Valda almost instinctively wanted to step back, but she forgot that there was a sofa behind her. As she stepped back, she stumbled and ended up sitting on the sofa.
Brian finally lifted her long skirt, revealing her slightly deformed right calf that caught his eye.
She wanted to pull up her skirt, but he was pressing down on her hand, preventing her from doing so.
âDidnât you show it to me before? Why⦠donât you want me to see it now?â he asked.
âThereâsâ¦nothing worth seeing,â Valda said, lowering her head. âJust like you said, Iâve already seen it, so why bother seeing it again?â
âBut⦠I want to look at it a little more.â He fixed his gaze on her right calf, and his slender fingers gently stroked the deformed area. âItâs because you wanted to protect me that you got hurt like this, right Valda? You really, really love me, donât you?â
âNo!â She quickly denied, âI⦠I used to love you very much, but now I feel that this feeling is not as strong as it used to be. Also, I didnât get hurt just to save you. At that time, I was trying to save Jasmine, and it had nothing to do with you.â
âAre you sure itâs okay?â When he heard her say that her feelings for him were not as strong as they used to be, his heart twisted with pain. Even though he told himself that maybe it was her own insecurity, it still hurt too much. âValda, when you saved Jasmine back then, was it because you didnât want me to blame myself and suffer? Were you afraid that I would feel guilty towards Grace and be in unbearable pain?â
She fell silent! Her head hung even lower, afraid to look at his expression at the moment.
âHave you ever thought about what would happen if you werenât here? Do you really think that I would rather you risk your life to save Jasmine?â Brian whispered.
âThat isâ¦the best choice. If something happens to Jasmine, many people will be heartbroken. Butâ¦if something happens to me, even though everyone will be sad and upset, it wonât be too serious. It wonât be to the point where they canât go on living,â
Valda said in a hesitant tone.
So she chose to face death on her own terms!
Brian forced a bitter smile and said, âDo you really think that if something happened to you, no one would be heartbroken to the point of not being able to go on? Then what about me? What does my decision even matter?â
âWhat does it mean? Iâ¦I donât understand,â she stammered.
âYes, you donât understand, you donât know, when you were in trouble, I was almost going crazy. Do you know how I survived?â
he said.
She slowly lifted her head and couldnât help but let her gaze fall on the man kneeling in front of her. Her heart seemed to suddenly beat faster.
She saw his mouth opening and closing as he spoke, âItâs just that because I havenât found you yet, Iâm still alive. I wonât let anyone speculate about your possible death in front of me, but in my heart, I tell myself that if one day, I really do find your body, then Iâll go down and be with you.â