15 | family conversation

Two more days have passed without a reply or a call from Emilia and I'm slowly starting to give up. I knew calling or texting her wouldn't help because her phone seemed to be turned off. Whenever I call it goes straight to the voicemail. If I'd go to the flower shop either Myra or her mother would send me away and if I go to her apartment her brother would send me away. Either way it's hopeless. I have to chance but to accept the fact that she doesn't want to be a part of my life anymore and that she doesn't want me to be a part of hers and to this day I still don't understand why. I haven't done anything wrong. I did nothing but to treat her with complete and utter respect which is something I rarely did whenever I met a woman that I was slightly interested in. I did it once before Emilia was in the picture and that's it.

I was on my way towards my parents' house again. I wanted to talk to my mother about this in hopes that she had a useful advice for me on what I could do to make Emilia talk to me again. I can't recall the last time I felt this desperate because I don't think I was ever this desperate. I wanted Emilia in my life because I needed her to be. I never thought I could fall in love again after the incident that happened when I was only 16 but then Emilia came. It's safe to say that I am in love with her but I never got the chance to tell her that because she scratched me out of her life like I meant nothing to her and I tightly gripped my wheel at the thought of Emilia possibly being in love with someone else. She's not like that. She never seemed to be that type of a woman. But it is one of the only explanations I have and if that's really the case I can't guarantee that I will let that bastard live.

My mother opened the door with a bright smile that quickly faded once she saw me standing there with huge bags under my eyes which reveal the fact that I haven't properly slept for more than two hours after Emilia started to ignore me like I meant nothing to her.

"What's wrong? Where is Emilia I thought you'd bring her with you" she said as she dragged me into the house and closed the door behind us.

"I wish I could. She hasn't answered me after I took her with me to meet you guys" I said while taking off my jacket and my statement made her face fall even more and then I realized what she was probably thinking.

"It was our fault wasn't it? Your father probably scared her with whatever he said to her. ANTHONY GET YOUR ASS DOWN HERE I DON'T CARE WHETHER YOU'RE BUSY OR NOT" my mother suddenly shouted taking me off guard because my mother rarely ever shouted in front of us.

"Mom I don' think-" I tried to say but was interrupted by her.

"You be quiet when I want to scream at your father" she said and shortly after that my father walked down the stairs not expecting my enraged mother to meet him at the bottom.

"Woah" my father said taken aback when he saw my mother who was already screamed at him.

"Because of you Emilia doesn't text Isaac anymore and is ignoring him. I was hoping the entire time that Isaac would find someone he could fall in love with again and when he finally found someone you come and ruin everything again. What did you say to her when you two were alone in the kitchen?" she finished of her rant and my father looked at her unimpressed.

"I doubt that what I said really scared her. I simply asked her what her intentions with my son are is that really a bad thing to do?" My father asked and my mother raised a brow at him because she probably didn't believe what he said at first but then my parents hat a short little stare down and my mother sighed knowing that my father wouldn't be able to look her in the eyes if he was lying.

"But why is she ignoring you then?" My mother asked as we all made our way towards the couch. Even my father was following us even though he was never really interested in who I was dating or not but he seemed to realize that this was really getting to me.

"It definitely doesn't have anything to do with my family because she loved you guys. She talked non-stop about how nice and loving you were on our way back. The only things I can think of that she either has another man or that she is intimidated by something or someone" I said deep in thoughts.

"I really don't think she has another one. She doesn't seem like the type of woman who has multiple guys at once. She is too genuine for that. Even if that would have been the case I think she would have tried to explain it to you" my father said and I nodded in agreement. That's what I also thought.

"Her brother is back in town. My other assumption is that he thinks I'm not good enough for her or that I'm using her for sex or something. When I went to her apartment to talk to her he didn't seem too happy to see me. I feel like he's the one who's telling her to stay away from me to protect her even though I would never hurt her on purpose but he doesn't know that" I said as I remembered my not too friendly encounter with her brother Logan.

"Are you sure that could be the reason? Did her brother seem aggressive or something? Or did he look like a normal brother who's trying to protect his little sister like you always do with Aurora and Avery?" my mother asked carefully.

"He did seem aggressive but I also am whenever some random dude hits up on them" I stated matter of factly.

"So you're sure there's no abuse involved?" she asked again.

"Yeah pretty sure. I'm sure Emilia would have said something"

"She probably wouldn't have said something. A lot of times victims of abuse think it's their fault that those things are happening to them even though that's far from the truth. Has she ever talked about her brother before?"

"Yes but she didn't seem disgusted or intimidated by him when she spoke about him. She spoke like any girl would speak about her brother. Nothing alarming."

"You should ask her about your mothers assumption nonetheless. Just to be one hundred percent sure that everything's alright" my father said and I laughed sarcastically.

"Easier said than done. You forgot that she's ignoring me" I said with a bitter undertone in my voice.

"You love her don't you?" my father asked as he eyed my reaction carefully and I sighed.

"I'm afraid so" I admitted and saw my mother smile at me slightly. I knew she was happy to her that but sad at the same time because it didn't look like I could be with Emilia any time soon.

"Why are you afraid?" Mom asked as she softly caressed my back which is something she always did to sooth me.

"She doesn't speak to me so I have no idea whether she feels the same for me or not and if she does what if I hurt her too? I can't handle another loss" I said and closed my eyes but quickly opened them again when I saw her dead body in front of my eyes. I never wanted to see that image again. And I never want the same thing to happen to anyone ever again.

"What happened back then wasn't your fault. It wasn't you who killed them and I told you that a million of times. You can't change what happened in the past but you can change the influence it has on you. You can't always let it control your life Isaac or else you will be unhappy for the rest of your life and I as your mother think you deserve way more than that so don't do that to yourself and to us. We want you to be happy" My mother said and hugged me. And she was right. Of course she is, she is my mother after all. I was about to give up on Emilia but now I'm more willing to talk to her than ever.

I handed in my 5,500 words essay last week and since school is shut down for 5 weeks I have enough time to write some new chapters for you guys. Maybe I'll be able to update 2-3 times a weeks again which means that this book will be finished around the end of April which is exactly the time when school starts again. Pray for me that I'm determined enough to go through with the writing spree