11 | movie night

Kissing Isaac definitely wasn't a mistake that I made because we actually grew closer ever since our first kiss two weeks ago. We went on three more dates during these two weeks so overall we went on six dates already and surprisingly Isaac hasn't tried to take it further than kissing which is a sign that he really cares for me as Myra likes to put it. And I'm getting more and more comfortable with Isaac each day that passes which is a huge deal for me.

"Hello beautiful" I heard Isaac's voice and I looked up with a huge smile on my face as I saw him. He just makes my day a lot better whenever he gets to visit me at the flower shop.

"Hey handsome" I replied and he came up to the counter to give me a kiss on the forehead. We never really kiss in public because first of all we're not a couple and we don't want people to think that we are and second he knows that I'm not one hundred percent comfortable with all of this intimacy yet. For many people kissing is something that is not seen as a big thing but to me it was. I have to get used to the feeling of kissing someone and actually liking it because it's something I've never experienced before since I was always forced to kiss him. Isaac doesn't know the reason behind my slight discomfort but he accepts that I feel that way and that I don't want to talk about it. Not that the conversation about all of this ever came up but it's like we understand each other so well even without words and I'm thankful that I don't actually have to say it out loud because I never did. I never told a single soul about anything that happened behind the closed door of our apartment. Because I felt ashamed. Because I thought it was my fault.

"So are you free tonight'?" he asked as he eyed me carefully waiting for a response.

"Yeah why?"

"I just thought we could do something again because it's been a while you know" he stated and I laughed. It's been a while?

"Didn't we go out like two day ago?" I asked still laughing but he just shrugged.

"Yeah but it feels like a lifetime" he smiled and I couldn't help but return the smile. He could be so cute sometimes.

"Alright then I'm free tonight. Do you have anything in mind that we could do?" I asked and he immediately nodded. Seems like someone has been already planning things through.

"Maybe you could come to my place and I'll try to cook something for us and we could watch a movie or something" he stated as if he just came up with the idea.

"You can cook?" I asked surprised.

"I said I'll try to cook us something. I can't guarantee that it will be edible though. My mother never let me enter her kitchen as a kid so I was never able to learn properly" he explained.

"I can't wait to see your cooking skills" I teased him which is something that I've been loving to do recently.

"Don't set your hopes up to high or else you'll be disappointed" he reminded me and I nodded in understanding.

"And Emilia?" he asked and suddenly seemed very unsure. Did I miss something.

"Yeah?" I asked signaling him to continue.

"My mother would like to meet you" he then continued and I gulped. Meet his mother? Isn't it something that only people who are in a committed relationship do? And as far as I know we're not in a committed relationship. I don't think his family would even like me they would probably expect a really beautiful, rich and classy model which is the exact opposite of what I am. I don't fit into their world which is something I was able to forget whenever Isaac and I were alone and I'm afraid that I'll realize that I really don't fit in his world once I meet his family. I'm not ready for things between us to end when they have only started.

"No don't get me wrong she knows that we're not in a relationship and all but Kaylee told her about you and that you were the one who made the bouquets for her so she really wanted to meet you. That's all" he quickly added when he saw my frightened expression.

"Do you think this is actually a good idea? I don't think they would like someone like me. I'm too... normal" I stated not knowing how to tell him that I was afraid to not fit in.

"It's impossible not to like you princess. And I know you may be terrified now but you have no reason to be. My parents might have a big name but they for sure as hell don't act like all the snobs you might see in movies. They act like normal human beings so I know my mother will love you. There's no reason why she wouldn't" he said trying to make this sound less terrifying and it did help a little.

"I really don't know Isaac I-" I started forming an excuse but he beat me to it.

"Kaylee is going to be there as well" he said with a challenging look knowing that I love his niece.

"You're playing unfair" I pouted but he didn't care.

"She misses you like crazy so how do you dare to-" he wanted to complain but I stopped him.

"Okay Okay I'll come! When exactly though? I may have to ask if I can change shifts" I stated and he nodded in understanding.

"My mother said maybe in like two days or so?" he asked unsure and I sighed at first but eventually nodded in agreement. Guess I have no other choice now.

.....

With wide eyes I stood in front of Isaac's mansion that was way too big for only one person to live in it. It was definitely beautiful I could already tell from the outside but it must feel pretty lonely to live in a mansion that big all by yourself. My eyes still wandered around the garden as I made my way the stairs that lead towards the front door where I rang the doorbell once I stood in front of it.

"Oh hey Emilia" a distressed looking Isaac said when he opened the door for me. You could clearly see the pearls of sweat forming on his forehead and I had to bite back a laugh knowing that cooking must have been harder than he thought it would be.

"Hey professional cook. What's for dinner?" I asked as Isaac helped me get out of my jacket.

"I'm making lasagna which is something I'm never going to do again because cooking is really hard. I'd rather stick to all the paper stuff that I have to deal with before I'll ever consider to be a cook" he said and I laughed. Typical man.

"You've got a beautiful home. Do you live here completely on your own?" I asked as I took in the grand entrance of the home where you could see two separate stairs going up to the first floor and a big chandelier that hung down from the ceiling brightened up the entrance even more. Even though

this mansion was huge it still felt kind of homey which is something that a lot of really big houses lack most of the time but not this house. You immediately feel welcome once you step into it although I'm not sure if that's because of the house or its owner. I haven't decided just yet.

"Yes I do actually. I used to live in a penthouse with Jax but I wanted my own place so I bought this one for a really good price last year" he said as he proudly looked around his own house.

"Your mother decorated it didn't she?" I asked as I remember that he once told me his mom was really talented when it came to interior design and unsurprisingly Isaac nodded at my question.

"Yes she did. If I decorated it there would probably be just a couch and a TV in the living room and my mother couldn't handle the thought of that so she took over and I let her do whatever she wanted to do. And no doubt it turned out great" he said and before I got to answer I smelled something burning and my eyes widened.

"Isaac I think you should look after the lasagna" I said and just in that moment Isaac smelled it as well so we both sprinted into the kitchen. Me following after him of course because I didn't know where the kitchen was in this huge mansion.

"Shit!" Isaac exclaimed as he took out the very crisp looking lasagna and I muffled a laugh at his disappointed expression as he stared at the burned lasagna.

"So I know this one pizza delivery service that delivers extremely good pizza. Are you up for pizza?"Isaac quickly asked and I just nodded because I knew I would have to laugh if I'd say something. Even though we weren't able to eat the lasagna I still appreciated the gesture behind it knowing that he wanted to impress me with it and the thought behind it counts more than anything else to me.

.....

"Do you like Marvel movies?" Isaac asked as we sat down on the couch with the two boxes of freshly delivered pizza.

"Are you kidding? I love Marvel movies! Can we watch Iron man? God let him rest in peace" I quickly added making Isaac laugh at my behavior.

"Your wish is my command!" he saluted, turned on the first Iron Man movie and then we both digged into our pizzas.

"You've got sauce on your lip" Isaac said after a while and looked at me.

"Where?" I asked him worried and turned to him just to see that he was very close to my face.

"Wait let me help you" he said softly as his lips touched mine before my mind was even able to register what was going on. Once it did, I kissed him back. The kiss that started very softly turned into a more demanding one because Isaac asked for entrance which I had granted him after a short hesitation. His tongue played with mine and Isaac grabbed the back of my head as an attempt to pull my head even closer to him which was nearly impossible. He then leaned his entire body forward making my back touch the soft sofa as I laid there on it with Isaac hovering above me. I felt him poke me even through his jeans but we didn't stop. It was like I was in some trance with no intention to get out of it anytime soon. He held himself up with one hand as I felt his other hand travel underneath my shirt and goosebumps erupted on my skin and it was then when I snapped out of my trance and realized what I was doing so I turned my head to the side to break the contact of our lips and slightly pushed on his chest to signal him to get off of me. I took it way too far which shouldn't have happened even though I know I enjoyed it more than I should have.

"I'm sorry" he quickly apologized and stood up with a face full of regret.

"It's quite late and I have classes tomorrow so I probably should get going" I stated and avoided any eye contact with him.

"You can stay here if you want. My house is a lot closer to the college you're going to anyway" Isaac suggested but I quickly shook my head. I can't stay here tonight. Not after what happened. It's not like I hated every second of what just happened but I couldn't enjoy it as much as I could if it wasn't for him.

"Thanks for the offer but I don't have my books and all of that with me so I'll have to go home" I responded and Isaac nodded with his lips in a firm line. I slowly stood up from the couch and we went to the entrance side by side without anyone saying a single word which I was glad about because I was extremely close to cry.

"Emilia what's wrong?" he asked all of a sudden and I looked at him with wide eyes. That was the question he always avoided to ask which I was glad about but now I was suddenly confronted with it.

"Nothing's wrong! I just told you I have classes tomorrow and I-"

"Cut the crap Emilia! You and I both know that this is not the full truth. But I won't push it. It's your life and if you don't want me to be a part of it you just have to say it" Isaac said looking at me with a serious expression.

"No I really do like you Isaac but you have to understand that this is a first for me. I never had a boyfriend and I never did any of this s this hit me unexpected. I didn't mean to hurt you in any way by pushing you away but-" I made up an excuse in order not to have to tell him what the real reason behind my reaction was but he stopped me right then and there.

"Stop it Emilia you don't have to feel bad about it! What I did was wrong and you're not to blame for this. I know I've taken it too far and I apologize but it just overcame me and I didn't think about it properly. You've told me before that you never had a boyfriend so I should have thought about it in the first place and I'm sorry for that once again" he said with a face full of regret and I wish I could have told him that what he did was far from wrong and that it did feel right in the moment we were doing but nothing came out because I knew he would ask more questions. Questions that I was ready to answer yet. And I probably will never be.

"So when are you going to pick me up in two days? You know so that I can meet your mother?" I asked and Isaac sighed in relief.

"So everything is good between us?" he asked just to make sure and I nodded.

"Of course it is" I answered and Isaac gave me a slight smile.

.....

As I was in front of his gate and out of his sight I broke down crying. Why can't I just enjoy moments like these without feeling like absolute shit afterwards. Why did he have to ruin me and my love life completely? Was that just a game to him and he enjoyed playing it? I'll never understand how he can do this to someone who shares his blood. He was supposed to be the one who protects me and not the one I should be protected from.