Goodbye Stranger

I can hear it now

The screaming back and forth

Me crying into my siblings arms

Hands over our ears

Begging for it all to be over

For once we all gathered together as one

To stop the force that was mother and father

The fighting was constant

The pain we shared was enough

We all now share this heavy burden

Entering our adult lives, I now see how much it affects everything

We are the product of our environment

These last few years have really been tough

Heaven only knows when it's gonna get better

But

The unanswered question is still soon to be solved

My mother kept him from me

All these years

My sense of welcome was never there

I tried to force it

It just didn't feel right

You placed this guilt

On my very heart

I was placed into a strangers arms

Fooling you into thinking you had anything to do with me existing

Worrying about someone that wasn't his to worry about

The very tears he laid at the mention of it breaks my heart because

While I was hoping for a different outcome

That maybe, just maybe this nightmare was never worth it

There you are, a sad old man

A regretful man

However I didn't want it this way

No one did

I'm just not who you think I am

No worries, I'll be a weight off your shoulders soon

So smile

Please

After all the suffering I thought I wanted for you, I simply don't

Smile at the times we did have

I did think you were my own family

I thought you were a part of me I needed

All this wishing for a relationship means nothing now does it

The late nights where my heart ached

The moments where your name made me sick

It's all over

So rest your head and please forget everything, it's all gonna be alright

Thanks for everything, Dad