chapter 10-

Sienna p.o.v.

Warning ! Warning!

I would just like to warn you guys in the chapter there is insecurities of there body ! I will not be going into it much st all but I just wanted to warn you before you read in case this is something you do not think you can read. There will not be a lot of detail about the body insecurity but it will be said for why she has insecurities!

Myself and the girls headed up to "ny room" once sarah gave me skie of her clothes. As we got inside the room I sat on the bed and sighed. I can not stop thinking about jayden.

"You can keep them clothes by the way. I don't really wear them anyways." Sarah said smiling.

"Are you sure?" I asked.

"Of course." She said happily.

I thanked her and gave her a smile.

"It will all work out soon." Sarah said softly.

I put my head down because I'm not fully sure I believe that.

"Sarah is right. Jayden will come around soon. He is already protective over you." Daisy said softly.

"I'm not silly sure he will." I said sadly.

"What makes you think that?" Rose asked.

I let out a sarcastic laugh.

"Maybr the fact my mom tired to kill his future luna. Also the fact that my mom almost killed the pack and actually planned to do so. That's only some of the reasons I'm surprised why he has not rejected me." I said sadly with tears coming to my eyes.

Sarah sighed and sat next to me as did the twins.

"Me and Hunter had a bit of a rocky start." Sarah said.

"Let me guess. Because of my mom?" I more stated then asked.

Sarah gave me a sad smile.

"Yes but we got through it. I know you and jayden will." Sarah said.

I nodded my head in agreement but in all honestly I didnt believe it.

"Right I need to get changed." I said eith a laugh.

I grabbed the bag and headed to the bathroom. Once I pulled the clothes out the bag my heart dropped and my heart pounded out my chest in anxiousness.

The top showed a little bit off my stomach and there were Jean's that were ripped. (Ripped jeans).

I looked down and groaned internally. Of course it has to show my stomach. I hate and I mean hate my stomach.

Tears came to my eyes and I tried to blink them away but I couldn't. I tried to stop the sob that was trying to escape my throat but it still  came out which made me sob more and more.

My mom really is a horrible person. I never realised how horrible until recently. She always made sure to make me feel so low about myself.

Ever since I can remember she would call me fat and ugly. No one would ever want me and I guess that's why it also hurts so much with jayden who is supposedly my soul mate does not want me.

Once I became a teenager i started seeing other clothes and I loved them. Some that would show a bit of my stomach. I remember one time I decided to wear one that showed a little bit of my stomach. Like the one sarah gave me. My mom belted me for it. Lictually got her belt out and whacked me 10 times on my stomach for it. I begged her to stop but it made her smack me harder with it.

She told me I was to fat and that it was embarrassing so I needed to take it off instantly and cover my horrible body up. I also had to eat less and less food. She always kept an eye on what I was eating. I was allowed to eat one meal a day and toast before i go sleep. That was it.

At first it just really hurt that she would say that . She called some of my friends beautiful who was the same size as me. They looked skinny to me and I use it think I was to. I never understood how she called them beautiful but not me.

Like I said at first I thought I was a good weight. Skinny but not to skinny. But now I feel fat all the time. I watch what I eat and I can not bring myself to wear tops that show any of my stomach.

My stomach is the only place I have a problem with. My legs are fine or at least i think they are as well as my thighs. My arms i guess are fine but my stomach is a big no.

Before i knew it the bathroom door opened and in walked all three girls staring at me with worried eyes. However I could bring myself to do was hiccup to try and stop another sob coming out.

"Sienna what's the matter." Sarah asked worriedly.

"I-i" I couldn't even get my words out I was that upset.

"Its her top." I heard rose say looking st me and then the top I had grabbed so tight whik crying.

I looked down and felt a bit ashamed and embarrassed.

"I- I'm sorry." I hiccuped out.

"Hey, she its alright." Sarah said softly rubbing my back.

Do- do you have insecurities of your body?" Daisy asked with tears in her eyes.

I whimpered feel really embarrassed.

"You don't need to feel embarrassed sienna. We all have our insecurities. Some just hide it better then others." Rose said softly and added the last part when she seen me look at her as if to say even you.

I didn't know what to say. I didn't want them seeing me like this it's so embarrassing even if they tell me not to be embarrassed.

"My insecurities is people being prettier then me." Daisy said out the blue.

I looked at her with wide eyes.

"B- but your beautiful." I said a bit shocked.

"I don't always feel it. I don't show it to everyone but I don't always feel pretty. I'm not as bad as I use to now though I have over come it but sometimes it does still play around in my head." Daisy said softly.

"Mine use to be my weight to. I guess that how I knew what yours was over. I noticed the signs. But then I slowly started to see my worth. It took a while but I'm feeling so much better now about myself." Rose said softly.

"H- how?" I asked.

"The support of my friends and family. We will support and help you sienna. No matter what happened from now on we will support you and help you always." Rose and daisy said at the same time making tears pour down my eyes again but this time happy and relieved tears.

"Thank you." I said softly.

I looked over to sarah who had tears pouring down her eyes as well.

"Wow. I never expected ruthie today but I'm glad we know about it so we can help you the best we can." Sarah said softly.

"I will go get you a top from my room. We are about the same size anyways. I will get you a top and make sure it covers your stomach. But we will be working on your insecurities." Rose said softly.

I nodded my head in thanks and she walked out to get me a top. Once she came back I changed into the top which this time was a long sleeved white top that I tucked into my Jean's.

We changed the subject and talked about more about stuff. We even talked about fashion and I love, love , love clothes and fashion but just would not put them on me that would show my stomach.