28 | men's talk

I was never the type of guy who stays in rather than going out on a weekend night but man staying in bed with Emilia in my arms is a thousand times better than going out to bars and pointlessly making out with random women. Don't get me wrong I really enjoyed that period of my life but I'm not looking back at it with sorrow that it's over either.

After Emilia gave me the surprising but phenomenal blowjob I wanted to return the favor to her but she turned me down much to my dismay. I feel like she doesn't completely trust me yet to be this vulnerable with me but I'm determined to try not for the sake of getting into her pants but because I actually do want her to fully be comfortable with me and feel safe. Feeling safe is the fundament of a healthy relationship alongside trusting each other.

So instead of being all over each other we're simply cuddling but I honestly don't mind, she's a great cuddler although our cuddling session was cut short due to a call that I was receiving a few minutes in. I looked over at my ringing phone in annoyance to see who had the audacity to interrupt and it turns out that it was my best friend Jax. Considering the fact that it was Friday night I wasn't surprised that he called, we went out to bars every Friday before I got into a relationship with Emilia. I wanted to ignore his call and act like I was already asleep but Emilia pushed me towards answering the phone call saying something about it being rude if I straight up ignore him. She's too nice for her own good. I can't imagine that she never ghosted someone. Everyone did.

"What do you want?" I asked in annoyance right as I answered the phone.

"Whoa what's up with that tone of yours. It's Friday night man we're going out!" Jax shouted over the many voices that could be heard in the background signaling me that he was already at the bar that he was now trying to get me to go to as well.

"I'm not in the mood to go out" I replied

"But we do that almost every Friday" he answered in a pissed tone and I can picture the puppy face from ten miles away.

"Well not this Friday" I answered and was ready to hang up on him but Emilia took the phone away not giving me the chance to hang up.

"Don't worry Jax he was just kidding he'll be there soon" she replied and then hung up. I looked at her in disbelief because I couldn't fathom what just happened. She's probably one of the few women out there who wants her boyfriend to go to a bar without her rather than staying in to cuddle with her. I don't know if I should be offended that she doesn't want to spend time with me or be thankful that it seems like she wants me to spend time with my friends as well.

"Why did you do that? I wanted to stay here in bed with you!" I pouted and Emilia just rolled her beautiful eyes at me. The audacity of this woman.

„I don't want you to not see your friends anymore because of me"

„ I don't care. I'd rather be here with you and go for another round maybe" I said seductively kissing her neck, making her laugh but instead of giving in she pushed me away much to my dislike. Guess I have no other choice but to go out with my friends then.

Thirty minutes and another tantrum later I arrived at our favorite bar just to find my friends already sitting inside. When they saw me approaching them they let out enthusiastic chants and greeted me fit a half hug and a pat on the shoulder.

"man you look like you just had some great sex" Jax said not even a few seconds into the evening. Way to start the night. I know we usually discussed our sex life with no filter whatsoever but this time it's different.

"I'm not discussing my sex life with you"

"bro what happened to you? We always talked about it!" Jax gasped in shock.

"Yeah but Emilia is not some random woman I have sex with. She's my girlfriend and I know she wouldn't be comfortable with me blurting out all the details about our sex life so I'm not going to do that" I replied. Knowing Jax well enough he would totally blurt out the stuff that I tell him in front of Emilia as well and I would like to prevent that from happening.

"bro but you do know that she's probably talking to her friends about as well. So you can do the same"

"the difference is that I'm okay with her talking about our sex life since I'm very vocal about it and she knows she can trust her friends. She doesn't know you hence she doesn't want you to know about our sex life. End of discussion" I grumbled not leaving any room for Jax to argue with me anymore.

"Okay so what did I miss?" Who's this Emilia girl? I don't think I've ever heard of her" Oliver, another one of my friends asked but before I could reply to him Jax beat me to it.

„His girlfriend. You gotta see her man she has a great-" Jax started but I cut him off immediately.

„I dare you to finish that sentence" I warned looking him dead in the eye. Why does he always have to sexualize other women? Especially the ones who he knows aren't available for him to have.

"She has a great personality is what I wanted to say" he lied and I let out a sarcastic laugh. As if personality has ever been something he cared about.

"I know what you actually wanted to say Jax and I'm only gonna say it once. Don't disrespect my girlfriend like that. Are we clear?"

"Dude I didn't know you two were actually serious"

"Now you know so shut the fuck up"

"no need to get all alpha male" he joked while raising his glass just like the rest of us do. I sighed thinking of how long this evening is going to be. I was already looking forward to having Emilia in my arms again.