Chapter 1
If you Don’t Love Me, I Will Die
âRecently, doesnât Lord Edward seem a bit strange?â
âHey! Donât casually say such things.â
âBut itâs not gossip; itâs concern. He has been skipping meals for daysâ¦â
âI am very worried for him. Wasnât his marriage partner Lady Brontë?â
âLady Brontë⦠Ugh..â
A few days after the engagement with Ania Brontë, I swung my sword, listening to the audible murmurs of the servants.
In the past, I wondered where skills like swordsmanship would be useful, but as I swung the sword, my head. I now understand why martial arts experts donât swing their swords aimlessly when their minds are troubled.
âIf sheâs Lady Brontë⦠sheâs the one who condemns men to death!â
âHey! Be careful with your words!â
âYesâ¦â
Ignoring the servantsâ overt gossip, I diligently swung my sword.
Ania Brontë wonât be bothered by it.
I am becoming one with the sword, where I am the sword, and the sword is me.
However, the sword that slipped from my hand soon sliced through the air, whizzing loudly before landing before the servants.
âWhat happened!â
âAre you alright, Lord?â
How could I be alright?
While you all incessantly murmur.
If youâre going to gossip, please do it where I canât hear.
However, I am Edward Radner, the eldest son of Viscount Radner.
I must play the part of the perfect noble.
I gracefully picked up the fallen sword and spoke politely.
âI apologize. It seems I was momentarily distracted.â
âYouâve been skipping meals.â
âThatâs right, my lord.â
âIf you feel like it later, please have a meal.â
The servants worry about me too much. Well, itâs understandable since Iâm supposed to be the perfect Edward.
I wiped away the sweat, returned to my room, and washed up before sitting at the table. Then, I picked up a book to accumulate knowledge about this world.
â⦠Chapter 5 of the Empireâs History, the Great War and Unificationâ¦â
The words didnât register in my mind at all. Fragmented characters wandered aimlessly without forming coherent information.
â⦠After defeating the savages of the West, the 12th Emperor Juliusâ¦â
â No, now I should call him the Western Lord.
Damn it. Why is this happening?
Ever since meeting Ania Brontë, her face hadnât left my mind. In the novel, she was described as a beauty known by everyone in the Empire, butâ¦
âThis is maddeningâ¦â
I couldnât deny that she was a beauty of that caliber. Perhaps I was the weird oneâ¦
âNo⦠No!â
I donât love her. Even if we are engaged, we only met once.
This must be because Iâve possessed Edward Radnerâs body. Edwardâs heart fell for her at first sight, not mine.
âAnia Brontë is not beautiful. She is not a beauty. Sheâs a villainess trying to kill me⦠Oh, great Julius, protect me with your eternal light. Guide me with your holy wisdomâ¦â
âLord!â
As I fervently prayed to Emperor Julius, the door slammed open. Sweating profusely, the maid, Lorendel, opened the door.
âWhatâs going on?â
Normally, one shouldnât open a nobleâs door without permission, but I didnât harp on it since I wasnât originally a noble and had no intention of adhering to tedious etiquette.
Lorendel, with a pale face, stammered out, âL-Lady Brontë!â
âLady Brontë⦠What about her?â
However, Lorendelâs statement was more than just urgency; it was a crisis.
âShe has come to meet Lord Edward!â
ââ¦Why?â
***
âWhatâs wrong with a woman visiting her husband-to-be?â
The Radner familyâs indoor garden is brimming with colorful flowers and fluttering butterflies.
Seated at the garden table, Ania Brontë answers the question.
Yes, there is nothing wrong with a wife-to-be visiting her husband-to-be.
In fact, it is a very noble thing for a lady to do.
But it is difficult.
Especially now, with Aniaâs face filling my head.
âEven so, you didnât say anythingâ¦â
âCanât you just take it as a signal that I missed you enough to come without telling you?â
âIf you had written to me beforehand, I would have come to you.â
âI didnât want to put you through that trouble.â
I smiled softly as I said it and felt the garden grow brighter, but I managed to bring my lips back down.
It was a fact Iâd felt in my bones for days, but Ania Brontë was a beauty.
I held back the corner of my mouth that was about to rise and asked innocently.
âButâ¦surely you wouldnât have visited Radner Manor for that?â
Ania cocked her head.
âThat may not be the only reason, but isnât it enough?â
With that, she slid her upper body forward, exposing her sternum.
Luckily, I caught her movement and jerked my head up.
It happens a lot in novels.
The fox-like figure used her breasts to lure a man.
I would have instinctively looked down at them if I hadnât known this.
Then itâs game over.
Because no man in the world can overcome beautiful breasts.
I put on my best cold face and stood up.
âWell, now that Iâve seen your face, Iâll go back. I was in the middle of reading a book.â
This is where I have to cut off.
Of course, I didnât want to offend Ania Brontë, but I couldnât face her any longer.
As I stood up and turned around, I heard a low sigh.
ââ¦Youâre too much, Mr. William. I just⦠wanted to be with you. Are your books more important to you than me?â
I turned around and saw tears pooling in her deer-like eyes.
Anyone who cries is ugly, so how could she be so beautiful?
I was shaken by its destructive power, but I overcame it.
âAfter we are married, you can do whatever you like to see my face.â
âYou donât⦠love me.â
âThatâs not what I meantâ¦â
âIf it is your will, then let this engagement be broken, for if you do not love me and are forcing yourself to marry me, I am truly sorry.â
Holy shit⦠sheâs a bully.
If I do as she asks, my life will be ruined, but House Radner will be destroyed if I refuse.
Iâll be out on the streets in disgrace, or my legs would turn blue from kneeling.
ââ¦My apologies. My words were harsh. I can read the book later, so letâs talk briefly.â
Overwhelmingly, I choose the latter.
When I sit back down, Aniaâs face brightens like a sunny day.
Of course, thatâs an act, too.
She knows at what point a manâs heart flutters.
She might as well be the best in the Empire at it.
âHeheâ¦â
With a small, innocent smile, Ania Brontë wiped a tear from the corner of her eye.
âSo, would you like to take a walk with me?â
âA walk?â
âLetâs go.â
Ania took my hand naturally, and we walked through the indoor garden.
Holding hands⦠If you think my heart is shaking, youâre wrong.
Itâs bouncing inside my ribs.
Luckily, she doesnât show any signs of noticing.
My highly trained body allows me to control my heartbeat.
I follow her slowly through the garden, keeping my heart rate as low as possible.
The Radnersâ gardens were among the most beautiful in the Empire, thanks to William Radner, who had once branched out into the business of growing rare trees.
Luckily, there was something else to look at besides Ania Brontë, or so I thought,
A gust of wind scatters cherry blossom petals across the sky, and I catch a glimpse of her back through the snowy pink leaves.
But what a pity that even the most beautiful gardens canât match her beauty.
âHow could a woman so beautiful have a devil inside her?
There will be much gossip in social circles about Ania and my marriage.
Some might look at Edward and say, âWhat a lucky man to have acquired the greatest beauty in the empire.â
If they only saw him here, strolling through the gardens hand in hand with her.
But underneath it all, thereâs nothing but a man who wants to live and a wicked wench⦠Itâs a funny scene when you realize it.
âMr. William.â
âWhy do you call me?â
While I was lost in thought, Ania whipped around and looked at me.
Her deep blue eyes bore into mine.
âBe still.â
Ania Brontëâs face⦠it was getting closer and closer to mine.
Her delicate lips curl, and her eyes slowly close.
Sheâs about to kiss meâ¦
âNoâ¦â@@novelbin@@
I know in my head.
I must avoid this kiss.
âYes!â
But the heart paralyzes reason.
I canât escape those lips.
âWhoaâ¦â
But to my relief, Aniaâs lips never touched mine.
âYou have a cherry blossom leaf on your shoulder.â
The pink cherry blossom petals on my shoulder mingled with her breath.
âI can⦠take it off myself.â
I brushed her shoulder off as if it didnât matter,
âHoo-hoo⦠did you really do that?â
Ania smirked, but I couldnât process if it was devilish or angelic.