07 | proposition

After I found out that Isaac never stopped by because he was just busy I went straight back to the flower shop to tell Myra what I just found out and I couldn't wait until the evening when her shift has ended to tell her that because I was so happy that everything was alright between me and Isaac. Myra was almost just as happy as I was when I told her about it. Although she wasn't the biggest fan of Isaac she didn't want me to be left with nothing but disappointment because I wasn't ready to kiss him and I'm glad that wasn't the reason for his absence.

I didn't want to lose him because of my past, that he doesn't even know of, as well. I mean I don't even know if we're friends or anything but I do really like him and we could turn into friends if we see each other more often right?

So the next day I grabbed a bouquet of yellow tulips and after my shift I went over to the 'Owens & Steel' company Isaac worked in. If he can't come to the shop to grab the bouquet I'll bring the bouquet to him. Easy as that. We can't let his mother go without a bouquet that long now can we? And that was the only reason why I went to his office. Not because I wanted to see him of course.

Unsurprisingly the entering hall of the building was just as huge as you would imagine it to be when you look at it from the outside. Everything looked very elegant and expensive and you'd just have to take one glimpse at me to know that I didn't belong here. This wasn't my world and definitely something I wasn't used too. A lot of people passed me in a rush to get to a meeting probably but I felt their judging stares on me. I wasn't exactly dressed in a very business -like attire with my pinkish skirt and white top so I definitely stood out. In other words I felt really uncomfortable which wasn't unusual for me but I still didn't like the feeling of that.

I decided to try ignoring the stares and I went towards the reception to ask where Isaac's office was so that I could give the flowers to him.

"Uhm excuse me but could you please tell me where Mr. Owens office is?" I asked the female receptionist who appeared to be in her late forties and whose named seemed to be 'Lilian Marshall' according to the name tag she was wearing. It was weird to refer to Isaac as Mr. Owens since he hated it when I called him that.

"Do you have an appointment?" she asked while raising her perfectly shaped eyebrow. Do I have to have an appointment to bring him flowers?

"No uhm- I just wanted to bring him these flowers" I stated and she laughed probably thinking I was lying and I do have to admit it sounded kind weird to someone who didn't know Isaac really picked up flowers almost every day for awhile.

"Honey I'm not stupid. Mr.Owens doesn't need flowers. So what do you really want" she said and I grew a sudden dislike for even though that is something that rarely ever happens.

"I was being honest. He always buys flowers at the shop I work at and they're for his mother whose favorite flowers are yellow tulips"

"Now that is in fact true but I can't let you see him he's-" she wanted to say but was interrupted by the man who I saw Isaac walking with today.

"Lilian leave the poor girl alone. Isaac wouldn't like it if you talk her down. Let me handle that" he said and winked at the women causing her to roll her eyes in annoyance but she nodded at him eventually.

"Hey I'm Jax Isaac's best friend and judging by the flowers in your hand you're the famous Emilia from the flower shop that I've heard a lot from" he said with a smile and I couldn't help but return it.

"Yeah I guess that's me although I don't know about the famous" I chuckled nervously. The presence of men I didn't know usually made me really anxious but it wasn't as bad with Jax as it is with a lot of other men. I was scared of him simply because there were a lot of people around us so if he were to touch me in inappropriate ways I could easily shout for help.

"Ohh trust me Isaac did talk a lot about you but anyways how can I help a beautiful woman like you?" he asks changing the topic and I notice my face getting a little flushed at the unexpected compliment I received.

"I just wanted to bring Isaac these flowers for his mother but I don't know where his office is soo ..." I said hoping he'd understand what I wanted without me having to actually ask him for directions.

"I'll take you there" he said and already started walking off but I stopped him.

"Oh no you don't have to. You can just tell me where it is and I'll manage" I said and I realized I sounded a little to panicked so I added a little chuckle to make it look like everything was fine and that I wasn't scared to be alone with him. Which I was but he didn't have to know that.

"Oh don't be ridiculous. I was on my way to the dumbass' office anyway so it'll be no problem to take you there as well. I won't bite if you don't like it" he said trying to sound flirty which didn't work for me. He was trying too hard for my liking. But I went with him anyway.

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"So here we are" Jax said and came to a halt in front of a huge oak double door at the end of the corridor. I could have figured that this was Isaac's office.

"Thank you very much" I stated and was about to knock on the door but was held back by Jax.

"Will you bring me flowers the next time you visit as well?" he asked with a mischievous grin and I tried hard to find out whether this was an anecdote I didn't quite catch or not.

"Uhm if you want me to of course" I said confused about why he had asked me because he doesn't look like he was a fan of flowers at all.

"You're very cute you know. I bet you would look wonderful in my-" he started but wasn't able to finish whatever he was about to say.

"I think that's enough Jax" Isaac's deep voice suddenly came from beside me and I jumped because I haven't even heard the duple doors open.

"Man I was just kidding" Jax said and raised his hands defensively while also laughing but Isaac didn't laugh one bit. What was going on?

"Of course you were. You can go I'll take it from here" Isaac said in a stern voice. Jax only nodded at this and turned.

"Man why is he always so bossy" I heard him whisper under his breath when he was a few feet away and I'm sure Isaac didn't hear it because he didn't make any snappy remark at him which he definitely would have.

Isaac's eyes met mine curiously so I held up the flowers a little more and when he saw them he smiled softly at me.

After meeting Emilia yesterday it's nearly impossible to ban the thought of her out of my mind even though I know I should. But seeing her hurt expression when she said that she thought it was her fault made me feel so bad about wanting to cut her out of my life because someone like her doesn't deserve to be played with like she doesn't have any feelings. Even though I was successful with staying away from the sop for around two weeks I know I couldn't have done it for the rest of my life because let's face it. I am interested in Emilia but I know I shouldn't be for her own sake.

As my mind circled around her I suddenly heard her voice coming from outside and she was talking to my best friend I believe who is known to be the biggest player of them all. He was even worse than me when it came to women so I knew I had to stop them from talking because Emilia is not the type of women who likes the dirty talk Jax usually goes for. I think it would destroy her poor innocent mind which I didn't want to happen because it was one of the things I loved the most about her. I mean like. That I like the most about her.

"You're very cute you know. I bet you would look wonderful in my-" bed was what Jax wanted to say I'm pretty sure but gladly I came soon enough to stop him from saying it out loud. He knew that I was interested in her and I don't know if h purposefully said it louder to aggravate me or not but if it was his plan it definitely worked.

"I think that's enough Jax" I stopped him and he looked at me in defeat. Maybe he did try to see if he could have his way with Emilia but I would never let that happen. And I don't think she would either.

I told Jax to leave as calmly as I could and when he did I looked at Emilia and she held the flowers in her hand even higher for me to see and I couldn't help but smile at her gesture. Of course she would make the extra time to bring me flowers to give to my mother because she thought II didn't have the time to get them myself. Only she would put the afford into it.

"You can come in if you want to" I said and she nodded without hesitation so I followed her into my office.

"Wow this is huge!" Emilia said with wide eyes as she looked around my office. My office is a decent size but it's not as big as my father's office which is almost twice the size of mine whereas mine has the better view out of the two.

"Did you decorate it?" she asked as she took a closer look of the furniture and all of the things inside. Of course I didn't do that. I'm not very talented in interior design but my mother luckily is so she did it for me.

"No it was my mother" I answered and she nodded in understanding.

"I made this bouquet for your mother. You know because you said she loved my bouquets I thought you should give her one again because it's been a while" she said and handed it to me. How can a person be this considerate of people she doesn't even know? Because of that I asked her a question before I couldn't stop myself or even think about it properly.

"Do you want to go on a second date?" I blurted out and she furrowed her brows in confusion. Oh no this was the wrong move Isaac. Abort mission.

"A second date?" she asked and I nodded.

"I mean it was just a proposition but you don't have to say yes if you don't want to it's just-" I rambled but she interrupted me.

"No no! I do want to go on a date with you I was just confused about the fact you said second date" she said while emphasizing the word 'second'.

"Well uhm this one time at the diner. Wasn't it a date?" I asked unsure and rubbed my neck which was a habit of mine when I was really nervous which rarely ever happened but Emilia brought out the best of me.

"Ohh that! I wasn't sure if it was a date our not" she said with a huge smile. Did she originally thought of it as a hangout between friends? Is that what she sees me as? A friend? If that's the case why did she agree on a date with me then? Because she didn't want to hurt my feelings?

"Uhm well do you want to give me your number so we can talk about when to go?" I asked like a nervous little boy who asked his first crush out on a date. Shit what the fuck was wrong with me? I asked more than a hundred women out already so what was the difference now?

"Sure give me your phone I'll type my number in" she said and held out my hand which I placed my phone in and she quickly began to type.

"So I guess I'll see you soon?" Emilia asked unsure after she was done typing and I nodded.

"Definitely" I answered with a smile and after that she left.

Why did I ask her to go out on a date with me? My original plan was to stay away from her and even if I couldn't stay away from her completely I know that I shouldn't get involved with her romantically and risk getting too attached. For some reason I just can't stay away from her. It's like my body aches for her to be near. And I know that we won't be good for another because we're two complete opposites but my heart refuses to listen to what my brain has to say. But what my brain had to say became unimportant after I saw the huge, innocent smile on her face after I told her I considered it to be our second date. I intend to see that smile a lot more even if it kills me . And I know it will kill me to become attached to someone again only this time it's in a romantic way. Or it will kill the person I become attached to again.

Here's a chapter that is a little longer than the others as an apology for the fact that I'll only be able to upload one chapter a week till mid March because I'm working on a 15 pages long essay that needs a lot of research. I'll upload a new chapter every Thursday so see you in a week then because now I need to dive into the world of Jane Austen for my essay