Chapter 3
If you Don’t Love Me, I Will Die
Having never been in a relationship in my life, I suddenly became a married man.
And somehow, my wife was the most beautiful woman in the Empire, Ania Brontë.
Predictably, my marriage became the hottest topic of gossip at aristocratic social gatherings.
âI hear that Lady Ania Brontë has married the eldest son of the Earl Radner.â
âPoor thing.â
âThat Brontë? With Radner? Isnât it somewhat beneath her?â
It reached my ears as well. My reaction was the same.
âWhy would Ania Brontë marry the son of Earl Radner?â
Actually, Iâm curious.
I wonder what made her decide to marry Edward, even before the wedding.
Unfortunately, thereâs no way to find out why.
It would be ridiculous to ask Ania directly, âWhy did you decide to marry me?â
In the first place, a marriage between nobles is a contract, not just a free love affair.
Itâs better to think that there was some sort of deal between William Radner, head of the Radner family, and Valentine Brontë, head of the Brontë family.
Of course, that doesnât change the fact that there was a deal.
In other words, from now on, I must live with Ania Brontë and build my future with my marriage with her in mind.
Andâ¦
âI have to do my best to surviveâ¦â
âWhat did you say?â
I sighed and looked out the window, and Ania, who had been dazed, asked.
âNothing.â
âWell, you donât look happy.â
Ania shook her head.
âWhat do you mean? How could I not be happy?â
I gingerly averted my gaze from Ania Brontë, who was smiling again.
How could I stay married to her when just a momentâs eye contact sent shivers down my spine?
My mind was already racing.
â⦠I see.â
At Aniaâs words, I gazed into the distance and saw a mansion.
A mansion with a beautiful garden, not too grand, but not too modest either.
âThis is the place where we will live together.â
âHow excitingâ¦â
But when I saw the mansion, I had contradictory feelings.
I was worried about my future marriage, but I also felt a strange sense of anticipation.
Was it Edward Radnerâs feelings, or was it purely my own?
***
However, the marriage turned out to be just fine.
No, it was more than okay; it was uneventful.
Compared to the original where Ania Brontë made Edward Radner into her plaything, nothing of the sort happened.
âBoringâ¦â
A week passed, and I often looked out the window. Being married hadnât changed anything.
Ania Brontëâs last name was still Brontë, and I didnât have the title of Earl Radner.
It was, in effect, a contractual marriage⦠I felt abandoned.
As I gazed out the window into the garden, I saw Anna Brontë tending it with her hands, unlike a typical duchess.
Wearing a wide-brimmed white hat and gloves on her hands, she diligently dug in the soil and planted flowers.
I wondered what she was working so hard on.
It was a small garden.
One full of goldenglows.
I guess she really loved them.
Iâm pretty sure the authorâs description of liking them was an off-handed line, but I never thought sheâd like them that much.
âIf Iâd known, Iâd have planted someâ¦.â
I muttered unconsciously, then slapped myself.
âCrazy. Crazy⦠Why would I do that?â
I must be crazy.
I donât like Ania Brontë.
Often, when sheâs tending her garden, picking out an outfit in her closet, or sitting idly sipping tea, Iâve unconsciously stared at her face, but I still donât like her.
So, I made a conclusion.
Edwardâs ego was slowly recovering.
Perhaps itâs because I possess his body; the body is his, but the mind is mine.
This is why I canât keep up with his manners or swordsmanship.@@novelbin@@
But somehow, my love for Ania Brontë remains.
âI canât even go outâ¦â
Edwardâs marriage is already the talk of the town.
Dukes, marquises, earls⦠all the big names in the empire are focused on our marriage.
Itâs not that the marriage was particularly lavish, but the empire has been relatively peaceful lately.
This was one of the only interesting events in the past few months.
A newly married man is out and about instead of staying home with his wife.
A rumor would slowly make its rounds throughout noble circles.
âMr. Radner and Mrs. Brontë must be estranged.â
âI hear the wife proposed marriage first.â
âYou mean heâs had all he can take, and now heâs looking for someone else? Edward, what a man he is. Heâs got one of the most beautiful women on the continent for a wife, yet he goes around like that.â
âI heard that the eldest son of the Earl Radner has been acting strange lately⦠I wonder if thatâs why.â
I can only imagine.
If such a rumor were to get around, it would send Valentine Brontë, who couldnât say no to his daughter, on a rampage.
âWhat do you think youâre doing, disrespecting my daughter!â
And Valentine Brontë would call William Radner right away.
âI hear your son has left my daughter alone! I demand an explanation, Earl Radner!â
Then, my father would come to me, furious and alarmed.
âFrom this moment onwards, do not step foot outside the manor!â
And heâll have the servants and bodyguards watching me.
That shouldnât happen.
Reallyâ¦
âHah⦠what should I do?â
I crossed my arms over the window sill and sighed deeply.
Then someone knocked on the door.
âMy Lord?â
âSpeak.â
âItâs time for lunch.â
âIâll eat later.â
ââ¦â¦â
But there was no reply.
âWhatâs going on?â
âAm I free to speakâ¦â
âGo on.â
âMy Lady wishes to dine with-â
âIâll eat later.â
ââ¦â¦â
Another silence.
âWhy donât you reply to me?â
In frustration, I slammed the door open, and the young maid looked up at me with tearful eyes.
âItâs because⦠the My Lady told me to bring My Lord at all costs⦠or else⦠sheâll put me in solitary confinementâ¦â
âHahâ¦â
What a vile womanâ¦
***
âMy lord!â
I followed the maid to the dining room, where Ania Brontë smiled brightly and waved.
Iâm pretty sure noble etiquette states youâre not supposed to greet people with a waveâ¦
Well, when youâre a duchess of Ania Brontëâs stature, who can blame you for not always having perfect manners?
âYou called for me.â
âYes, my lord.â
She gently pulled out the chair next to me.
âHave a seat.â
âIâm sorry, but Iâm not in the mood to eat right now.â
âBut you should have a meal.â
Ania frowned as she puffed her cheeks.
âItâs healthy to eat on time.â
âI donât usually eat at this time of day.â
âThen why donât you do that from now on?â
âWhy?â
âBecause weâre married.â
A married coupleâ¦
From someone who doesnât even love Edward.
From someone who sees him as a toy.
But I couldnât bring myself to say no in front of Ania.
Iâve been sold, after all.
If this marriage was doomed, it would be my end as well.
âA married couple should eat together.â
ââ¦I see.â
I ended up sitting on the edge of my seat.
Not because of Ania Brontëâs beauty but simply because the food on the table looked so delicious.
A whole roasted pigâs hind leg, the meat of a young goat roasted with all sorts of spices⦠potatoes, this, that, and the other.
It seems I found my appetite.
âCan you lead the prayer?â
âSure.â
I clasped my hands together and recited a prayer. I never thought memorizing it when there was nothing else to do would come in handy.
ââ¦Give us this day our daily bread.â
I finished my prayer and picked up my utensils, only to realize there was already food before my mouth.
âEat.â
Ania Brontë was holding a spoon before my mouth.
ââ¦What are you doing.â
âI hear thatâs what all the young couples in the capital do these days.â
âThe world must have gone mad.â
âCanât you just eat it?â
I stared into Aniaâs eyes in refusal⦠but I couldnât win.
There was no way I could win her over with such a pleading look in her eyes.
âAah~⦠pleaseâ¦â
ââ¦â¦â
I took it, unable to resist.
âDelicious.â
âIsnât it?â
Ania cupped her hands under her chin and smiled broadly.
I had no idea what the hell she was thinking.