight. My thoughts only revolved around two things: killing Jabba and our escape. The assholes had even taken the knife I had in a small holster at my ankle. I only had my own body. Iâd been trained for many years to make it as lethal as possible, and it was deadlier than many weapons, but I needed proximity to use it. A sob from Sara made me look down at her again.
Saraâs cheeks turned red, and she looked away from my eyes as I thrust again. My naked skin touched her inner thigh. I hated that she had to experience this.
âYou think Iâm stupid?â
I froze mid-thrust and glanced over my shoulder at Jabba. His head was purple, and a vein on his forehead throbbed. âThat dick of yours isnât anywhere near that virgin pussy. You have two more minutes to fuck her like you mean it, or Iâll call all of my men and let them have a go at her in whatever sick way they like. And some of them are sick fucks, trust me. And afterward, Iâll throw her in a cage with the bears or the leopard. Theyâll be hungry after their long journey.â
âItâs okay,â Sara said in the quietest whisper. I looked at her, but she had her eyes closed, and her face turned away as if she didnât want to see me.
âYou better get her naked quickly.â
The seconds ticked by. Everything in me revolted against what I needed to do.
I closed off my thoughts and acted. I ripped Saraâs skirt away, leaving her naked from the waist down. Then I kicked down my own pants. Would this save Sara from a worse fate? Was I even a better fate than any of the assholes standing in line to fuck her next? This was wrong on so many levels.
My head throbbed, and my dick was still far from stiff. I closed my eyes, ignoring the phone recording what I did and everything around meâeven Sara. I couldnât think of her terrified eyes when I wanted to get it up.
I gripped my cock and stroked myself furiously, imagining all the sexy girls Iâd fucked in the past. I wasnât sure how long it took me to get hard. Jabbaâs cackling in the background told me too long. Fuck him. Fuck this.
When I had it up, I opened my eyes, and I wished I hadnât because the sight of Sara beneath me with her eyes closed, waiting for me to fuck her, almost killed my erection.
âTen seconds. Iâm not impressed.â
I didnât hesitate. With a deep breath, I thrust as far into her as her body allowed. She let out a choked sob, her face scrunched up in pain and lips pressed together. âThis is the most boring fuck Iâve ever watched. I really hope you make her scream, or Iâll be very disappointed.â
âAnd you donât want that,â Yevgeny guffawed like a baboon.
I thrust again, and I didnât look away as I did. I deserved to see the pain and tears on Saraâs face, even if it killed me. I deserved worse for what was happening.
I became numb inside, only aware of the rough concrete against my palms and the fine sheen of sweat on my forehead. Time seemed to stand still as I finally closed my eyes like a coward and returned to a scene with an imaginary woman. During our training to withstand torture, I learned to transport myself to a different place in my mind. It was a sort of hypnosis that could make you ignore pain for a long time. I never would have thought Iâd have to use it in a situation like this.
A door banged against a wall. Someone screamed something in Russian. I only understood the word Italians because I had heard it from Bratva soldiers in the past. My fantasy dissipated, and I was back to reality.
âQuick!â Jabba roared. Opening my eyes, I pushed off Sara and staggered to my feet. Jabba and Yevgeny and the third man rushed away from the door through which theyâd come in earlier. Yevgeny had his phone with him. I stormed against the bars again and again, trying to tear them down so I could chase them. My head rang from the impact. Blood spurted from my nose and a cut on my head, but I didnât stop. The pain felt fucking good. It was well deserved. Definitely not enough. They disappeared through a narrow door at the back of the hall. I froze, my head ringing with pain. In my peripheral vision, I saw how Sara pushed herself into a sitting position. Her cheeks were tearstained, and she winced in pain as she moved. The door beside our cell swung open, and several Famiglia soldiers stormed in with guns drawn.
Of course, Romero was one of them. I released a harsh breath, turned my back to the bars, and sank down. I was still naked from the waist down.
The clinking of keys sounded, and Romero entered the cell a moment later.
I didnât move from my spot on the floor.
His eyes took it all in. Saraâs panties and skirt discarded in a corner of the cell. My half-undressed state. The way she huddled against the wall with her legs pressed up against her body to preserve her modesty. It wouldnât take a genius to figure out what Iâd done. I wouldnât stop Romero from getting the revenge he deserved. Fuck, I was ready for a bullet from him, even torture. I wouldnât even try to escape into a fantasy world in my head. Iâd allow the pain.
Someone knelt in front of me. For a moment, I thought it was my best friend Amo, but the blond hair quickly told me it was his brother, Valerio. âYou okay?â
I stared at him. âOnce you put a bullet in my head in mercy, I will be.â
He narrowed his eyes at me and tossed my jeans at me. There wasnât compassion on his face. He was a Vitiello through and through. Compassion wasnât part of their programming. âGet dressed. We need to leave. My fatherâs going to ask a lot of questions.â
I put on my pants, then let him pull me to my feet. My eyes went to Sara. Romero had his arm wrapped around her shoulders. She was dressed again but didnât look my way as he led her out of the cell. Neither did he, though I suspected for very different reasons. He probably didnât want to kill me in front of his shaken daughter. I watched them leave, then followed Valerio out of the cell.
âDid you catch any of the Russians?â I asked.
âOne of them. A guard.â
âNot Jabba.â
âNo.â
I nodded. Maybe Luca would allow me to help them hunt Jabba and his men as a last service. He knew how good I was at my job. He definitely wouldnât do it out of charity.
Valerio took me to a meeting house in Brooklyn. We were the first to arrive. My skin itched, and my skull throbbed fiercely, but I didnât say anything. I wanted nothing more than a shower.
Valerio and I went to the room that Luca used for meetings on occasion. I sat on one of the hardwood chairs.
âThe docâs on his way to check on you.â
I shook my head. âHe needs to focus on Sara.â
âI think Romero and Liliana will take her to a female doctor.â
I nodded, then looked down at my feet.
The door opened with a soft creak. Two heavy sets of steps sounded. I recognized them. I rose to my feet, then forced my gaze up because I wouldnât act like a fucking coward. Amo and Luca strode toward me. Like father, like son: gray eyes, black hair. But while Lucaâs expression was thunderous, Amo appeared emotionless. Before I got a chance to analyze the look in Amoâs eyes, Valerio was already in front of him. They talked quietly for a moment.
I wasnât surprised that they kept secrets.
When Amo finally came my way, he looked seriously pissed. Weâd been best friends for half of our lives. Iâd always known it would take a major fuckup for that to change.
Amo put his hand on my shoulder. âThey played the wrong cards, those bastards. The bikers didnât succeed, nor will they.â
Surprise following confusion shot through me until it dawned on me. âThe video?â
Amo nodded severely. His gray eyes searched mine. How many had already seen what had happened? âThey sent it to my father, me, and a few others.â
âThey didnât put it up on social media?â
âNot yet. Theyâre on the run. Maybe that will give us some time.â
âI need to know everything that happened, every fucking detail,â Luca said. The door to the room opened at that moment, and Romero walked in, followed by Flavio and Matteo. Matteo, as Consigliere, would know every detail of what had happened.
âI want to be there,â Romero said firmly.
âSo do I,â Flavio agreed. Neither looked my way. Their features, hair, and eye color reminded me of Sara, making it hard to look at them.
Luca frowned, but then he gave a terse nod. Matteoâs eyes only briefly rested on me before he joined Luca.
Amo was still at my side even as the others lined up across from me like a tribunal. I wanted to ask about Sara. I needed to know she was okay, or as okay as she could possibly be, but the words got stuck in my throat. Instead, I turned to Amo. âYou should go to them.â
âIâm by your side because you look like you need support.â
âDid you watch the video?â
âI know what happened.â
âNo, you donât, or you wouldnât be by my side. Watch the video.â
Amo scowled. âI wonât. I donât need to.â
Luca ran a hand through his hair before he leveled a hard look at me. I held his gaze. I would accept whatever consequences he decided on. I wasnât usually someone who gave up without a fight, but in this caseâ¦
âTo dish out revenge as quickly as possible, we need to get as much information as possible as fast as fucking possible,â Luca said. His voice rang with barely restrained fury. He looked more furious than Romero and Flavio. Neither of them was known for violent outbursts unless required, but the tension in their bodies and the tight set of their identical lips told me a flood of emotions sat right under the surface, ready to be unleashed.
âIâll tell you everything I know so you can punish me accordingly. Iâd like to talk to my family before you deal with me, though.â My calm voice was detached, and my insides matched my tone. I felt numb. Iâd never felt this way despite the many brutal acts I had to commit in the name of the Famiglia.
Luca released a slow breath, then glanced at Romero and Flavio. âI know this is difficult, and emotions are on the rise.â He paused before he turned to me. âYou failed to protect Sara and yourself from being captured. Thatâs the only transgression I see worthy of punishment. What happened afterâ¦â He looked toward Romero, who met his gaze, his eyes full of anguish. ââ¦happened because you had no choice.â
I shook my head, not sure he understood.
âI should have picked her up,â Flavio muttered. âI would have protected her.â Accusation rang in his voice, and when he finally met my gaze, it burned in his eyes too.
I wasnât sure if that was true. As far as I recalled from my spotty memory, there had been too many enemies. But the fact remained that I had probably been the Bratvaâs target, and Sara had only been collateral damage.
âOr not, and then you might have been in the horrible position to do to your sister what Max was forced to do,â Amo said firmly. He still stood by my side. Iâd forever be grateful to him for his loyalty.
Flavioâs expression twisted with disgust. âI would have neverââ
âYou would have let the Russians have a go at her?â Amo countered.
âWould you have fucked Marcella if the bikers had captured you too?â
Amo tensed, his face becoming stone. Luca looked ready to go completely berserk. Jabba had done a good job of sowing discord. Maybe he wasnât as stupid as I thought. If it came to acts of brutality, he had more creativity than Iâd expected.
Matteo crossed his arms and regarded me with a stoic calm. He had been unusually silent so far. His lack of jokes and the fact that he hadnât bothered styling his hair to perfection like a runway model told me things couldnât be worse. âThis discussion doesnât lead us anywhere. Maximus isnât related to Sara, and he did what needed to be done in a fucking shitty situation. Even Sara knew it. You heard what she said to him.â
I swallowed hard at the mention of Sara. âHow is she?â I pressed out, my voice rough and low, every word scratching my throat. Maybe that was how Dad felt when he talked.
Nobody said anything for several seconds. Maybe I didnât deserve to know.
âLiliana took her to a doctor. Sheâs doing okay⦠physically,â Romero said quietly. His brown eyes were carefully controlled as he leveled them on me.
I nodded. âThank you for telling me.â Iâd always felt the utmost respect for Romero. He was a loyal and very skilled Made Man. Today, I admired him even more. It couldnât be easy to stay calm in a situation like this. If our roles had been reversed, I would already have killed him in a fit of rage.
The door swung open. Dad entered the room. With barely a nod toward the others, he stalked toward me. His expression was unreadable. Heâd always had my back, but I wasnât sure how he felt today. Many people said I not only resembled him with my dark hair, tall frame, and amber eyes but also his character. He gripped my shoulder and looked me in the eyes, then he squeezed and gave a slight nod. âIâm here.â
My heart swelled. I gave a grateful nod in return. I wasnât the type to put into words how much this meant to me, nor was he the type who liked to listen to emotional admissions.
âWe need to figure out how to get revenge. This needs to be at the forefront of our thoughts. We canât change what happened, but we can make sure every fucker involved gets what he deserves,â Amo said.
Luca nodded. âRevenge will be our main focus. Itâll be our first thought in the morning and our last thought at night. I donât care what it takes to kill every fucker involved.â
Romero met my gaze. âI want you to help us get revenge. Youâre one of the best when it comes to hunting and torture.â
My chest constricted. âI will do everything in my power to give Sara and your family the revenge you all deserve. I wonât rest until every Bratva asshole in this city has died the most painful death imaginable.â
Dad nodded. âWeâll get revenge, and itâll be brutal and merciless.â
âAnd we need to make sure our enemies realize we arenât easy prey just because we have enemies in every fucking corner,â Amo said angrily. He didnât agree with his fatherâs choice to attack the Camorra and make them the enemy too. âThatâs why they picked this moment to attack. They think weâre weakened by too many wars.â
Lucaâs expression was tight with rage. He and Amo had butted heads on that matter before. I wasnât sure if Amo was right, if the Russians had attacked because we had another enemy in the Camorra.
âWeâre not any weaker than before. The Camorra never helped with matters in our territory.â
âBut we canât focus on the Bratva like we used to because now we need to watch our backs. Remo will attack at some point.â
âRemo isnât my fucking concern right now. If you hadnât started things with Greta, the situation would be very different.â
âI donât care what led to this point,â Romero said tightly. âAll I care about is my daughter, who suffers innocently. I want revenge, and I want it as soon as possible. It wonât help Sara, but since itâs all I can do, Iâll do it.â
I nodded. I couldnât undo what had happened, but Iâd do anything in my power to kill Jabba and his crew. It wouldnât make Sara forgive me, but Iâd never dare ask for her forgiveness anyway.