05 | messages & whiskey

"Oh my god they have chocolate cake!"I heard Emilia exclaim happily as she looked at the different cakes in the diner whereas I softly smiled at her reaction. How can you possibly be this happy just because of a chocolate cake?

We were currently in a diner near the flower shop, because of the coffee she offered to buy me a few days ago when I gave her the 200 Dollars. Emilia was wearing a simple outfit but she somehow managed to look prettier than every other woman in an extremely expensive ball gown would.

"So how is med school going?" I asked while we were waiting for our order to arrive.

"It's really stressful but it's nothing I can't handle. You gotta work if you want to achieve something. Sometimes I thought about quitting but I put way too much money, sweat and tears into it to stop now. I mean I still have a long way to go considering that this is only my second year but when you know what you're aiming for it gets easier" she shrugged and I nodded in understanding. When I was in college I didn't have to work hard since people always gave me extra credit because of the surname I'm carrying which was good for me but I can only imagine how much the other college student must have hated me for that exact reason. I was known for not giving my best in classes and people always wondered how it was possible that I haven't failed yet. It was all because of the power a surname can hold. This is how our world works and people like Emilia sadly have to live with the consequences of working even harder to achieve the same thing.

"Do you know what you want to do after med school?" I asked and she immediately nodded as if she was waiting for that specific question.

"One day I want to open my own children hospital! It's something I've been working for ever since I was 14. I was helping in a children hospital a few times and I love kids and helping them is an extra added bonus" she stated and I smiled when I saw how passionate she was about helping kids. Usually money is all medical students think about but Emilia doesn't even seem to care about how high or how low her income might be. Her only worry were the children who needed her help and that is something I truly admired since selflessness has never been a characteristic that I could call my own.

Before I was able to say something our order arrived and Emilia was head over heels when she saw the piece of chocolate cake on the plate. She quickly took her first bite and did a little dance while doing so. Do girls always do that or is just her who is so happy about eating food? It's kind of cute though to watch her enjoy something as little as a piece of chocolate cake.

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"I have a little niece you would love her" I said out of the blue because we were still talking about her opening up her own children hospital.

"How old is she?" she asked interested, leaning over the table a bit more.

"She's three turning four soon" I stated and smiled at the thought of Kaylee. Besides Emilia she's the cutest person I know.

"Whose brother's daughter is she? I haven't seen anything about her online" Emilia said and I smiled because I've totally forgotten that she did some research on my. I tried to find some things about her but I wasn't as successful as she was.

"She's Christian's daughter. He accidentally got a 17 year old pregnant when he was only 18 and he likes to keep her out of the media for safety reasons" I explained.

"That's quite mature for someone who became a parent at such a young age. What about her mother? If you don't mind me asking of course"

"No I don't mind at all. She left after giving birth because she didn't feel ready to be a mother and she gave Christian full custody. Haven't heard of her ever since" I said with disgust in my voice as I thought about the woman who would leave behind a girl as beautiful as Kaylee. It always stings whenever she asks any of us where her mother is but can't tell a three year old that her "mother" didn't want to be her mother. The girl would be heartbroken.

"I don't get how one is able to do that. If she wasn't financially able to support a child then I'd say it's reasonable to give it away but because she didn't want it? That's cruel. If I'd ever see her I-"

"Whoa easy there tiger. Let's talk about something else before you explode" I said amused at her sudden outburst. Who would have thought Emilia could ever be angry?

"Does she like flowers?" Emilia asked and I nodded.

"She loves flowers. She spends a lot of time in the garden with my mother, talking about all the different flowers my mother planted" I replied and Emilia grinned.

"You should take her to the flower shop with you one day. I would love to talk to her about flowers as well" she said excitedly making me still wonder how she can be excited over things as little as that. And I couldn't help but notice how my heartbeat quickened when she talked about meeting Kaylee.

While Emilia was still grinning at the thought of meeting Kaylee she stared at the message she just got and immediately stopped grinning. What's going on? Have I missed something?

"Is everything alright?" I asked and she snapped out of the trance she was in.

"Yeah everything is fine but I have to get going" she said and gathered all her things together while also taking out her wallet to pay for our cake and coffee. There's no way in hell I'm letting her pay though. She probably has enough to worry about with her college fee that is pretty high for a normal citizen like her. I looked it up yesterday and it said med school costs around 34.000 to 60.000 Dollar a year. For someone like me it's no problem to pay that but I don't think it's the same for her considering how much she thought the 200 Dollar tip was.

"Already? We haven't even been here for an hour!" I said almost pleading for her to stay. Way to sound desperate Isaac. I couldn't help it though. Her presence felt comforting somehow but it was hard to put it into words.

"Yeah my Dad needs to talk to me and I better not let him wait. He's a very impatient man" she said with a nervous chuckle that didn't sound real at all which was unusual for her. But I didn't push it knowing that it wouldn't be a good idea to do so.

"I can drive you home if you want to" I said and she shook her head. As if I'd accept a no from her and risk her getting kidnapped on her way home. New York can be a dangerous place for someone like her.

"I don't want to bother you. I'll just take a cab" she waved off.

"It's not a bother trust me. I wanted to brag with my really expensive car so you have to say yes" I said jokingly and the previous frown on her face was once again replaced with the smile that I loved so much.

"Okay fine but only because I don't want you to be sad for the rest of the day because you couln't show of how rich you are " she said and wanted to place 20 Dollar on the table for our food and coffee but I was quicker and put the money on the table first.

"Isaac we agreed that I would pay" she said sternly and I couldn't help but smile a little bit at her expression. She didn't look stern at all even if she was trying to.

"I don't care" I replied, stood up and grabbed her arm gently to drag her with me so that she had no other chance but letting me pay.

"I hate you" she said while she tried to wriggle out of my grip with to success. It didn't feel like she was even trying to be honest.

"You know you don't" I simply said and we came to a halt in front of my BMW that Emilia gasped at once she saw the beauty. I have to admit my car was stunning. Just like the blonde  woman gawking at it.

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Once we arrived in front of her apartment building both Emilia and I got out of the car to walk to the front door and it took me all my strength to not look at her butt when she was walking up the stairs in front of me. I can't believe some people say that I'm not a gentleman. My mama raised me right.

She stopped walking when we were in front of the door and she turned around to face me.

"I really enjoyed it" She said with a smile as she looked up to me.

"Trust me I did too even though I was practically forced to go with you" I jokingly said and she slightly punched my chest which didn't hurt must I add.

"You're an idiot" she said.

"Am I?" I questioned with a raised brow and I didn't even notice that I got a lot closer to her face which I didn't even intend to happen. Our lips almost touched and It was only when she nervously took a step back that I realized that I have taken it too far. Gentleman my ass.

"I'm sorry it just came over me" I quickly apologized knowing that she felt extremely uncomfortable right now.

"Everything's fine I just wasn't expecting that" she said with a tight smile that made me feel even worse because I knew that she was trying to smile to make me feel better about it. Which didn't help. God when did I start to care about that kind of stuff? Usually when a woman rejected my kiss I was long gone ready to try it with another woman.

"Goodbye" she said without another word and bent down to grab something that looked like the key to the door, out of the flowerpot right next to it.

"Bye" I said and hesitated to say something else but she was already gone behind the door before I could even add something else. Way to ruin things Isaac. I should have known it was a bad idea to try to kiss her but of course my lips thought otherwise. What I needed now was a glass of strong whiskey.

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"Man you look rough" my best friend Jax greeted me after he opened the door. Jax and I have been friends for almost 20 years now. He is the adoptive son from my mother's best friend Amelia and her husband Ethan so it was kind of self-explanatory how we met. Through our parents in case you were still wondering.

"Yeah I feel like shit. I tried to kiss this woman and she rejected me" I truthfully answered as I walked past him and straight to his bar. I know I shouldn't drink especially when I drove here by myself

"Since when do you care about that kinda stuff? Just forget about her and don't waste your time" Jax replied and I scrunched my nose at his comment. I wouldn't say Emilia is a waste of my time.

"I don't care about her" I said even though that was far from the truth but of course I wouldn't admit it out loud. I poured the liquor into a glass and when I wanted to take a sip Emilia's face popped up in my head telling me it's wrong to drink and then drive so for some reason I put the glass down again.

"You sure as hell don't look like you don't care" Jax said as he eyed me carefully.

"She's just a little girl Jax nothing too special" I said and hated myself for saying those things about her. 'Damn I'm fucking whipped already' I thought as I looked for my phone in my pocket but instead of my phone I pulled out 20 Dollars. What the hell? How did they get in- Emilia. Of course she wouldn't accept the fact that I paid for the food. Stubborn little thing.

"Do you have money issues or why are you smiling at the 20 Dollars like you've just won the lottery" Jax asked

"The world would have to end before I could ever have money issues" I said in my typical arrogant voice and grabbed the glass of whiskey to take a sip, the imagine of Emilia long gone.

It's better if I'd keep my distance anyway. She's too good for me to let her go through the shit that she would have to go through if she was dating me. And I wouldn't want her to end up dead as well because of me.