Chapter 67
If you Don’t Love Me, I Will Die
âHow should I handle thisâ¦â
The sky in mid-May was clear and blue.
The room was filled with the sounds of butterflies and mountain birds, and the shining golden sunlight illuminated the green grass. (TN: Butterflies do make noise.)
Beneath the beautiful scenery of spring, I sat in the room, holding a letter in one hand, and gazed endlessly outside.
Viola Bronte.
The contents of the letter sent to me by Aniaâs mother were quite lengthy, but to summarize briefly:
âIâm coming to see Ania.â
In fact, more than the fact that she had sent me a letter or the content that she was coming to see Ania, I was surprised that Aniaâs mother was alive.
When I visited the Bronte family, I vaguely thought that Valentine Bronte was alone because he had lost his parents when he was young.
After all, even Edwardâs mother, Alice Radner, had passed away when he was young, so it wasnât that rare.
But why did she send me this letter?
While pondering this, I asked Lorendel, who seemed to make strange remarks.
âItâs a story that everyone in the imperial social circles and those involved knows well. Aniaâs mother used to disappear to the East when and visited the estate once every few years.â
In short, it meant, âI sent a letter to you as it would be awkward for me to personally send a letter to my daughter.â
âEven if you say thatâ¦.â
I didnât have any appropriate means.
From the start, their relationship seemed quite complicated, and even if I put aside whether I could facilitate their meeting, it seemed wrong for me to meddle in Aniaâs family affairs.
Nevertheless, I couldnât just sit back and do nothing.
Even if she was a stranger to me, she was still Aniaâs mother.
I quietly moved a pen from the desk, lifting it with a small amount of magic.
The letter paper on the side table near the window sparkled in the sunlight, and I slowly began writing on it.
ãFor now, Iâll talk to Ania first. We will discuss the matter first and then send a reply.ã
After writing a brief letter, I neatly folded it, put it in an envelope, and stamped it with melted wax.
âLorendel!â
âYes, My Lord.â
I handed the letter to Lorendel, who was waiting outside.
âSend this directly. Donât go through the post office.â
âI will do so.â
Though I maintained a certain formality, I had definitely expressed my opinion on inquiring about Aniaâs intentions.
âMy diplomatic skills have improved.â
When I first came to this world, I knew nothing.
Now, I have become a figure who can influence the Empireâs affairs.
Three years have passed.
It wasnât a long time, but it felt incredibly lengthy.
***
Three days after sending the letter, Viola, as usual, was walking through the village on her way home when she found a letter wedged in the door crack.
âHmmâ¦â
Viola slowly pulled out the letter and held it in her hand.
Although there was no mention of who sent it, she could easily guess.
The stamp depicted a hawk soaring through the sky.
Like the master of the sky, the Radner seal symbolized guarding the Empire from the high heavens.
âIt came earlier than I expected.â
Aside from Edward and Aria, everyone in the Radner family is either imprisoned or deceased, so naturally, it must be from Edward.
However, Viola unfolded the letter and narrowed her eyes.
âWe will discuss the matter first and then send a replyâ¦.â
Initially feeling somewhat annoyed, Viola couldnât help but smile.
The subtle joy stemmed from the fact that these children, who were mere youngsters not too long ago, had grown into adults.
âIf youâre the CEO of the empireâs largest corporation, you should know how to politely declineâ¦â
However, Viola had no intention of backing down.
âIf Iâm going to do it, Iâll do it. Iâve already committed to it.â
For Viola, who had lived that way regardless of what others said, it was an unyielding belief.
Even if it made those around her uncomfortable.
She had to leave a young child because of that belief.
Her desire to explore a new world surpassed her love for her daughter.
But Viola had also grown older.
It had been nearly twenty years since she left for the East, and her fanatical curiosity had gradually waned.
So, it was time to go back.
âIt hasnât been that longâ¦â
But she had been gone for too long.
Her beloved daughter was already treating her as if she were a stranger.
âI was so young back then.â
Curiosity is a momentary impulse.
Love is also a momentary impulse.
If asked if giving birth to Ania was also a momentary impulse, she could say yes.
Yet, Viola often thought about Ania.
A daughter truly beautiful, resembling herself.
Now an adult, her brave daughter had broken her shell and ventured into the world.
A daughter who resembled her too much, stubborn and proud, inheriting her own flaws.
She loved that child.
That feeling wasnât a momentary impulse.
If that were an impulse, there would have been no need to spend money to inquire about her childâs well-being while being so far away.
Without hesitation, Viola slowly moved her steps.
She wanted to go see her right away.
And so, she headed to the train station.
âOne ticket to Radner Estate, please.â
âHere you go. Have a pleasant journey.â
But as she boarded the train and looked out the window, Viola couldnât help but think:
What should I say when I meet her?
Even if a mother who had neglected her all her life were to seek forgiveness, would her daughter forgive her?
Itâs unknown.
But it had to be confronted.
Because if it werenât, nothing would change.
***
âI absolutely refuse.â
Ania, taken aback by Edwardâs sudden visit, calmed her startled heart after she recoiled from his words.
âStill, your mother wants to see you.â
âBut I refuse!â
âYou should at least give a reason for not replying.â
âItâs not like I donât have a reason.â
Ania pursed her lips stubbornly.
The relationship between herself and her mother was a frequent topic of gossip in social circles.
The strange and strong-willed mother-daughter relationship, where the mother raised her daughter as if she were abandoning her,
And the daughter, with her strong pride, didnât even send a single letter to such a mother, which was a topic with many angles to discuss.
Knowing this well, Edward asking about it seemed cruel, so Ania curtly folded the received letter.
âBut at least meeting and having a conversationâ¦â
âI donât even want to meet. Sheâs the one who abandoned me and left. What could she possibly say now? Asking me to think of a strangerâs face and voice as my mother and live like that? Thatâs absolutely impossible.â
âAlright, I understand.â
Edward surprisingly acquiesced easily.
âIf you donât want to see her, thereâs nothing we can do.â
âYeah, sureâ¦â
Ania glanced back at Edward and felt a bit harsh.
He had tried to be considerate, yet she had needlessly gotten angry again.
Ania recalled past events.
It must have been when she was around five years old.
Edward, two years older than her, would have been seven.
It was a rainy day.
Given her young age at the time, she couldnât remember exactly what had happened, but a clear image came to mind.
Alice Radner.
Numerous people were gathered, dressed in black, bowing their heads in front of a gravestone inscribed with her name.
And Edward was crying.
The image of him sitting in front of the gravestone, miserably sobbing, shoulders shaking as he struggled to suppress his cries, remained vivid in memory as if it had just been painted.
Although Ania couldnât remember her mother leaving during her early childhood, Edward had also lost his mother during his young years.
At an age when they should have been receiving love.
Ania opened the door and called to Edward as he walked down the corridor.@@novelbin@@
âEdward!â
âYes?â
âI⦠I want to meet her.â
âIs that so?â
âYeah.â
âThen Iâll send a reply.â
Edward smiled softly.
Ania smiled too.
Though she wasnât sure if she would have a good conversation with her mother.
Perhaps it would just be awkward sitting together.
But then, a loud commotion came from downstairs.
Edward turned his head to look downstairs where the noise was coming from.
âWhatâs going on?â
Ania nervously followed Edwardâs side and looked down at the first floor.
âWait a moment! You canât just barge in like this!â
âItâs fine. He wonât get mad about this.â
âNo! Iâll die! My Lord will kill me!â
And then, a sharp inhale.
Despite Lorendel trying to hold her back, a woman came swaggering up the stairs with a cheerful face.
Ania recognized the womanâs face.
ââ¦Huh?â
Edward made a dumbfounded sound.
Ania let out a small sigh.
âAnia!â
And there, Viola Bronte, who had lifted her head from the first floor and spotted them, was waving with a joyful face.
Lorendel felt like dying.
Authorâs Note
Like mother, like daughter.