: Chapter 20
So Not Meant To Be
âThis is absolutely breathtaking,â Kelsey says as she takes in the 360-degree view of the San Francisco skyline. âI canât believe you flew us back up here for our first official date.â
âFelt only fitting.â
With the meetings piling up on my calendar, I knew waiting until the weekend would be best, and I knew I wanted it here. I wanted to spoil her. I sent her a green, off-the-shoulder dress that I personally picked out because I knew it would accentuate everything I like about herâher curves, the color of her eyes, and her slender shoulders. I had someone do her hair and makeup at her apartment. When I picked her up, I blindfolded her and brought her to the airport, slipping off her blindfold as we boarded the plane. I kept my eyes on her the entirety of the short flight up, happy to see her beaming with excitement. I didnât tell her a thing until the driver pulled up to Parkside and opened the door for her.
Nothing feels more fitting than being at Parkside with her when I can finally call her mine.
âIâve had the chef create a special menu for us. I hope thatâs okay.â
She smilesâfuck, I love that smile so much. âThat sounds amazing.â Then she leans in and says, âNot to put too much pressure on you, but any chance we can get some honey cake before we leave San Francisco?â
âOne step ahead of you, babe.â
She tilts her head, such joy in her eyes. âYou really do know how to woo a girl, donât you?â
âOnly you,â I answer just as our first course comes out.
A bowl is placed in front of each of us as well as a traditional Melamine Asian soup spoon. Then, with a cloth draped over his arm, our waiter says, âMr. Cane, Miss Gardner, Iâd like to present your first course. An Asian curried soup with sweet potatoes, chickpeas, and coconut milk, artfully seasoned with Malaysian flavors. Enjoy.â
He leaves us in the private room reserved for me and my brothers.
Whispering, Kelsey says, âI think this is the fanciest restaurant experience of my life.â
âItâs not too much, is it? Because we can go somewhere else.â
âNo, not at all. I mean, I like the laid-back experience, but I also love this. Iâm such a sucker for a romantic evening and this, JP, itâs . . . itâs really just beautiful.â
âYouâre worth it,â I say before picking up my spoon and dipping it into my soup.
âYou spoil me.â
âAs you should be.â
She smirks and dips her spoon into her soup, as well. Her eyes widen and they meet mine. âOh my God, this is amazing.â
âThis is only the beginning.â
âTELL me more about your mom and Jeff. Did he help raise you?â
Kelsey shakes her head. âNot really. My dad left us when we were really young. He was a truck driver and wanted to be on the road. Mom raised us on her own. Our dad sent money, but that was about it. There was no involvement in our life. And then when I was around fourteen, my mom met Jeff. To our knowledge, he was the only boyfriend she had while we were growing up, and we didnât even know they were dating until after six months. How she did it, I donât know, but she was very protective of us. When we finally met Jeff, it was this big relief because we saw how happy our mom was. We immediately accepted him into our family, and heâs been a rock for us ever since.â
âThatâs such a good story,â I say. âIâve had a few conversations with him, and just from those chats, I can tell how much he treats you as his.â
âHeâs the dad we never had,â Kelsey says as the waiter removes our salad plates. âThere was this one night where I came home from a date in high school and I was heartbroken because the boy I went out with said I was a bad kisser. I knew that wasnât right because Iâd practiced on my hand several times.â She winks and I laugh out loud. Of course she did. âJeff was very quiet, and when my mom took me to my room to console me, Jeff left the house.â
âOh shit, what did he do?â
âNever told me. All I know is that the next day, Skylarâthe guy I went out withâgave me an apology card and told me it was him who was the bad kisser, not me.â
âThatâs my kind of man. I hope he scared the absolute shit out of Skylar.â
âIâm pretty sure he did.â
I lean closer to her and say, âAnd for the record, youâre easily the best kisser Iâve ever had.â
âSame.â She winks.
KELSEY PRESSES her hand to her stomach and says, âOkay . . . hands down the best dim sum ever.â
âTold you.â I dab my mouth with my napkin. âNothing tops it.â
âAnd those Szechwan noodles changed my life.â
âHopefully in a good way.â
âThe best way.â She lifts the tea she ordered and takes a sip. âIâve been meaning to ask you something.â
âWhatâs that?â
âHave you talked to Huxley about your job, what you feel, and the ideas you have to feel more fulfilled?â
I shake my head. âNot yet.â
âAre you nervous?â
âNo, Iâm more focused on you at the moment.â
âYou donât need to focus on me, you have me.â
âYeah? Is that a promise?â
She leans over and takes my hand in hers. âThatâs a promise. So, now you can focus on your job. Do you need help putting together a presentation? Iâm good at organizing thoughts.â
âOf course you are.â I kiss her knuckles. âBut I think I should do this on my own.â
âMmm, I like that. I like when youâre in charge.â
âI know because you scream my name when Iâm in charge.â
Her cheeks redden as she glances around.
âItâs a private room, Kelsey.â
âYes, but our waiter pops in and out.â
âAnd he signed an NDA, so thereâs nothing you need to worry about. Plus, given the tip heâll get tonight, his loyalty is with me.â
âStill, I donât need people knowing Iâm a screamer.â
I chuckle. âNothing wrong with that. I like that you scream. I actually wish it was my ringtone.â
âOh my God, are you trying to ruin the night?â
âIt canât all be roses and candles, babe. There has to be some reality to the night, and that is, even though weâre together, Iâll still drive you crazy.â
âOddly,â she says on a sigh, âI think itâs what I like the most about you.â
âLiar, you like how I make you come.â
She shakes her head. âNope, I like you . . . you, the person. I like Jonah the sweetheart. JP the instigator. The sex, thatâs just a bonus.â
Fuck, she knows how to make me feel whole.
Loved.
Cherished.
Wanted.
I knew this woman had the potential to change my life, but I didnât know how quickly.
When Huxley asked me how serious I was about Kelsey, if this was just fun or if this was real, I wasnât kidding when I told him she was it for me. No one else. I told him that I fell for her weeks ago, and being with her, being able to hold her, kiss her, just solidifies that feeling.
Sheâs my person.
âHOW ARE YOU FEELING?â I ask Kelsey as I sit across from her on our private jet.
âGood. Happy. Lucky.â
After our dinner, we went to the rooftop of the building and I played our song againâwhat I refer to as our songâand I danced with my girl under the stars while candles lit the space around us. It was romantic as fuck, and Kelsey cried when I first took her out on the rooftop. Then, we sat on a couch, shared a piece of honey cake, and talked some more. About everything and anything. Our conversations flow so easily, and itâs like weâve been talking for years. Once we were ready to leave, I asked her if she wanted to fly back or stay the night, and unfortunately, she has a dress fitting with Lottie tomorrow, so we had to fly back home tonight.
The captain informs us that weâre free to get out of our seats, so I unbuckle my seatbelt and rise from my chair. I hold my hand out to her and say, âCome with me.â
I lead her back to the bedroom where thereâs a bed freshly made. I shut and lock the door behind me and then turn toward her. âI want you naked.â
Her eyes widen with excitement. âWhat do you plan on doing?â
âSomething that takes us the whole flight to accomplish.â
âThatâs over an hour.â
âExactly.â I undo my shirt buttons and tug the shirt out of my dress pants. âSeems like the perfect amount of time to explore your body with my tongue.â
She places her hand on my chest and slowly runs her nails over my pecs, across my nipples, and down my abs. âYou know I love how you make me come, right?â
âWhy do I feel like thereâs a âbutâ after that statement?â
âBecause there is.â
âFuck, are you on your period?â
She shakes her head. âNo, but I am preventing you from making me come tonight.â
âWhy?â I feel my brow draw together.
Her hand slips to my pants and she undoes them, then dips her hand past the elastic of my briefs and right to my cock.
A hiss escapes me as I lean against the door of the compact bedroom.
âI want to make you come this time,â she tells me.
âBut weâre taking it slow.â
âYou making me orgasm every time weâre together isnât taking it slow.â
I pause and grip her hand. âFuck, youâre right. Iâm . . . hell, Iâm sorry.â I remove her hand. âYouâre right, I shouldnât end the date like this. We canââ
Her hand covers my mouth as she presses her breasts to my chest. âDonât finish that sentence.â
âKelsey, youâre right, Iâm not honoring what you asked.â
âWhat I asked was dumb. We can connect on both levels. We have. I really want to make you feel good.â
âBabe, you make me feel good without having to stick your hand down my pants.â
âThis is different. I want to connect with you on this level, too.â
âAre you sure?â
She nods. âIâm very sure.â She reaches to her side and undoes her zipper, letting her dress fall to the floor, leaving her in a light pink two-piece lingerie set.
âRemind me to get you a gift card for your favorite lingerie store, because this is never going to get old.â I smooth my hand on her back, grip the clasp of her bra, and undo it with one quick pinch. It snaps off and falls to the ground with her dress.
âI thought I was the one pleasuring you?â she asks as she pushes down my pants and briefs at the same time until I step out of them, removing my shoes and socks first.
âSeeing you naked pleasures me.â I push her thong down so weâre both naked.
I reach for the spot between her legs, but before I can, she drops to her knees, moves her hair to the side, and grips my cock at the base.
âHell,â I whisper, leaning against the door.
Her tongue peeks out past her soft lips and she runs circles over my head, swirling and swirling, while she casually pumps my length.
Itâs subtle.
And it drives me crazy because itâs not nearly enough. I know what sheâs doingâsheâs attempting to torture me as I torture her. Little does she know, I could do this all fucking night.
That is . . . until her hand slides under my balls to the spot just behind them. She pushes up, and my eyes widen in pleasure.
âFuck.â I clench my teeth together as I feel my cock grow in her mouth.
âLike that?â she asks before dipping her tongue to the base of my dick and dragging it all the way up, making short flicks against the underside of the head. Her thumbs work my balls, dragging over the seam, fondling them, one at a time. Itâs an onslaught of pleasure, but once again, not what I need, not whatâs going to drive me to fucking her mouth.
âYou trying to torture me?â
She smirks and brings her entire mouth over my cock, sucking me in. Fuck, yes, thatâs what Iâm talking about. Iâm prepared to settle into her mouth when she pulls off in one slick motion and brings her tongue down to my balls.
The fucking temptress.
I reach down and grip her hair in my fist, turning it over once so I have a tight hold. She doesnât even flinch. She loves it just as much as I do. She reaches for my balls, brings them close to her mouth, and sucks them in, her tongue running all over them.
âBabe, that feels good. But I want in your mouth.â
âSometimes you donât always get what you want.â
My eyes narrow at that smart mouth of hers and I give her hair the lightest of yanks. She smiles before taking my cock into her mouth again, this time, straight to the back of her throat.
âFuck . . . me,â I say when she swallows. âYes, baby. Just like that.â She allows me to thrust into her once, twice, and when I go for a third, she pulls away and releases me. âJesus.â
Sweat trickles down my back as her hands start working my length, up and down, tugging, pulling, massaging. Her hands work over the head, over sensitive veins to my perineum, where she lightly plays, tapping, rubbing, driving me more and more nuts.
âBabe, Iâm about to fuck you in two seconds.â
She chuckles and stands. She keeps one hand on my cock, lightly tugging on it as she kisses my chest, my neck, my jaw, and then matches her lips to mine. I open-mouth kiss her, driving my tongue against hers, aggressively taking what I want. One hand on her lower back, keeping her tight against me, I reach between her legs and find her completely drenched.
âShit, babe, youâre so turned on.â
âI love sucking your cock,â she says, her confession nearly making me come right then and there.
âIf you like sucking it so much, then lie down on the bed, your head hanging over the edge.â
Confused, she leans away, so I help her lie down. Then I guide her body so her head tips back over the edge of the bed and her throat is completely exposed.
âHave you ever sucked a cock like this before?â
She shakes her head as she wets her lips.
âIâll go slow, then. Open for me, baby.â
She opens her mouth, and I position my cock at her lips and slowly press into her mouth, giving her the feel of the position first.
âAre you okay?â
She nods so I press farther. She unhinges and allows me to go even deeper.
âThatâs it, take me in slow.â I lean forward and place my hands on the mattress at either side of her waist. âOpen your legs for me.â She listens brilliantly, and I lean over and tongue her clit, swiping at it a few times.
She groans against my cock and the vibration nearly makes me shoot off in seconds.
âChrist,â I groan, trying to keep my composure. âHold my cock, baby, guide me in and out.â
She grips the base of my erection and moves me in and out of her throat, sometimes going shallow, other times taking me in so deep that I nearly black out. The entire time, I try to focus on bringing her pleasure. I lap at her clit with fast flicks, something I know drives her crazy.
She pulls me into her throat, swallows, plays with my balls, presses and strokes me in all the right places, and my orgasm climbs faster than I want it to.
âSo good, baby. Fuck, you feel so good. Are you close?â
âYes,â she whispers while pulling off me for a second to take a deep breath. âCan I come?â
And fuck . . . me, those three words have my cock surging for release.
âGood girl for asking. You can,â I say, then I lower my mouth again and press it against her clit. She takes me into her throat. Her body tenses beneath me, and after three more flicks, sheâs moaning against my cock, tugging on my goddamn balls, and making me come so fucking fast, I didnât even have time to prepare her. Instead, I shoot off down her throat and pulse into her mouth until Iâm completely spent.
I slide to the side and pull her up into my hold, cradling her close to my chest and pressing a kiss to her forehead.
She rests her heated cheek against my skin and sighs.
âAre you okay?â I ask her. She nods. âWas that too intense for you?â
âNo.â She kisses my chest. âIt was perfect.â She then looks me in the eyes and says, âYou make me feel so desirable, JP. The way you speak to me is so demanding, but also like youâre protecting me. You have so much faith in me even though I donât have that much experience. I donât think Iâve ever felt sexier in my life.â
âBecause you are.â I nudge her chin up and capture her lips.
âThis may be too deepâno pun intended, given what we just didâbut Iâve always been insecure about my looks. Being Lottieâs younger sister, itâs hard not to compare myself to her. And with one failed attempt after another at dating, I have a hard time not feeling insecure about who I am and what I look like. But then you came along, and youâve somehow washed away those insecurities. Youâve made me feel beautiful.â
âBecause you are.â I have no clue why Kelsey doesnât see her own beauty. Sure, her sister is pretty, but Kelsey is in another league of beautiful. âI think youâre the most exquisite beauty, Kelse. Lottie has nothing on you.â
Her smile weakens me, and when she curls against me again, she asks, âCan we lie down and just talk?â
âYeah, baby, we can. Let me grab you a water first.â
I help her under the covers of the bed. Then I quickly wash up, grab some waters, and offer her a wet washcloth. Once weâre settled, lying down and facing each other, her beautiful smile peeks past her lips.
âDidnât think Iâd ever be a girl who deep-throated a guy on an airplane, but look at me now . . . not sure if I should be proud or not.â
I laugh. âYou should be. Thereâs more to life than bamboo organization systems.â
âApparently.â She dances her fingers over my chest. âSo, are you excited about Hux and Lottie getting married soon? Itâs right around the corner.â
âI am excited. Not so much about the wedding, but for Huxley to be married and start a family. Heâs always been a sort of father figure to me and Breaker, especially once our dad passed, so I know being a father is in his blood. Itâll be good to see him take a step back for a second, breathe, and enjoy life. I know Lottie helps him do that.â
âShe does. I didnât think their little scheme would ever go this far, but Iâm happy for them, and Iâm ready to be an aunt.â
âWhat about a mom? Is that something you want?â I ask, curious about her thoughts on starting a family.
âIt is.â Her eyes flash to mine. âWhat about you?â
âYes. I want to be a father. I want to have a family. I have that huge fucking house, and I need to fill it up with something.â
âYou could always fill it up with a bunch of cats. Given your ornery disposition at times, a cat seems like the perfect pet for you.â
âI do like a good pussy.â
She rolls her eyes, causing me to chuckle.
âIâm sure Iâll get a pet someday, and itâll hate me but love everyone else in my family.â
âSounds about right. How many kids do you want?â
âOne . . . possibly two. But not for a bit. I donât want to be banging out kids as soon as I get married. I want to enjoy my wife first, take her around the world, grow experiences before weâre deep in the trenches of diapers and temper tantrums.â
âIâm the same way. I still have some things I want to accomplish, experience. I know I want a family, but I donât need it right away.â
I momentarily study her and then say, âI think youâd be a great mom.â
Her eyes soften. âYou think so?â
I nod. âI really do. You have a loving, calm heart. Youâre also a beautiful leader, and when conflict arises, you donât immediately grow angry like I do. You take a step back and give it some thought before tackling what needs to be said, what needs to be done. I think thatâs a good quality in a mom.â
âWell, I think youâd be a good dad. Youâre caring, protective, and even though youâre annoying at times with your constant teasing, I know youâd bring great joy to your family.â
âThat means a lot to me. Thank you, Kelsey.â And that right there is one of the main reasons Iâm falling for this girl. She sees beyond the façade, sees my heart, and likes what she sees. As much as I craved time with my dad, I also wished he gave more of himself to all of us boys. We all needed a role model and someone who loved us unconditionally. I want to be the man he wasnât.
âYouâre welcome.â She scoots in closer, brings her hand to the back of my neck, and kisses me tenderly. âSo, I was thinking, after my dress fitting tomorrow, do you want to come over to my place? Iâll make you dinner?â
âCan I help you make dinner?â
âIâd like that a lot.â
âGood.â I kiss her this time. âThen, yes, Iâll be there.â
BREAKER DRIBBLES the ball and then tosses it up to the basket, making a swish. âIâm surprised you were able to find the willpower to pull yourself away from Kelsey for one goddamn moment and play basketball with me.â
âWow, you donât sound bitter,â I say as the ball rebounds and I toss it back to him.
âSeriously, dude. Iâm losing Huxley. Am I going to lose you, too?â
âYouâre not losing us.â
âI never see you guys unless weâre at the office, and you donât even have lunch with me anymore.â Jokes are on the tip of my tongue, but when I see how serious he is, I hold back.
âAre you really upset?â I ask.
He dribbles, sets up, shoots. âI mean, sort of, and not in a bitchy way, because Iâm happy for you two, but it would be nice if you guys would carve out some time for me.â
âI can do that.â I pull on the back of my neck. âThings have just been . . . crazy. And Iâve been consumed. Dude, I fucking like her a lot.â
âI know. I can tell. And I know Huxley is consumed by the wedding right now, which is in a week, but remember, weâre all we have. Donât leave a man behind.â
âIâll make a better effort,â I promise. He tosses me the ball and I take a shot. It bounces off the rim, right back at me. âYou know, you could possibly find someone to settle down with. The option is there.â
âOh, is it? What love connection are you seeing for me that I donât see?â
âWhat about Ophelia?â I ask.
âLia?â he asks, confused.
âYeah. Huxley and I have been taking bets as to when you two will hook up.â
âDude, sheâs my friend, not to mention my neighbor, and she has a boyfriend. Thatâs it. Thereâs no romance.â
âYou two also call each other all the timeâcall, not text. Thatâs weird.â
âWe text, too,â he mutters. âBut thatâs beside the point. Weâre friends, thatâs it, nothing more. We established those ground rules back in college.â
âSo, youâre telling me you never thought about getting together with her?â
âNever.â
I laugh. âYouâre such a fucking liar.â I shake my head as I steal the ball from him and shoot, missing the basket completely. Jesus, maybe I should meet up with Breaker more. I canât seem to score anything today. âSo, youâre not bringing her to the wedding?â
âNo. She did knit Huxley and Lottie pot holders, though, that I have to take with me.â
âI canât believe you didnât invite her to the wedding.â
âIâm bringing some girl named Charise.â
âSome girl? Do you even know her?â
âYeah. Sheâs Liaâs friend.â
âWait.â I pause. âYouâre not taking Lia, but youâre taking her friend?â
He shrugs. âI told her I needed a date, and she hooked me up. See, thatâs what friends are for. I was her wingman when she met Brian. Unlike you, I can actually be friends with a woman.â
âSeems like everything worked out for me.â I smile at him as he takes a shot from the three-point line and sinks it.
âDo you love her?â he asks, rebounding his own ball before tossing it to me.
I dribble it a few times and nod. âYeah, I think I do. Hell, sheâs all I think about. Iâm constantly counting down the minutes until I can hold her and be with her. And she makes me really fucking happy, dude. I think once all this wedding stuff is done, Iâm going to take her back to San Francisco and tell her. Feels fitting to do it there.â
âWhen did you become a man who makes grand gestures?â
âEver since I started listening to Kelseyâs podcast. Have you heard it?â I ask. He lifts a brow at me, which causes me to laugh. âWell, sheâs all about these stories of how people met. She loves the grand gesture, and she soaks in their romance. You can feel how much sheâs in her element when you listen. Figured if I want to keep her around, I have to step up my game.â
âNever thought Iâd see the day when you matured into a thoughtful man, but here you are. Iâm impressed.â
âThank you.â I awkwardly bow before shooting the ball. I fade back while the ball hits . . . nothing.
Breaker lets out a long, drawn out, âAIIIIIIRRRRR BALLLLLLLLL,â like the immature little brother that he is.
Yeah, I need to get out here more often.
âTHANKS FOR MEETING WITH ME,â I say to my brothers as I sit across from them at the conference table.
Fuck, my palms are sweaty.
Iâve put a lot of time into this presentation, knowing that Huxley would want specific points. Although Iâd planned to speak to Breaker first and toss around the numbers, I didnât want Huxley to feel weâd gone behind his back. I might want to drive this, but we need to be unified on this direction and the only way to achieve that is if we all use our individual strengths once the idea is on the table. I spent last night running through my idea over and over, explaining it out loud to Kelsey as she sat on her bed with me. She listened to me speak until I was blue in the face. Iâd felt ready. Right now, however, with my brothers watching me, I feel like Iâve lost all sense of why Iâm doing this.
Kelsey and I drove to Cane Enterprises this morning. She walked me to my office, she held my hand as I went over the presentation one more time, and she gave me the most encouraging kiss and told me to call her after.
I canât fucking fold, knowing sheâs waiting to hear from me.
Taking a deep breath, I look my brothers in the eye and say, âIâm unhappy.â
The confused looks that cross their faces would almost seem comical if I wasnât so fucking on edge right now.
Huxley shifts in his chair. âWhat do you mean, youâre unhappy? In life? I thought everything was good with Kelsey.â
âEverything is great with Kelsey,â I say. âThis has nothing to do with my personal life and everything to do with my work life.â
âYouâre unhappy with work?â Breaker asks, both of them truly concerned. Theyâre obviously surprised too.
âI am.â On another deep breath, I say, âWhen we started this company, I joined in not because it was something I truly wanted to doâinvest in real estateâbut because I wanted to be close to you two. Losing Dad, it wasââ My throat grows tight. âWell, you know how devastated I was. And I was feeling lost, tortured at times with memories, and the only way I knew how to preserve those memories was to stay as close to you two as I could. The jobs were simple. Breaker, youâd do the numbers because that was what youâre good at. Huxley, youâd be the idea man, because youâre a natural-born leader, and that left me with the leftovers, handling all media and odd jobs. At first, I didnât mind it, but as time went on, I grew more and more bored. More bitter. Angry that I didnât feel like I had a purpose.â
âHow long have you felt this way?â Huxley asks.
âProbably about a year now. But in the last few months, those feelings have grown to the point of bitterness. And thatâs not what I want. I donât want to feel bitter toward the one thing that keeps me close to Dadâs memory. Close to you both. So, I sat down and thought about what would truly make me happy, what would make me feel fulfilled.â I open my folder and slide the two printouts across the table, one for each of them. âI want to start a foundation within Cane Enterprises that focuses on offering affordable housing in our buildings to those who need it. Single parents, low-income families, those struggling to get their feet on the ground. I want to build a community within the housing, offer practical classes like basic DIY home maintenance and managing your finances, have childcare, health management. Weâre bringing in so much fucking money every goddamn day that I think itâs time we give back, do more than just writing a check to a foundation.â
Huxley and Breaker both look over the printout, their eyes scanning the details. Iâm literally hiding my shaking hands as I wait for their response.
They have to see the value in it.
âAnd youâd head this program?â Huxley asks. âStarting with the Angelica?â
I nod. âYes. Iâve laid out the plans for how we can make the Angelica our first affordable housing apartment building. I even spoke with the mayor before I left San Francisco, pitched him the idea, and he said not only would he be willing to work with us on securing more buildings, but heâd put money toward our initiative when it comes to education, opportunity, childcare, as well as transportation.â
âHave you run the numbers on this?â Breaker asks.
âYes.â I pull another paper from my folder, knowing he was going to ask. âWith the products the mayor can provide at cost, and the tax breaks, we could break even on the project, while helping others. But honestly, even if we didnât, it wouldnât matter. Profit from even one of our other properties can sustain that.â
âWhat about your current responsibilities?â Huxley asks.
âSustainably Organized runs on its own, and I think you know that at this point, Lottie and Kelsey donât need us watching over them. Iâd be able to keep up on some of my smaller management projects, and then all the PRâwell, I can schedule important meetings, but the smaller fires, those can be put out by someone we hire. Itâs menial work and a waste of my time.â I tap the desk. âThis, though, this is the big picture. We can start a wave of affordable living across the country in major cities, expand from California to New York, touch down in Denver and Atlanta, as well.â
Huxley leans back in his chair and stares me down. âHonestly, I think it would be a substantial hit on our profit, because I canât see how we could make affordable housing profitable.â My stomach fucking falls. âBut . . . itâs a fucking brilliant idea and Iâm mad I didnât think of it myself.â He places his hand on the conference table. âOne of the best things I learned from Dad about business is sometimes you have to take a hit in order to invest in yourself later. This is a hit, but it will keep investing in our company over and over again, maybe not financially, but morally. We have to run the numbers to ensure we stay viable, ensure we balance the not-for-profits with the revenue-generating properties, which I can see is possible. Iâm guessing weâd need a not-for-profit license too. Spend time with Breaker and run numbers. You have my approval. Letâs meet on this again in three weeks.â
My chest swells as I turn toward Breaker, whoâs still looking over the numbers. âI agree with Huxley and we do need to go over these numbers.â He lifts his eyes and smirks at me. âBut I fucking love the idea.â Growing serious, he asks, âThis will make you happy, though?â
I nod. âIt will.â
He tilts his head to the side and asks, âDoes this have anything to do with Kazoo the pigeon?â
I let out a loud laugh as Huxley asks, âWho the hell is Kazoo?â
âSome pigeon JP has been saving during his spare time.â
âI think this was inspired by Kazoo,â I say.
âWell, would you look at that, pigeons really do deserve to be saved.â
After a few handshakes, some bro hugs, and some reassurance on my end that Iâm truly excited about this, I part ways with my brothers and pull my phone from my pocket.
Where are you?JP:
Kelsey texts back right away.
Your office.Kelsey:
I nearly sprint to my office and shut the door behind me. Sheâs on the couch, a cup of coffee in hand. When our eyes meet, she slowly sets the coffee on the table in front of her and stands. âWhat did they say?â
I smile. âThey fucking loved it.â
She jumps in glee and then runs to my arms, offering me the worldâs best fucking hug. I grip her tightly, one hand on her back, the other at the nape of her neck as she clings to me, her legs wrapping around my waist.
âOh my God, Iâm so excited for you.â
âThank you,â I say, burying my head in her hair.
I press a kiss to the side of her face and hold her so tightly. Itâs as if the world around me is starting to make sense. For so long, Iâve felt lost, like I wasnât supposed to be where I was, but over the last few months, the clouds have parted and I can finally fucking see what Iâm supposed to be doing.
Giving back.
Creating something bigger than an income for me and my brothers.
Falling for this woman and showing her the kind of man I can be for her.
Itâs all clicking into place, and I donât think Iâve ever been happier.
Ever.