Part 10

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Alexa

Its sunday today and

we are now sitting on my sofa

Harry was sitting beside me his one arm wrapped around my shoulder and me curled up by his side

We were watching 'the vampire diaries'

"Don't you have any work to do today?" I ask my eyes on tv

Then i slowly look up at him and he was watching tv with focus

I shake him "hellooo chimpanzee"

His eyes snapped to me "yeah"

I pursued my lips "you didn't listen to anything i said"

He blinked "no i-" he stopped

I rolled my eyes "you don't have any work to do today?"

He clicked his tongue "no i took a day off"

I nodded

Then we started watching it again

And i realised

Why am i so curled up and cuddly with him?

He does not love me

And he had sex with some girl that day

Instantly anger burns inside me and i back off from him

And sat up folding my arms i glared at him

He turned his head slowly towards me and smiled sheepishly "what happened?" He ask innocently like he doesn't know anything

Oh reallyyyyy???

I paused the series and continue to glare him

"Sweetheart you have to talk to me if i did anything wrong... which i don't know what i did" he said last part slowly slightly confused

"You.slept.with.the.girl" i narrowed my eyes at him

He furrow his eyebrows "wha-" i cut him off

"You did! Ha! I knew it i knew it!" I yelled

And his eyes widened

"You don't know what am i planning in my mind to do to you right now"

He opened his mouth but i stopped him

"No... no don't you dare try to tell me you didn't have sex with her! Oh cause i know!!" I nodded "yeah i know that you did!" I yelled "i want to cut your irritating chimpanzee head off right now and feed it to.. to..." i think a little "yes! To a gorilla" i grin evilly

"I did not have sex with her" he said in boring tone

"You did, and then you come back to me, and may i ask why?"

He took his cigarette pack out and then took on cigarette out and lit it "cause i missed you" he said and smoke

I gasped "You are smoking in my Apartment!! In my apartment!!??"

He frown

"Get.out" i said

"You need to calm-" i cut him off

"No either you throw that away or you get out of my apartment" i said pointing him with my finger

He groan "fine" he gave the pack to me and his cigarette also "happy?" He raised his hands in surrender

I rolled my eyes and threw the packet away

I sat down on sofa again and little far from him

"Now tell me, how many girls have you had sex with?" I ask with curiosity

He frowns "i don't know"

I glare at him "Speak"

He pursue his lips and think "i mean 20? Or 25? I don't know"

My eyes widened and they almost pop out of socket "are you serious?"

"I am not sure maybe more than this" he shrugged

He is acting so casual like it is nothing

Oh are you kidding me man

"Out of my house" i said

"Listen" i tried to speak but he didn't let me "let me speak for fuck sake"

I sigh "okay"

"So yes i did have sex with them but no i have got not any single feelings for one of them i have sex with them when i am stressed or when i am really done with everyone then i call them or i go to the club and have sex with them and i never see their faces again having sex well that releases my tension and stress" he explained

I made a disgusting face "but that is really weird harry.. i... i mean you could talk to someone to release you from whatever stress you are having which god knows what it is but this is not any solution"

He didn't answer

I sighed "and about drugs and drinks? Is that good?"

"Yeah i don't think about anything... what i meant to say is i don't stress if i take drugs or drink... soo..... there you have it" he release a breathe running a hand in his hair

I shook my head and got a little closer to him i touch his shoulder and he looked at me in the eye without any emotion

"Look harry... " i run my fingers on my forehead and sighed "doing all these things aren't gonna ease your problems they are just gonna make it more worse, having sex taking drugs, drinking... that is not..... good and it is uh.. really bad for your health except sex it is okay i mean it does not harm

Your health but you could've saved it for someone who is worth it" i look back and forth between his two eyes trying to explain him "and talking about stress then you can release it any other way by running... it reduces your stress or by gymming extra there are many other solutions then these, the one that you chose are the worst ones"

He nodded slowly "yeah.. i think you're right" he mumbled i smiled slightly "but i am addicted to it lex... there's nothing i can do"

I bit my lip

This isn't right alexa don't be stupid

One voice spoke in my mind

No i mean i can do this for harry? Right?

Another voice spoke in my mind

Shut up alexa you have never thought about it how are you gonna?

I will do this for harry

No-

"I can be one of your solution" i said biting my lip and looking down at my hand

Not meeting his eyes

He put his finger under my chin and made me look at him "what are you saying?" He asked in slow voice

"I... i mean i can... uh.." i clear my throat "you can have s-sex with me" i said biting my lip

He looked at me for some second and then he chuckled "what"

Not believing what i said

"That will solve one of your problem right? And you don't have to find any other girl sooo... there's that"

He cupped my cheeks "thankyou so much for saying that lex... thankyouu really much but i can't take advantage of you... you are.. different from all the girls and i... i can't use you" he shook his heads and then he kissed my forehead and he pressed his forehead with mine and sighed he closed his eyes not saying anything

"harry" i whispered

He hummed

"I love you" i said softly

He froze and then he opened his eyes slowly

He backed off and watched me with his shocking expression "you love me?" He asked

I nodded

He frowns "no, you.. you can't love me lex i.... I don't deserve love"

"No.." I moved forward and tried to touch his cheek but he backed off

I looked at him with my mouth opened a little

I backed off and looked down at my hands "you do deserve love" i whispered

He run his hands on his hair and groan "you shouldn't have loved me lex! I am a MOTHERFUCKER!" He yelled and i flinch "DON'T YOU KNOW THAT I AM A FUCKING BAD PERSON!? DON'T YOU SEE?" He yelled louder and i whimper a little scared of him

"I FUCKING HURT PEOPLE! I FUCKING BREAK THEM INTO PIECES!" he stood up and i watched him with fear

"You know the people i love? I fucking break them" he said in low voice

"WHY DID YOU LOVED ME!?" He yelled again louder

"N-no i- i don't l-love you" i said softly trying to calm him down

He chuckled bitterly "DON'T FUCKING LIE TO ME!"

I flinch and tears start to form in my eyes

He rubbed his hands on his face "FUCK!"

A sob escape my mouth and i quickly put a hand on my mouth

Harry looked at me and he started coming close i flinch and back

"Lex.. are you crying?" He ask softly

He touched my cheeks but i flinch louder

He quickly removed his hands

"D-don't hurt me please..." i shut my eyes tightly

I opened my eyes and saw harry's face showing guilt and his eyes telling he is veryy sorry

"I- i didn't mean to-" i cut him off

"You scared me.." i bring my knees close to my chest "h-harry p-please don't.." my voice barely audible

"No..no i won't hurt you baby.. i won't" he whispered his face showing guilt

"You don't deserve me" he cupped my cheek and i didn't flinch he caressed it "you deserve someone you won't hurt you... i am a motherfucker lex and i know no matter how hard i try i will hurt you..." he removed his hands

"But i love you harry... d-do you?" I ask

He didn't answered and start getting up

"Where are you going?" I ask

"I am leaving and i won't come back" he looked up at me "i am sure you'll find a great guy... bye lex" he said and left

I watch the door as it shut with my mouth agape and my eyes started watering the tears start running down and i just stare at the door without saying anything

I was helpless

again

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Okayyy that was........

Idk it was mixed emotion

What do y'all think does harry love lexi?

If he does then he shouldn't have left her righttt?

*sigh* well lets see what is gonna happen now

Love you alll ❤️❤️❤️🫂