Chapter 144 - 144: I Really Want to Be Like You

Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios

Just as Yue Lingyi was about to leave, his peripheral vision suddenly swept over a book titled “Human Anatomy” at the top of the bookshelf.

Speaking of which, he only knew the structure of dogs now and not humans at all. If he knew the structure of humans, wouldn’t it be easier for him to understand what had happened to him?

Yue Lingyi thought as he reached for the topmost book. Unfortunately, he could not reach the topmost book with his height. He could not even reach it with his feet on the stool. Just as Yue Lingyi was about to give up, a weak voice suddenly sounded. His tone was still hesitant. “Which book do you want to take? I can help you.”

After Yue Lingyi heard what Yue Lingyu said clearly, he nodded inexplicably.

Yue Lingyu continued softly, “Come down first. I’ll step on the stool and help you get it.”

Yue Lingyu was slightly taller than Yue Lingyi. Although it was not much, it was enough for him to retrieve the book. After taking the book, Yue Lingyu suddenly looked very serious. Then, he stretched out his foot and carefully moved down. He slowly got off the stool and only heaved a sigh of relief when his foot landed on the ground.

Yue Lingyi felt that his fourth brother was a little strange. His attitude towards him was different from others, but he could not tell what was different.

As he took the book, Yue Lingyi accidentally scratched something with his nails. At the same time, Yue Lingyu, who was fine in front of him, suddenly cried.

Yue Lingyi did not understand, but he thought that his fourth brother probably did not like him, so he cried. He had to leave quickly. With this thought in mind, he turned around and was about to leave when a choked voice came from behind him. “I’m… I’m sorry, sob…”

Yue Lingyi stopped in his tracks. From what he knew, these words of apology should not have appeared under such circumstances. According to his experience, Yue Lingyu should have told him not to come over or leave. That was the appropriate thing to say.

So he stopped and asked Yue Lingyu, “Why are you apologizing to me?”

Yue Lingyu’s tears were like broken pearl necklaces, with one drop coming after another. However, he still sobbed as he answered Yue Lingyi, “I suddenly cried. I must have frightened you, but… I’m sorry. I didn’t do it on purpose. I, I couldn’t control myself. Boohoo…” Moreover, it really hurt! n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om

Yue Lingyi was stunned. He stood on the spot with the book in his arms for a long time before replying, “No, you didn’t scare me.” After saying that, only Yue Lingyu’s sobbing could be heard in the study.

Yue Lingyi stood quietly at the side. No one knew what he was thinking. It was only when he saw blood seeping out of Yue Lingyu’s fingers and dripping onto the floor that he came back to his senses. He endured the discomfort and went to get the first aid kit from the auntie before returning to the study.

When he returned, Yue Lingyu was still crying. Yue Lingyi thought about it. There were times when he wanted to cry in the past, but that feeling was quickly suppressed by him. Hence, he went to Yue Lingyu’s side and imparted his experience, “You can ask yourself what’s there to cry about. You’ll realize later that there’s nothing to cry about.”

Yue Lingyi’s inexplicable words stopped Yue Lingyu’s crying for two seconds. Then, he began to cry again.

Yue Lingyi was silent for a while. He realized that not everyone could use this method to stop crying, so he could only silently help Yue Lingyu stop the bleeding first. In fact, the wound on Yue Lingyu’s hand was very small. It was because he saw that this inconspicuous wound could condense blood beads that he realized that he could not leave it alone. However, all he could do was put a band-aid on the wound.

“Thank you.” Yue Lingyi sobbed as he thanked him.

Yue Lingyi stayed at the side for a while longer, waiting for Yue Lingyu to stop crying before leaving. In the following week, Yue Lingyi finished reading the book “Human Anatomy”. When he sent the book to the study, he bumped into his fourth brother again. This time, he was still crying.

Yue Lingyi completely ignored his existence and continued to search for the books he was interested in on the bookshelf.

Unexpectedly, Yue Lingyu actually spoke to him, “Are you also hiding here?”

Yue Lingyi: “No, I’m here to look for books.”

After that, Yue Lingyi did not hear Yue Lingyu speak for a long time. It was only when he found a book he was interested in and was about to leave that he heard Yue Lingyu mutter to himself, “I really want to be like you…’

Like him? Why? Yue Lingyi had never felt that his life was worth looking forward to.

“I think you’re so strong that you won’t show it even if you’re sad or in pain. But I can’t. I can’t control my tears, so no one wants to get close to me.”

Yue Lingyu did not seem to need to answer.. He just muttered to himself, “If I could control myself, would I not be hated by everyone?”