chapter 17

uske imaan ki gehrai aur junoon mein hai jis ke saath woh parhta hai," usne aage kaha. "Woh Rasool Allah (pbuh) se bepanah mohabbat karta hai. Usne kabhi Quran aur naats ke siwa kuch nahi parha. Jab bhi usay doosray events mein shirkat kame ko kaha jata hai, woh kehta hai ke jo zabaan Allah aur uske Rasool ki khidmat karti hai woh kisi aur ki tareef nahi kar sakti."Ham bhi Rasool Allah (pbuh) se mohabbat karte hain, lekin maine apne bhai jaisa junoon kisi mein nahi dekha. Usne pichlay das saal mein ek bhi namaz nahi chhodi aur har mahine Quran mukammal parhta hai. Tumhe uski Qirat sunni chahiye..." Zainab ne apne bhai ki tareef ki. Imama khamoshi se sun rahi thi magar aur koi sawal nahi kiya.                               ........    Agli subah, Imama bas bistar mein lipti hui padi rahi bajaye iske ke class ke liye tayar hoti. "Tumhari class nahi hai? Der ho rahi hai," Javeria ne usay jagane ki koshish ki."Tum chali jao-main nahi ja rahi," Imama ne kaha, aankhein band karte hue."Kyoon?" "Tabiyat theek nahi," Imama ne jawab diya. "Tumhari aankhein lal ho rahi hain-bohot zyada. Kya tum kal raat theek se nahi soyi?" "Nahi... aur ab, please mujhe sone do." Imama ne aur sawaalon se bachne ke liye kaha aur Javeria class ke liye nikal gayi.Imama waqai theek se nahi soyi thi. Jalal Ansar ki awaaz uske aas paas goonjti rahi aur woh kisi aur cheez par dhyaan nahi de sakti thi. Uska naam apne honton par bar bar repeat karti rahi, sochti rahi ke aakhir usay kya cheez uski taraf kheench rahi thi, kyoon woh usay apne zehan se nikal nahi pa rahi thi. Imama ko Zainab ke alfaaz yaad aaye jab woh khidki ke paas khadi thi. "Uski awaaz ki khoobsurati uske imaan ki gehrai aur junoon mein hai jis ke saath woh parhta hai. Woh Rasool Allah (pbuh) se bepanah mohabbat karta hai." Imaan ki gehrai, junoon, uski awaaz ka dard aur mithaas...kya tha jo usay itna mutasir kar gaya? "Duniya ki ibtida Khaliq ke ishq se hoti hai aur inteha uske Rasool Muhammad (pbuh) ke ishq par hoti hai," usne yaad kiya. Yeh soch usay khamoshi aur gehri soch mein le gayi as if woh apne andar gahrayi mein ja rahi thi, andheray mein roshni ya hidayat dhoond rahi thi. "Kya cheez hai jo Rasool Allah (pbuh) ke ashqeen ko aansoon mein ghira deti hai? Jo unke dil ko choo leti hai? Imaan? Ishq? Junoon? Kyoon main aansoon nahi baha saki?""Kyoon mere honton par tareef ke alfaaz nahi aaye?" Imama ki awaaz toot gayi jab usne Jalal ke parhaye hue alfaaz dohrane ki koshish ki. Usne gala saaf kiya aur phir se koshish ki khuli khidki ke paas khadi hui. Aadha raste mein, woh ruk gayi: Jalal ki awaaz usay sata rahi thi, bilkul wazeh aur buland, jaise azan ki awaaz. Usay apne chehre par nami mehsoos hui aur samajh aaya ke woh ro rahi thi. Uski ungliyon ne uski bheegi aankhon ko chuwa. Pareshan, aur apne chehre ko haathon se chhupate hue, woh farsh par gir gayi aur dil khol kar roti rahi, insaan ke liye shayad sabse mushkil museebat tab hoti hai jab uska dil ek na-taale shaksiyat ko tasleem kar raha hota hai magar uski zubaan use izhar nahi kar sakti, jab uska zehan sachai ko qubool kar raha hota hai magar woh usay bol nahi sakta.Imama Hashim apne aap ko isi dorahaye par pa rahi thi. Woh faisia jo usay pichlay do ya teen saal se azab mein mubtala kar raha tha, woh ek awaaz se ho gaya-bina imaan ki burniyad ko talaash karte ya jaanchte hue Rasool Allah (pbuh) par. Saalon se, usne apne Rasool ki tareef sun rakhi thi, magar kabhi is tarah ka asar nahi hua-kabhi aansoon nahi aaye na dil pighla lekin jab bhi usne Hazrat Muhammad (pbuh) ke baare mein suna, padha ya baat ki usay ajeeb sa asar mehsoos hota, woh uriki taraf khicha chala jata. Sabiha ke dars par uska mukabla khatam ho gaya, aur Jalal Ansar ki awaaz jaise raasta dikhane wali jugnu thi."Me tujhe alam-e-ashya me bhi paa leta hoon Log kehte hain ke hai alam-e-baala tera"Yeh Imama ke liye ek naye safar ka aaghaz tha. Wo regular Sabiha ke paas jaati thi aur in jamaat mein hissa lena uske faislay ko mazbooti deta aur uske shakook ko door karta. Islam qabool karna Imama ke liye ek bhari faisla tha, jo uske har pehlu ko mutasir karta tha. Ab wo Asjad se shaadi nahi kar sakti thi kyun ke wo Musalman nahi tha; aur jald he ya baad mein apne ghar walon se door hona parhta tha, kyun ke wo aisi mahaul mein nahi reh sakti thi jahan Islam ke haqaiq aur uske usool khule aam mubham kiye ja rahe the. Usay apne taleem ke liye di gayi funds aur uski zindagi ke kharch ke liye milne wale paiso ke asal zariye par shak hone laga tha. Wo zindagi jo pehle jaise ek khayali duniya lagti thi, ab woh ek khalab dikhayi dene lagi thi, phir bhi usne khud hi is raaste ko chuna tha. Usay apni is mukhalifat par hairat hoti thi: usne Allah se himmat aur istiqamat ke liye dua ki thi aur uski dua qubool hui thi, lekin wo ab bhi itni jawan thi ke dar aur shak ke shikar ho sakti thi. Imama, apne walidain ko abhi apni mazhab ka izhar mat karo. Tum khud par qaim rehna seekho phir tum Asjad se shaadi se inkaar kar sakti ho aur apne parivar ko apni mazhab ki khabar de sakti ho," yeh Sabiha ne Imama ke musibat par guftagu karte waqt mashwara diya."Main apne walid ke diye hue paise istemal nahi karna chahti, khas kar jab mujhe pata hai ke unhone apni dolat kufr ki jhooti tashkeel mein kamai hai. Aise funds ka istemal sahi nahi hoga,""Yeh sahi hai, lekin tumhare pass koi aur rasta nahi hai. Behtar hai ke tum apni taleem mukammal kar lo ta ke tum apne walid par depend na rahe,"Bari mushkil se bari jabki Sabiha ne koi rasta dikhaya na ho Imama ke pass, to is ke pass koi rasta nahi tha: us ke pass apne khawab ko chorhne ki himmat nahi thi.                              ......♡...... Salar side............................Raat das bajay thay jab wo cinema hall se bahar aaya aur chalte hue baaki popcorn kha raha tha. Adhe ghante baad, usne ek bade haweli ke darwaze ki ghanti bajayi."Kya main khana serve karun, Sahab?" naukar ne poocha."Nahi.""Doodh?""Nahi."Wo apne kamre ki taraf chala gaya aur darwaza band kar diya. Light on karke, usne bekaar mein idhar udhar phaile hue kitabon aur kagazon ko chhua. Phir usne bathroom mein jaake shaving kit se ek naya razor blade liya aur apne bistar par baith gaya. Bedside lamp on karke, usne main lights off kiye. Bahut dhyan se, usne blade ko khol ke, ek tezi se apne daaye haath ki kalai par ek zakhm lagaya. Ek siiski uske munh se nikli par usne apne honthon ko kas kar daba liya. Usne apne aankhein khuli rakhne ki koshish ki jab uska daaya haath bistar ke kinare par latka hua tha, khoon ek barabar nali ke roop mein farsh par beh raha tha.Uska dimaagh aisa laga jaise ek chakkar mein chala gaya ho jahan se achanak phatke usse hila dete thay. Shor tez hota gaya aur usne apni aankhein kholi, lekin use iska koi matlab samajh nahi aaya Usay zabardasti neend se jagaya gaya.                            .......♡......."Imamal Imama!" Yeh Waseem tha, jo zor se uska naam pukar raha tha aur darwaza pe zor zor se dastak de raha tha"Kya hai? Kyu chillaa rahe ho?" Usne darwaza khola to dekha Waseem panic mein tha."Kya tumhare paas First Aid kit hai?""Haan, kyun?" Usay laga zameen phisal rahi hai."Bas lekar chalo mere saath. Choo-Choo ne phir se khudkushi karne ki koshish ki hai-usne apni kalai kaat li hai. Unka naukar neeche hai... chalo jaldi!"Imama ne achanak se sukoon ka saans liya.."Tumhara dost mental hospital ka case hai, uske rawayye ko dekh kar," usne ghusse se kaha aur apna dupatta uthaya aur Waseem ke peechay chal di."Maine abhi dekha hai-woh abhi hosh mein hai," Waseem ne kaha jab woh seedhiyan utar rahe thay."Tumhe usay seedha hospital le jana chahiye tha.""Woh bhi karenge, lekin pehle uski kalai pe patti bandho taa ke khoon ruk sake.""Main zyada kuch nahi kar sakti, Waseem. Allah jaane usne kis cheez se kalai kaatihai, waise, uska gharwala kahan hai?" Imama ne poocha."Ghar mein sirf naukar hi hain. Woh usay phone call ke baare mein batane aaye thay aur koi jawab na milne par unhone darwaza tod diya."Imama kuch kehne lagi Salar ke baare mein, magar Waseem ne ghusse se mud kar kaha, "Khuda ke liye, apne comments band nahi kar sakti? Uski haalat serious hai aur tum ho jo usay bura bhala keh rahi ho!" Mujhe aise logon se koi humdardi nahi hai jo aise kaam karte hain."Ab woh Salar ke ghar mein thay aur kuch dair mein uske kamre mein dakhil ho gaye. Imama dehleez par ruk gayi, hairan reh gayi. Pooray kamre mein aadhi nangi models ke posters lage hue thay-bilkul aisa lag raha tha jaise woh waqai wahan hain. Woh sharm se lal ho gayi aur bistar par padhe huye zakhmi naujawan ki izzat uski nazar mein aur gir gayi. Posters uske kirdar ki peep lagte thay aur dusre logon ke wahan hone ki wajah se imama ko sharam mehsoos ho rahi thi. Woh jaldi se bistar ki taraf badhi jahan Salar Sikandar pada tha. Waseem uski kalai ko chadar ke kone se thaame hue tha taa ke khoon ruk sake, jabke Salar, aadhe hosh mein, khud ko azad kame ki koshish kar raha tha aur saath saath Waseem aur naukaron se baat karne ki koshish kar raha tha."Uska zakhm dekho," Waseem ne kaha aur Salar ki kalai ko dikhaya.Imama ne chadar hataayi-zakham lamba aur gehra tha. Salar ne phir se apni baazu kheenchne ki koshish ki magar Imama ki pakad mazboot thi."Waseem, First Aid kit se patti nikaalo. Zakham bohot gehra hai-hum yahan kuch nahi kar sakte, usay hospital le jaana hoga. Main uski kalai pe patti bandhti hoon taa ke khoon ruk sake," usne kaha.Salar ne apna sar jhatka aur ankhain kholne ki koshish ki. Har cheez dhundli thi jisme usne dekha ke ek ladki uski baazu ko mazbooti se pakre hue hai. Ghusse mein usne apni baazu kheenchne ki koshish ki magar dard ki lehr se bhar gaya: usay mehsoos hua jaise wo mar jayega magar agle hi pal phir se usne apni baazu chudane ki koshish ki."Tum kaun ho? Chali jao! Chale jao yahan se!" usne ghusse ke bawajood ladkhadate huye kaha. "Yeh mera kamra hai... tumhari himmat kaise hui yahan aane ki? Tum Waseem ho... nikal jaol Chale jao yahan se... haramzade!" usne cheekh kar kaha, alfaz phir se ghalat bolte huye.Imama ne suna usne uske bhai ko gaali di, magar Salar ki kalai nahi chhodi aur uski tadap ke bawajood uski kalai pe patti bandhne lagi. Dhund mein, Salar ne apni kalai pe kuch narmi mehsoos ki. Usne phir se apni doosri baazu se chudane ki koshish ki, magar woh nakam raha.         Contine ✍️ ✍️ ✍️