14 | hello brother

Both Isaac and I looked at each other and I desperately hoped that he wouldn't do anything stupid. If he would tell my brother that we went on a couple of dates together it would be the end of me. And him. I was waiting for Logan to throw the first punch at Isaac, because even though I couldn't see the expression on his face, I was able to tell that he was controlling himself by the way how stiff his shoulders were and how he tightly clenched his fists. He didn't like the fact that a random guy he didn't know, rang the doorbell at night and asked to speak to me. And even if he knew Isaac he wouldn't like it. Because Isaac is a guy and I'm not allowed to have guy friends, or even worse date them.

Isaac seemed to notice my distress and gave up. I don't know if he gave up on me completely or if he just gave up to speak to me tonight but I hoped for the latter. Isaac was important to me, more than anything else in my life at the moment, but for the past week I couldn't take the risk to text or speak to him. He would always be by my side making sure that everything is the way he wants it to be. Because he doesn't care about my feelings. He cares about his feelings and only they matter. What I wanted was never a concern and never will be, because if they mattered he wouldn't have done the things he did.

"Well I guess then I'll go. Tell her I was here" Isaac said but didn't look at my brother as he spoke. He stared at me intensely and I was afraid that Logan would sense that I was listening, but Logan didn't turn around. He was probably busy with staring daggers at Isaac.

"I won't tell her. I don't know who you think your are but stay the fuck away from my sister. She doesn't need you. And I swear to god if I see you here one more time I'll beat you to death" Logan said and without another word, he abruptly shut the door, which I was not prepared for so I stood in the corridor like a deer caught in the headlights. But Logan didn't seem surprised as he saw me standing there. He knew I was there the entire time. He wanted me to hear those words. He wanted me to know what he would do to Isaac if I continue seeing him. It wasn't only a threat towards Isaac. It was also directed to me, because he knew I would do everything to keep the people I care about safe. And he guessed that Isaac was one of these people and once again he was right.

"Emilia I think you have something to tell me" Logan said as he slowly made his way towards me in a threatening way. Like a lion who slowly nears his prey. And I was his prey.

"I don't know what you're talking about" I said as I took a few steps back in fear, but he quickly caught up thanks to his legs who were a lot longer than mine. He grabbed my wrist to stop me from taking even more steps away from him. Before he spoke, he quickly glanced behind me at our father and for the first time in my life I was glad that he was here, even if he was drunk. Logan never dared to do anything when our father was in the same apartment. He respected our father.

"Consider yourself lucky that dad is here Emilia" he whispered in order to not wake him up but dragged me with him, by the wrist he was still hold in his hand tightly. And my eyes widened. Would he still do it even when our father was here? He pushed me into his room and closed the door behind us and locked it. No. This isn't real. It can't be.

"What are you doing? Dad is here" I said and the panic that I felt was evident in my voice.

"I'm not doing anything. Not yet. I wanted to make sure that my point comes across" he said as his hands wandered to my hips to pull my body against his. I scrunched my nose in disgust, which he couldn't see because my face was hidden. He leaned down to whisper in my ear and to make sure that our dad wouldn't hear, even if he was asleep.

"Listen sweetheart" he started and even though sweetheart is supposed to be a nice word he was able to make it sound as threatening as the most horrible word can sound. Because those words came out of his mouth and every word he ever spoke was a threat.

"You'll never see that man again am I making myself clear? He can't have what is already mine and every part of your perfect body already belongs to me" he said as kissed my neck and I silently whimpered. Not again. The entire time while he was here he never dared to kiss me because our father was always here but now Logan doesn't seem to care.

I just stood there and did nothing, like always. I wasn't strong enough to say or do something against it. I was small and fragile and Logan knew that. It's the reason why he always took advantage of me. He told me year after year that I don't stand a chance against him and in the beginning I tried to fight him, but without success. He told me every time that no one would believe me if I told anyone, because I don't matter to anyone and that I should be glad he's giving me attention because no one else would. And I believed him. My stupid, naive self believed every word he said. Until now. Now I know that I matter to people. To Myra and her mother but more importantly to Isaac. He truly cares for me.

Before Logan could take it one step further we heard footsteps outside of his room and I sighed in relief when Logan pulled away from my neck. Our father was awake. Even though my father and I aren't necessarily on good terms, I was thankful for him being her. He didn't do much for me when I was a teenager but he saved me from time to time even though he didn't know it. He didn't have a clue about what was going on because he was never home and if he was home he was too drunk to notice me crying.

"The next time dad is gone I'm going to make you mine completely. I'm going to do all the things I always wanted to do to you" Logan said as he opened the door to his room and pushed me out of it. I didn't cry on my towards my room but once I was in it I broke down completely. He was going to rape me. Growing up he did all different kind of things to me that a brother shouldn't do to his sister. He made me pleasure him in every kind of way you could imagine, except from having sex with me. I'm still a virgin. He never took what I never wanted him to have from, which was my virginity. But now things have turned. He wanted it and I know there's nothing I could do to prevent it. Once he has his mind on something he is determined to get it. Like he always said, I'm weak and it will be easy for him to get what he wants. I can't run from him, it's hopeless.

Now you know what really happened in Emilia's past. What would you do if the same thing happened to you? Do you think you would get help or would you keep quiet just like Emilia did?

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