Chapter 40
The Abandoned Empress
When my father returned home, the atmosphere of my house seemed to have changed.
I felt warm and cozy in my house that seemed so empty and lonely before.
He must have been very tired, riding all the day from the faraway borders, but as soon as he changed his clothes, he came to talk with me.
âYou look haggard. Did anything happen to you while I was away? â
âNope, nothing particular.â
When I looked at his anxious expression, I felt like something was coming up from my heart. However, I didnât say anything about it. While looking at me silently for a long time, he pulled me into his arms. As if he let out a sigh, I felt his warm breathing on top of my head.
âAre you sure? Anyway, you must have been distressed while I was away.â
â⦠â
âIâm sorry I came back late without any notice. I should have realized you were worried. Itâs my fault, honey.â
âDad.â
âHmmm, let me give the butler a piece of my mind. You look so pale even though nothing has happened to you, which means the butler neglected his duty.â
âNo, Daddyâ¦â
Did I really look so pale? In fact, I could hardly eat food because I was on edge for some time. I hesitated for a moment. What should I do? I couldnât tell him about my situation in detail, but I couldnât let the butler be taken to task for something beyond his control.
âTia.â
âYes, Dad.â
When I was hesitant, my father said, lightly patting my back, âI donât want to ask. Tell me whenever you feel comfortable enough.â
I was touched by his warm consideration and trust that I felt after a long time. Suddenly, I had a lump in my throat.
âThanks, Daddy.ân/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om
âYouâre welcome, honey.â
âHow about you, Daddy? Did everything go well? I think you must have had lots of hardship, travelling all over the empire ⦠â
âAs the central government was well prepared, I found the situation was under control. On the way back to the capital, I had some problems, which delayed my arrival here.â
âI see. Thatâs a relief!â
There was silence for a moment. When I was hesitating because I didnât want to get out of his cozy arms, he whispered, âDonât worry too much.â
â⦠â
âI didnât want to mention it anymore, but you look so nervous. It looks like you are nervous because you didnât solve the issue in a satisfactory manner. But the emperor must have fully understood my intention. So, he wonât be able to take action recklessly. â
âReally?â I trust my father, but can I really feel okay? Given His Majestyâs expression, it looked like he wouldnât agree easily.
âTia.â
When I looked up at him, he sighed deeply and hugged me. I felt that my arms were trembling. I was going to ask why, but stopped because it was me, not him.
âI want to leaveâ¦â
I moved my lips before I knew it and spoke with a sigh.
Hesitant a bit, my father said, âSure. Why not?â
âPardon? Are you serious?â
âSure. Why donât you stop by my estate on this occasion? You never visited there before, right?â
âIâd love to, but⦠â
âGood. Iâm going to ask the emperor for vacation leave tomorrow, so be prepared. Letâs go together.â
I raised my head when he gave a greenlight so easily.
âIs he serious?â As he came back after several months, he must have gotten behind in his work. As if he noticed that I was surprised, he smiled faintly and said, âItâs alright, honey. Since you want it, I can grant you this kind of request without any problem.â
â⦠Thanks, daddy.â
I felt the tension inside me melting away when he gently swept my soft hair. As I relaxed, I felt more and more drowsy. While I was blinking in my fatherâs warm arms, I fell asleep before I knew it.
I thought it would not be so easy for the emperor to approve my fatherâs request for one-month vacation leave, after not having been around for a long time, but he went the next day and got his approval.
According to imperial law, all the marquis estates were located in the border areas since the founding of the empire.
However, my family alone owned an estate located within two days of horse riding from the capital because of my familyâs special relationship with the imperial family. Thanks to that, my father and I could arrive at our estate two days after leaving the capital.
âLong time, no see, butler. How have you been?â
âWelcome, my lord. Iâm doing well. Is there anything special for an old man like me here? You look better. â
âItâs been a long time since I saw you last, butler.â
âMy lady, you have grown up a lot. You look like a mature lady. â
I smiled at the old butler who I hadnât seen in three years. He was formerly the butler of my house in the capital, but after his son took over, he went down to this estate where he had little work to do.
I felt relaxed at his generous and kind smile. It was my first time coming here, but I felt I could get used to it quickly.
One month passed quickly.
It had been a long time since I enjoyed a peaceful time like this. On a typical day, I spent my time practicing with the knights of my family, learning from watching my father taking care of his documents and chatting with Lina. It seemed that my nervousness finally began to disappear. Sometimes, I felt terribly anxious or empty, but whenever I felt so, I snuggled into my fatherâs arms to shake off my anxiety.
However, my calm life at the estate was broken by the two family knights from the capital three days before her fatherâs vacation ended.
âSir Seymour, Sir June?â
âI havenât seen you for a long time.â
âLong time, no see, lady. How have you been?â
The two knights in white uniforms bowed their heads. I was happy to see their familiar faces, but I got nervous at their appearance. Why did they come here? Did they bring a message from the emperor that we had to come back to the palace immediately?
My heart started beating fast. Shortly afterwards, my father came out to the reception room.
The two knights saluted and said, âGlory to the Empire! I, Sir Seymour of the Royal Guards, am honored to see you, the Captain of the 2nd Knights. â
âI, Eriton Su June with the Royal Guards, am honored to see you, Marquis Monique. Glory to the Empire! â
âWelcome! Nice to meet you, Sir Seymour, and Sir June. Why did the royal guards like you come here?â
âWe have the order from the crown prince.â
âFrom the crown prince?â
âThatâs right. The crown prince said that even after your vacation was over, she could continue to stay here as long as she wanted to, and he ordered us to protect her while she was staying here.â
âProtect her?â
My heart sank. I could understand why the two royal guards were sent to me because there was a precedent. But I couldnât understand why the order was issued by the crown prince, not the emperor. Why did he give such an order? Is this his reply to his conversation with my father on that day? Did he want to send me a clear warning that I could not get out of the imperial family?
When I recalled his blue eyes shining coldly, I felt goosebumps. Pondering over something with a frown, my father nodded, saying, âHmm, I got it. First of all, I think I have to think about whether she wants to stay here longer or not. It wonât take several days, so stay here until then. Let me talk about other stuff later. â
âOkay, lord.â
The two slightly bowed to him and left, following the butler. Staring at their back, my father said with a sigh, âWhat are you going to do, Tia? Are you going to go with me to the capital?â
âWellâ¦â
âItâs okay. Please tell me frankly. â
To be honest, I was not sure if I would feel okay to go back to the capital. I was always afraid to encounter the crown prince. Given that my father, who was always prudent, suggested firmly that I go with him, he must have something in mind for my protection, I was still nervous.
I still vividly remembered the crown prince talking to me without any empathy. He said he would make sure I would maintain my status as his fiancee. I also recalled him smiling at me as if he was very satisfied with something.