âDo you care about me?â She smiled bitterly. âThat word isnât only something you say butâ¦â She did not continue speaking after a pause.
However, he already knew what she was going to say Brian turned pale. He knew that the incident at the comic fiesta was something that bothered her He was the one who caused it!
âAlso, I think weâd better talk about the possibility of me getting pregnant!â she said.
âOkay, go ahead,â he said as he asked the others in the living room to leave.
âWill you insist that I have the baby if I get pregnant?â she asked, looking at him.
âIf youâre pregnant, I donât want to lose the baby,â he said. He had never longed for children even though his parents had always wanted grandchildren, even if it was out of wedlock.
However, such ideas had never occurred to him.
Now, he wanted to have the baby because they would be⦠his baby with Valda!
âEven if I donât want the baby, are you still going to stop me from having an abortion?â she asked.
He was silent as if in acquiescence.
âWill you do something illegal? For example, lock me up in the mansion or something like that?â
He continued staying silent.
She pressed her lips together and added, âIf I give birth to the baby, canl keep the baby with me? I can support the baby with my income. Of course, you and your family can meet the child, but custody is mine.â
âWe can get mamed and be a happy family for our children,â he said.
âWhat if I donât want to get married?â she asked.
âYouâll marry me. You will!â Brian said. He was speaking to her but also to himself as if he was giving himself some courage and faith.
She sighed and felt the urge to cry as she said, âBrian, do I even have a choice?â
He froze. Tears filled Valda Thellerâs eyes at some point, making his heart ache.
âAssuming weâre going to have a child together, youâll be making the decisions for me every step of the way. I wonât even get a chance to make a decision for myself. If thatâs how you care about me, Iâd rather not have you care about me.â Such care made her feel like a puppet being manipulated by his strings.
âI just want to be with you,â Brian said hoarsely.
âDo you really want to be with me? Or is it because my presence has made Grace think youâve gotten over her and started a new relationship? In this case, youâve given her the peace of mind she wants.â
Valda Theller laughed at herself, âCome to think of it, it was a coincidence that you chose me as your girlfriend in the first place. In other words, it could have been someone else even if it wasnât me. Iâm not that irreplaceable.â
Brian blurted out, âNo, itâs not like that! Not everyone else can do it. When I was looking at you and you were smiling at me while drawing me, I had the impulse to ask you if you wanted to date me.â
Valda Theller looked blankly at Brian She heard Brian continue, âLater, I wondered why I was so impulsive at the time. If it was just to reassure Grace, I could have chosen someone familiar to do this instead of a stranger.â
âYeah, why is that? The question had haunted Valda Theller now.
âI think itâs because Iâm comfortable being with you. Even if weâre only eating a bowl of noodles or a meal in silence, I feel comfortable.â He had not felt that comfort for a long time.