chapter 180

Waking the next morning I get up, quickly showering and getting changed into my jeans and

polo shirt. Throwing my hair up into a bun while I walk down the stairs trying to remember where I

put my shoes. Finding them by the door I quickly slip them on and walk into the dining room to

Mara having a full on meltdown as she chucked her cereal at Ryland crying hysterically over

something,

“Mara you don't throw things" Ryland scolds picking up her bowl that had splattered on the

floorboards. His shirt was covered in cornflakes where it had got on him

"Why did you do that?" I asked her but she was far gone screaming and not paying attention to

anyone. The lights suddenly turn on and start flickering, the kettle and oven light turning on as all

the power suddenly starts to surge.

“Mara stop baby, calm down I will go get it" Ryland tries to sooth as he picks her up off the

chair. Her face was blotchy as she heaved with her sobs.

“Amara That is enough" Thaddeus tells her as he walks in, A washing basket in his hands. His

shirt sleeves rolled up and I could feel his annoyance as she continued to scream the place down.

Ryland rocked her as he tried to calm her.

The light bulbs suddenly start bursting, raining glass down above us, the fire alarms start

blaring loudly. I cover my ears trying to shield them from the deafening noise. I had never seen her

like this, and I had no idea what to do about it. Thaddeus growls loudly before walking toward her,

he touches her arm grabbing her attention and he eyes flew open looking at him.

Anger and a burning urge to scream and hurt something ravaged my mind clawing at the

Insides of my heart and deconstructing it piece by fucking piece. I rip open the car door and start

yanking the seat out. Tears running down my cheeks as I stared at that stupid chair. It was just a

chair but I hated it, hated what it was supposed to represent. Blinding hot rage consumed me when

it didn't come undone as I pulled on it, yanking it out with all my strength. The car door swings wide

open with the force as it smashes into Thaddeus’ car, the door frame bending with the force. I pull

the seat out, the seat belt snapping under the pressure and throwing me backwards.

I stopped the carseat in my hands but his car door was destroyed and a huge dent in Thaddeus’

car. I shut the door, the door creased and not closed completely. "Fuck!"

I threw the car seat before picking it up and smashing it till all the plastic was broken, feeling

slightly better as my anger slowly dissipated and I picked up the pieces like trying to pick up the

missing pieces to everything we lost.

"Was that necessary?" Says Ryland behind me. He walks in accessing the damage to both cars.

"It's a car seat Evelyn”

"No it's his carseat, why would you keep it?" I spit at him. How could he shove him in my face

like that?

"Because it's his, that's why I kept it and you just fucking destroyed it" Ryland growls his entire

body trembling, his anger smashing into me full force along with. It took me a second to recognise

the feeling over my own burning anger but when I did, it hurt knowing I caused it, grief. Sadness so

crippling I thought it would suffocate me as my throat constricted.

"Get out!" He says, closing his eyes as he fights with himself, a war raging inside him.

"Ryland, I'm"-

"Get out Evelyn” he sounded defeated. My stomach sinks and I walk out placing the broken

pieces in the trash before walking inside leaving him to calm down.

Walking inside I give Mara the book before kissing her head. I grab my keys walking out of the

house toward my car.

"Where is Ryland?" Thaddeus asks and I know he could feel his distress through the bond. I

reach my car door and I look over to the shed to find Ryland sitting on the ground leaning against

the car with his head in his hands

"In the shed" I tell him not that I had to, Thaddeus was already walking over to it. I get in the

car starting it before reversing out noticing Ryland clinging to Thaddeus, feeling his heartache at

what I did. Guilt floods me but I force it aside and head to work, hoping that he forgives me.O