Dark Mafia Bride: Chapter 40
Dark Mafia Bride: An Arranged Marriage, Secret Baby Romance (Mafia Vows)
Four weeks. Twenty-eight days. Forty thousand, three hundred and twenty minutes.
Thatâs how long itâs been since Mirabella walked out of my life.
I miss her. Terribly. More than words can express.
Every second without her is torture. I miss the sound of her voice, the warmth of her presence, the way she laughsâso light, so easy.
I miss waking up with her beside me, feeling the soft rise and fall of her breath as she sleeps. I miss falling asleep with her in my arms, her hair tangled around my fingers.
Every moment since she left feels like itâs dragging me further into this endless pit. And today, I decide Iâve had enough. I canât stand the emptiness anymore.
The afternoon sun is fading as I park in front of the sleek glass tower where she works. Global Hope Initiative. Itâs an NGO dedicated to providing educational resources and support to underprivileged helping children in war zones, disaster-stricken areasâplaces that would break your heart if you let them.
Mirabellaâs not just working here to build a resume for her future career in international relationsâsheâs here because this is the kind of person she isâsomeone who wants to make the world a better place
When I heard she applied for this internship, I couldnât let it go. I pulled strings, called in favors, did whatever it took to make sure she got the job. The CEO owed me a big oneâheâd taken a donation from one of my foundationsâand though I promised myself I wouldnât meddle in her life again, I couldnât stop myself.
Mirabella has always been too proud to ask for help. And now, as much as sheâll hate me when she finds out, I canât stand the thought of her struggling more than she needs to.
I step into the building, the cold air hitting me with a crispness that feels almost too sterile. The scent of fresh paper lingers in the air, mingling with the quiet buzz of activity around meâinterns and associates rushing between meetings, phones ringing in the background. My eyes scan the room, and then they lock onto her.
Sheâs sitting at the front desk, her fingers dancing across the keyboard with a familiar intensity I used to admire so much. She looks tired. There are faint shadows under her eyes, her complexion flushed from the exhaustion. But even in this state, sheâs still the most beautiful woman Iâve ever seen.
I canât help but watch her for a moment, taking in the subtle changes since the last time I saw her. Her clothes fit her differently nowâmore snugly, showing off the curves of her body and her protruding tummy. I notice it allâthe way her blouse clings to her chest, the way her hips fill out her tailored trousers.
She doesnât see me yet. And for a moment, I let myself just see her. Really see her, like I havenât in weeks. Itâs obvious that she likes her new job by the way she smiles genuinely when talking to her colleagues, but when our eyes finally meet, her face immediately hardens, that familiar coolness returning.
âEttore,â she says, her voice clipped. âWhat are you doing here?â
I donât answer immediately. Instead, I take a step closer, noticing her posture. Her back is straight, but sheâs clearly been standing for far too long.
âDo you stand all day?â I ask, trying to keep the concern out of my voice, though itâs impossible.
She blinks, clearly thrown off. âWhat?â
âYou shouldnât stand for hours like that, Mirabella. Itâs not good for youâ¦â
Her eyes flash, and I can see sheâs already shutting me out, the walls going up.
âSo, you came all the way here to tell me how to do my job?â Her voice is sharp now, defensive. âHow did you even find out where I work?â
I can feel the heat rising in my chest. Her tone stings, but I force myself to stay calm.
âYouâre monitoring me,â she accuses.
âIâm notâ ââ
âSo youâre stalking me?â She cuts me off, her words like a slap to the face. âWhy am I even surprised?â
I clench my teeth. âIâm not stalking you, Mirabella.â The words come out slower than I expect, but theyâre true. Iâm not, not in the way she means. But damn, I wish she could understand how much Iâve tried to respect her space, even if that means keeping a distance I hate.
I may have asked her boss to keep an eye on her for me, and I may have reached out to Nonna and Isabella a million times since she blocked me, but thatâs it. I didnât send Luca or any of my men to watch over her.
âAnd why should I believe you?â She crosses her arms, her eyes narrowing.
I sigh, running a hand through my hair. âI just wanted to see how youâre doing, okay?â
She doesnât look at me when she replies, her fingers moving furiously over the keyboard. âAs you can see, Iâm fine. Busy.â
Her coldness hits me harder than I expect. I do see how sheâs doingâtoo damned well. Too well for my own peace of mind. It infuriates me. She doesnât need to work hereâhell, she doesnât need to work at all. Sheâs juggling a full-time job, college, and the pregnancy, and sheâs doing it all on her own, stubbornly refusing any help.
The pay here is garbage, and the thought of her struggling like this, when I could make everything so much easier for her, drives me insane. Itâs maddening that she refuses to accept a single cent of what I send. Instead, she sends it all back, along with a tiny bits of what she calls her âdebt owed,â as if she thinks she owes me something. She doesnât.
Sheâs trying to pay me back what she claims she owes me for the few months we stayed together while I covered her bills, and the mere thought of that is as annoying as it is funny.
Sheâs so damned stubborn.
And yetâ¦I canât help but admire her. Even in this moment, even when sheâs pushing me away, I admire her for her pride. But God, itâs making this harder than I thought it would be. Itâs absurd, and yet I canât stop caring. I canât stop wanting to take care of her.
But I wonât push it. Not now. Iâll keep letting her send her so called âdebt owed,â and then Iâll wait until the end of the month to return it all. And moreâmuch more. She and her family will have everything they need. Our children will have everything they need.
I clear my throat, trying to push past the weight in my chest. âCan we talk⦠later?â I ask her quietly.
Her silence is an answer I know too well. The dismissal. The contempt.
âIâll be here when your shift ends,â I add, but I donât expect her to respond. She doesnât.
So, I wait outside, in my car, parked across the street where I can watch the door. Time crawls by. I watch the sun dip lower, and with it, my patience thins. Conversations run through my mind, my words rehearsed and reshaped. Iâm not sure how long itâs been, but when she finally steps through the front doors, my heart stutters. Sheâs holding her work bag with one arm, her eyes scanning the parking lot, and sheâs beautiful in the fading sunlight. The glow around her makes my chest tighten, but I push the feeling away. I canât let her go. Not like this.
I walk toward her, and she sees me before I get too close. Her expression tightens, and her lips purse as if sheâs trying to stop herself from saying something sharp.
âYouâre still here,â she says, her voice laced with annoyance.
âI told you I would be,â I reply, stepping closer, matching her stride as I fall into step beside her. âLet me drive you home.â
She doesnât even look at me when she answers. âI already called an Uber.â
âCancel it.â
She stops abruptly, turning her head to glare at me, her eyes burning with anger. âThere you go again, trying to order me around,â she snaps. âYou donât get to tell me what to do.â
I swallow hard, trying to keep my composure. âI wasnât trying toââ I sigh, running a hand through my hair. âOkay, Iâm sorry. I didnât mean it to sound like that. I justâ¦I really miss you, and I canât stand seeing you take some stupid cab when I have more than enough cars to drive you anywhere you want to go. Hell, Iâll buy you one if you donât like any of mine.â
She scoffs, shaking her head, her jaw tight. âThis isnât about cars or money, Ettore, and you know that. If it was, we wouldnât be having this discussion.â
The words hit me harder than I expect. Iâve been acting as if itâs about luxury or convenience, but itâs never been about that. âI know, Iâm sorry. If thatâs how it came across, thatâs not what I meant. I just hate seeing you struggle and not let me help.â
Sheâs quiet for a moment, her chest rising and falling. âEttoreâ¦â
âPlease, Bellaâ¦â I say her name like a plea, my voice softer now, hoping she can hear the desperation underneath. âJustâ¦let me take care of you. You donât have to do everything on your own.â
Thereâs a long silence between us. She stands still, her expression vague as if sheâs weighing her options.
Finally, she exhales a long, defeated sigh. âFine,â she mutters, stepping closer. âLetâs go.â
Her words are a like an instant joy, one that gives me the smallest of hope for the dark days Iâve been succumbed to since she left me. And though she hasnât fully given in, itâs enough to make me feel like Iâve won, even if just a little.
We climb into the car, and the ride is met with silence. The only sound is the hum of the engine, the blur of the city passing by in a wash of neon lights. Sheâs curled up in the passenger seat, her arms wrapped protectively around her abdomen, her gaze distant as she looks out the window. Sheâs rubbing her stomach absentmindedly, as if sheâs trying to soothe the ache in her heart as much as the ache in her body.
I know what sheâs thinking about. The babies. Our future. I feel the same fear twisting in my gut. I want to be the best father to them, to help her raise them, to be everything she needs me to be, but I donât know how.
âHave you thought about how weâre going to do this?â I ask carefully, breaking the silence because I know the next words wonât be easy. âRaising twins wonât be easy.â
She straightens, her eyes narrowing. She knows exactly where Iâm going with this. âIâll do everything the way I see fit,â she says, her voice sharp with warning. âDonât you dare start telling me what I should and should not do. Iâm not your puppet.â
I feel the heat in my chest rising, frustration bubbling over. âMirabella, Iâm not trying to control you. I just want to be there for you, for our children. I want to help.â
Her gaze hardens, but beneath it, I see the weariness. Sheâs exhausted. Her voice cracks when she speaks next.
âSupport?â she repeats, a bitter laugh escaping her lips. âLike youâve done all along? You think I want to depend on you after everything thatâs happened? I want to be with my family when I give birth, not isolated in your world.â
Her words cut deep, but I fight to keep my composure. âOf course youâll be with your family. With everyone you love. Iâm not trying to take you away from them. Youâre acting like Iâd lock you up somewhere. Thatâs not what I want.â
She laughs but thereâs no joy in it. âSo, thatâs what this is about, right? What you want? You think because Iâm carrying your children, Iâll just do whatever you say?â
âWhy are you so against me helping you?â My voice is louder now, too loud. I can hear my own annoyance slipping through, but Iâm already past the tipping point. So to hell with it, anyway. Iâm going to be there for this beautiful stubborn woman, whether she wants me to or not. The sooner she gets it the better.
âIâm the father. We donât have to agree on everything, but Iâm allowed to want to be there for you, for them. Iâm allowed to offer help, arenât I?â
âI donât want your help,â she snaps, her words biting into me. The stubbornness in her tone makes my hands clench around the wheel.
I breathe through my teeth, forcing myself to stay calm. âI have the resources, Bella. I can make this whole journey easier for you. Smoother.â
She shakes her head, her voice full of disgust. âEverything isnât about your money, Ettore,â she yells. âYour world is dangerous. It swallows people whole, and I wonât have my children trapped in it.â
I want to argue, to tell her how much I would do to protect themâto protect herâbut I canât find the words.
Anger surges inside me, but I fight to hold it back. I canât let this turn into another fight. I have to see this from her side, as hard as that is.
âI donât live that life anymore,â I whisper. âI let it go for you. Iâd walk away from it a million times more if it means I can have you again. Iâll protect youâalways. Iâll make sure youâre safe. All I need is for you to trust me.â
She lets out a short, bitter laugh. âLike the last time?â
âIâm sorry about that,â I say, my voice quiet but sincere as we wind through the busy streets. âGive me a chance to prove that Iâm better now. For you. For our children.â
She turns her face away, staring out the window, and a sickening fear grips my chest. The kind of fear that tells me Iâve lost her for good, that nothing I say or do will change anything. But then, after what feels like an eternity, she sighs. Her voice is softer when she speaks again.
âI have scheduled an appointment with the doctor next week,â she says, her tone quieter, almost hesitant. âItâs my first official doctor visit. We can go together if you have theâ ââ
âIâll make the time, Bella. I promise,â I interrupt. My heart leaps in my chest, relief flooding me like a wave. âTogether,â I repeat, the word in my mouth, like it the last two minutes might disappear if I donât. But itâs something. Itâs hope.
The silence in the car settles again, but itâs different now. Itâs not as suffocating.
As we pull into her neighborhood, I glance over at her, and I swear I see something shift in her eyes. Itâs not trustânot yet. But itâs a flicker of something that may just be the beginning of what I thought was the end. Maybe itâs a hint of the connection we used to have.
And for the first time in a long time, I let myself hold on to that. Itâs not much, but for now, itâs enough.