chapter 19

Imama drawing room mein intezar kar rahi thi jab Zainab chai lane gayi. Jalal andr aaye aur Imama ko dekh kar hairan ho gaye; unhe wahan usay dekhne ki tawaqo nahi thi. Unho ne apni mamooli tor par usay salam kiya aur Imama ne sharmate hue jawab diya. "Tum Zainab ke sath aayi ho?" unho ne poocha. "Wo kahan hai? Mujhe us se baat karni thi. Mujhe nahi pata tha ke usay mehman aaye hain, unho ne maafi mangi aur mur kar chal diye.."Ap bohot achi naats parhtay hain," Imama ne foran kaha. Unho ne apne qadam roke."Shukriya. Tumne mujhe kahan suna?""Jab mein ek din Zainab ko call kiya tha aur uska intezar kar rahi thi...aur phir Zainab ne mujhe muqable ke bare mein bataya. Aapne wo naat parhi thi..." Usne kaha aur Jalal uljhan mein par gaye-kya wo khush hotay ya hairan? Unho ne uska shukriya ada kiya-ye lambi, patli chadar mein lapeti hui larki jinki kali aankhon ka ajeeb asar tha Bohat logon ne unke hunar ki tareef ki thi magar is larki ki tareef qabil-e-gour thi, aur ziada aham uska izhar tha. Wo drawing room se chale gaye. Larkiyon se baat kama unka maamool nahi tha, aur wo bhi aisi larki se jo unki liye ajnabi thi. Imama wahan behtay hue ek alag hi josh mein thi-usay yaqeen nahi aa raha tha ke usne Jalal Ansar se baat ki thi. Itna qareebi-uske samne. Wo us jagah ko ghoorti rahi jahan wo thodi dair pehle kharay thay, aur apne zehan mein wo ab bhi unhe wahan dekh sakti thi.                            ......♡.......Unki agli mulaqat hospital mein hui. Agar Imama Zainab ke ghar apni marzi se gayi thi, to ye mulaqat ikhtiyari thi. Wo Rabia ke sath gayi thi jo wahan apni dost se milne gayi thi. Jab usne corridor mein Final Year ke students ke sath Jalal ko dekha to uska dil ek pal ke liye ruk gaya. Corridor itna bhara hua tha ke Imama unki taraf nahi ja sakti thi aur usay tab ehsaas hua ke uske liye khud ko rokna kitna mushkil hai. Jab wo kamre mein baithi thi, uske khayalat bahar uske sath hi the..Jab Rabia aur Imama ek ghante se zyada baad bahar aaye, to students corridor se chale gaye the; usay ek dard ka ehsaas hua. Rabia seerhiyon se utarte hue guftagu mein masroof thi aur wo samne se Jalal se aamna samna kar lete hain, Imama ne ek bijli si apne andar dauri mehsoos ki. "Assalaam Alaikum, Jalal Bhai! Kaisa hain aap?" Rabia ne unhe salam kiya.Jalal ne tameez se jawab diya, phir poocha ke wo hospital kyun aaye hain. Rabia ne waja samjhayi jabke Imama khamoshi se unhe dekhti rahi."Dastgiri meri tanhai ki too ne hi to kiMe to mar jata agar sath na hota tera"Unki awaaz ne usay aik jaadu sa kar diya. Bohat kam hi usne kisi ko itni shuddh Urdu bolte suna tha, aur jab bhi wo bolte, uski awaaz usay pehli baar suni hui khoobsurat naat yaad dila deti. Usay aik ajeeb si fakhar aur jalan mehsoos hui unhe dekhte hue Rabia se baat karte hue, shayad Jalal ko Imama ki tawajju ka ehsaas hua aur unho ne muskurate hue uski taraf dekha. Imama ne nazar hata li. Aik lamha ke liye uska behad dil chahta tha ke wo unke qareeb ho jaye. Usne unse nazar hata li, aur apne ird gird dekhte hue, "la- haul" apne labon par dohraya. "Shayad Shaitan mujhe gumrah karna chahta hai," usne apne aap se kaha, magar burai ko door karne ki duaein mangne ke bawajood, uske jazbat mein koi farq nahi aaya: wo ab bhi usay waisa hi mehsoos kar rahi thi. Kai saal ke Asjad ke sath mangni ke bawajood, usay kabhi us tarah nahi mehsoos hua tha. Us din wahan khaday rehte hue, usay pehli baar Jalal se dar laga. "Agar main apne aap par qaboo kho doon jab bhi usay dekhoon to kya hoga? Main kabhi itni kamzor nahi thi. Usmein aisa kya hai jo meri iradon ko pighla deta hai?"                           ......♡......Zainab ne Jalal ke kamre ka darwaza knock kiya aur andr aayi. "Kya aap free hain?" usne poocha, phir bola. "Mujhe aik dost se guzarish hai: kya aap apni awaaz mein kuch naats cassette par record kar sakte hain?" Jalal hairan hua aur usne us se poochne wale andaaz mein dekha."Ye meri dost Imama ke liye hai. Usne mujhse request ki aur maine maan li." Jalal muskuraya-usay us se mulaqat yaad aayi. "Kya wo wahi larki hai jo yahan thi?" usne poocha "Haan. Wo Islamabad se hai magar yahan parhti hai. Wo hostel mein rehti hai. Uske walid ek baray industrialist hain, magar wo bohot modest hai, Zainab ne bataya. "Jo maine dekha uske sath, lagta hai wo bohot deeni hai," Jalal ne dekha."College ka mahol us par asar nahi kiya." "Haan. Jab se wo aayi hai hamesha chadar leti hai aur mujhe lagta hai uska khandan bohot conservative hal. Magar sab bohot well-educated hain, uske bhai aur behnein bhi. Wo sab se choti hai," Zainab ne bataya. "Toh aap cassette record karenge na?""Kal mil jayegi," usne jawab diya. Zainab kamre se chali gayi aur wo wapas apni kitaab parhnay laga.                        ......♡......Unki agli mulaqat library mein hui. Imama ka reaction bilkul achanak tha jab usne wahan dekha: wo aage barhi aur usay salam kiya. "Main aapka shukriya ada karna chahti thi. Jalal ne hairani se uski taraf dekha. "Cassette ke liye." Usne muskurate hue kaha. "Mujhe andaza nahi tha ke mujhse aisi darkhwast ki jayegi." "Aap bohot naseeb wale hain usne dheemi awaaz mein kaha."Kis tarah se?" "Har tarah se aapko bohot kuch mila hai.""Aap bhi bohot naseeb wali hain," usne jawab diya. Usne uski taraf udasi bhari muskurahat ke sath dekha aur Jalal ko shak hua ke uski aankhein num hain. Usne apni nazar jhuka li."Shuruwat mein mere paas kuch nahi tha, lekin ab hai," usne utni hi narmi se kaha. Jalal uske alfaz ko samajhne ki koshish kar raha tha. "Aapke paas Nabi (PBUH) ke liye itni izzat, itna pyaar hai jab aap unka naam lete hain..." usne adhoori baat chhod di magar Jalal uske alfaz mukammal hone ka intezar karta raha. "Mujhe aap se jalan hoti hai," usne kaha. "Har koi aapki tarah mehsoos nahi karta. Na hi wo apni mohabbat ka izhar aapki tarah kar sakte hain-aisi tarah se jo sunne wale ko Nabi (PBUH) ke qadam par girne par majboor kar de. Hazrat Muhammad (PBUH) bhi aapko pyar karte honge." Usne uski taraf dekhte hue kaha, saaf aankhon se. "Shayad, ye mera ghalat fehmi thi," usne socha, phir bola. "Agar aisa hai to waqai main bohot naseeb wala hoon. Main sirf itna jaanta hoon ke mujhe hamare Nabi (PBUH) ke liye gehra pyaar aur izzat mehsoos hoti hai aur ye mere liye waqai ek barkat hai. Allah kuch logon ko hi ye ehsaas deta hai." Jalal ne jazbat ke sath kaha aur Imama apni nazar uspar se hata nahi sakti thi. Usne kabhi apne aap ko itna chhota mehsoos nahi kiya jitna ab kar rahi thi. "Shayad main bhi kabhi naats parhun, lekin Jalal Ansar ki shiddat ke sath nahi. Meri awaaz logon ko kabhi bhi aise nahi jhunjhodegi jaise uski tilawat karti hai," usne afsos ke sath socha jab wo library se door chali gayi.Un mulaqaton ke baad, Imama ne apni poori koshish ki ke wo Jalal se door rahe-even uske bare mein sochne se bhi door rahe. Usne Zainab se bhi faasia barhane ki koshish ki, lekin sab bekar. Har guzarte din ke sath uski majboori barhti gayi aur wo bilkul toot gayi."Usme kuch hai jo meri sab deewarein tor deta hai," usne tasleem kiya.Shayad ye tasleem karna hi tha jo uska dhyan phir Jalal ki taraf le gaya; shayad pehle ye gher iradi amal tha, lekin ab usne jaan bujhkar Jalal ko Asjad ki jagah apni zindagi mein rakh diya. "Mujhe aise shakhs ki saathiyat ki talash karna galat kya hai jinki awaaz mujhe mere Nabi (PBUH) ke huzoor le aati hai? Mujhe aise shakhs ki khwahish kyun na ho jo Nabi (PBUH) se mere se zyada mohabbat karta hai? Mujhe dua kyun na karni chahiye ke hamare naseeb jurein, ke unka naam meri pehchaan ho? Wo ek aise shakhs hain jinko main jaanti hoon, jinko main unki barkaton ke liye jalan karti hoon.Imama ke paas apne jazbat ko durust sabit karne ke liye tamam wajoohat thi, tamam jawabat the. Usne Jalal ke paas hone ke tareeqe dhundhne shuru kar diye. Wo Zainab ko tab call karti jab wo jaanti thi ke Jalal bhi ghar hoga, kyunke wo aksar phone uthata tha. Be-maksad guftagu unke darmiyan lambi aur maqsad mand hoti gayi aur aakhirkar wo milne lage. Javeria, Rabia aur Zainab ko Imama aur Jalal ki barhte hue dosti ka pata nahi tha. Wo ek house job kar raha tha aur Imama aksar uske hospital jati thi. Unho ne apne pyaar ka izhar nahi kiya tha lekin wo apne jazbat se puri tarah waqif the. Usay pata tha ke Imama ke jazbat uske liye sirf attraction se zyada hain aur wo bhi apne jazbat ke bare mein waqif thi.Jalal itna deeni tha ke usne kabhi nahi socha tha ke wo kisi larki ke sath aise involved hoga ya us se aise milega, lekin sab kuch gher iradi aur ahista ahista hua. Usne apne jazbat ke bare mein Zainab ko nahi bataya agar usne bataya hota, to wo usay Asjad ke sath mangni ke bare mein bata deti. Agar usay pata hota, to wo bohot ehtiyaat se kaam leta aur rishta is had tak na barhta............Ek mulaqat ke douran, Imama ne aik tajwez pesh ki, jo Jalal ke liye bohot hairat ki baat thi. "Jab aapki house job khatam hogi to aap kya plan karte hain?" "Main specialization ke liye abroad jaunga." "Aur phir?" "Phir wapas aake apna khud ka hospital kholunga." "Kya aapne shaadi ke bare mein socha hai?" Uske sawal ne Jalal ko chonkaya. "Har koi shaadi ke bare mein sochta hai," usne muskurate hue jawab diya. "Aap kis se shaadi karne ka plan karte hain?" "Ye to dekhna padega." Thodi der ke baad, Imama ne poocha, "Kya aap mujhse shaadi karenge?" Jalal bohot hairan reh gaya aur jawab nahi de saka. "Kya maine aapko naraaz kiya?" usne poocha jab wo chuppi mein tha. Usne apna sawal dohraya, aur usay uski soch se jagaya. "Ye sawal to mujhe aapse poochna chahiye tha. Kya aap mujhse shaadi karengi?" "Haan." Usne pur-sukoon aur mazbooti se jawab diya. "Aur aap?" "Main....main....haan, zaroor. Aur main kis se shaadi karunga?" Usne dekha ke uske chehre par ek chamak aa gayi jab usne apni baat mukammal ki. "Jab meri house job khatam ho jayegi, to main apne walidain ko aapke ghar formally bhejunga." Wo kuch der chup rahi, phir boli, "Jalal, main aap se apne walidain ki marzi ke baghair kaise shaadi kar sakti hoon?" Wo hairan hua. "Aapka kya matlab hai?" "Ho sakta hai ke wo hamari shaadi par aitraaz karen." "Kya aapne unhe hamare bare mein bataya nahi? Aapko unka reaction kaise pata?" "Nahi," usne kaha. "Lekin main unhe jaanti hoon." Jalal pareshan ho gaya. Usne uske walidain ki taraf se koi rukawat nahi sochi thi, lekin wo jaanti thi ke aisa hoga. "Kya aap phir bhi mujhse shaadi karenge, unki mukhalfat ke bawajood?" Usne soch mein parh gaya aur uski chuppi ne Imama ko pareshani mein daal diya. Aakhirkar, usne bola. "Haan. Phir bhi, aap meri ek lauti choice hongi. Main kisi aur se shaadi karne ka soch bhi nahi sakta. Main aapke walidain ko manane ki koshish karunga, lekin agar wo inkaar karte hain to bhi hum aage barhenge." "Kya aapke......     Contine ✍️ ✍️ ✍️