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TRIGGER WARNING

I left the diner without any protest since I knew it would make matters worse. Logan wouldn't leave me alone for a second again if I had sided up with Isaac in that moment. Isaac is important to me and I'm sure he feels the same for me based on the fact that he is persistent on finding out why I haven't contacted him but he didn't have a single clue to what was really going on. He doesn't know that my own brother has been sexually abusing me for well over six years and I don't blame him for not knowing because no one does except from Logan and I. Myra doesn't know and even my father, who lives in the same apartment where all the abuse happened, doesn't know or at least he doesn't care enough to show.

As I was about to get into the car I felt a hand pull me back and I jumped because I didn't notice anyone coming after me. I turned around and was face to face with Myra who looked at me with pity in her eyes.

"Emilia don't get into the car. You can come with me" she said but I shook my head. I was too scared to find out what Logan would do if I don't do what he told me to.

"I can't" I said and my voice started to crack so I looked away and blinked multiple times to avoid the tears from falling down.

"Emilia something definitely isn't right judging the way your brother treated you in there. You can tell me what's going on I won't tell anyone please" she pleaded but I just shook my head.

"Myra you have to trust me on this. Maybe I'll tell you soon but I really have to get into the car now" I said as I ripped my arm out of her grip. I got into the car without hearing another word from Myra and I was relieved about the fact that she seemed to trust me enough to respect that decision even though many people think it might be stupid of me to do so. I know that once Logan sees that I'm walking away with Myra he wouldn't hesitate to hurt both me and Myra and I couldn't let that happen. Myra is too good of a person even though she doesn't like to show it.

I watched her walk into the diner again and closed my eyes when I felt a tear rolling down my cheek. I knew that I was probably hurting the people that I love and that truly care for me by pushing them away but it's something I always had to do in order to protect them from getting hurt even more not mentally but physically by my brother because it happened before when I had a male friend in high school. His name was Aiden and he was really nice but he avoided me ever since my brother punched him in the face which left Aiden's nose broken. I don't blame Aiden for that though.

I was so deep in my own thoughts that I didn't even notice that Logan walked out of the diner and got into the car. I only notice that he was present when I felt the car move and I knew that there was no going back. He was silent for the whole drive which scared me endlessly because he was a very vocal person usually.

I looked at him from the passenger seat and saw him gripping the wheel way to tight while clenching the jaw.

"You're driving way too fast. If you keep going like that we either get pulled over or die!" I said when I saw that he was going 20 miles per hour over the speed limit.

„Shut the fuck up Emilia if you don't want me to pull over and take you right here on the sidewalk" Logan said without even glancing at me and I quickly shut my mouth not wanting to provoke whatever seems to go through his mind. I closed my eyes once again hoping that everything will be alright.

I opened them when I felt the car stop and saw that we were in front of our apartment complex and the fear of what was going to happen overcame me. Was he going to rape me as he already threatened? I contemplated on whether I should get out of the car and run away or not but I decided not to do it because Logan can easily keep up with my speed since he's trained unlike me.

As we made our way towards the entrance of the building I noticed dad's car which was outside signaling that he was still home and hasn't gone out to the bar yet because he usually drives there and gets the car next morning after he is somewhat sober. I breathed out in relief once I realized that Logan wasn't going to rape when our father was present which gave me enough time to think about a plan of how to escape this situation without him noticing.

Logan unlocked the door and I went into the apartment first. After taking off my shoes and my jacket I went into the living room to greet my father but once I got there he was nowhere to be seen. My father's 'bed' that I make every time that I leave the apartment remained untouched which means that he isn't here and my entire body froze when I sensed Logan stand right behind me with his front pressed against my back and his hand on my hip preventing me from getting away.

„I drove him to the bar to meet his friends right before I picked you up. Guess we're finally on our own now" he whispered into my ear and started to kiss my neck causing my nose to scrunch up in disgust. After years of practice I somehow managed to wriggle out of his tight grip and ran as far as I could before he caught up to me and threw me on the couch. He got on top of me, grabbed both of my hands and pinned them over my head with one of his hands and pressed me into the couch with his entire body so that I had no room left to escape.

I wanted to scream but my scream was muted by his mouth as he started to kiss me forcefully. He started to unbuckle his jeans with his free hand and when he got rid of his jeans he teared down my shirt without any real effort so that I was left with just my bra and my jeans on. He started kissing down my body and I was able to shout for help because I was crying hysterically.

"Logan please stop. I'll do anything but please don't rape me" I sobbed in between my cries but he just laughed at my failed attempt to stop him.

"A slut deserves to be punished Emilia. I don't like to share you with other boys and you don't want to listen to me so you have to feel what it's like when you disobey me. Now stop crying and enjoy this" he said as he started to open my jeans. I tried to kick him but he pushed down my legs with his own so that I was left hopeless once again.

Before I could even process what was going on Logan was already off of my body and pulled to the ground and I looked up and came face to face with Isaac who was already on top of Logan throwing punches at him.

"What the hell did you do you sick fuck" Isaac said and threw a punch at Logan after every single word.

"I was about to fuck her" Logan said and I whimpered at his harsh use of words causing Isaac to take his attention away from Logan for a brief moment to look at me with pity. Logan used Isaac's lack of attention for his advantage and pushed him off of his body leaving him in charge. Both men got up from the floor and stood in front of each other.

"She is your fucking sister man" Isaac shouted and the sight of him kind of scared me to be honest. I knew that he had quite a temperament but he never really dared to show that in front of me.

"I love her more than you ever will so I don't know what the hell you want from me and why you break into my fucking apartment because no one wants you here" Logan replied and was about to punch Isaac but was held back by the police who stormed into the apartment and handcuffed him after they got an overview of the situation. It's over. The abuse is finally over.

Geez as I was writing this I had to take so many breaks because it was so hard to write. If anyone out there has to go through this kind of abuse or any type of abuse please be aware of the fact that you are not alone and that there are People out there who care about you even though you may feel like they don't. Talk to them and get help even though I know it's probably not easy.

Next Update: Saturday March 28th, 2020