chapter 155 Fifty-Three

Evelyn's POV

Thaddeus stalks toward the car making me panic and I hit the gas, the car jolting backwards

only to stop the wheels spinning but not moving. Looking back, Orion has his hands on the boot.

He growls loudly smoke from the tyres spewing everywhere and I could smell burning rubber, but it

was useless how he was strong enough to hold the car in place was beyond me. I take my foot off

the gas not even bothering to turn the car off instead dashing over the seat and out the passenger

door just as Thaddeus rips open the driver side door open and trying to grab me.

I run, it's all I could possibly think of. I hear the car cut off before my feet are knocked off the

ground and out from under me, arms wrapping around my waist tugging me against them. I thrash

kicking and screaming but the Thaddeus doesn't let go. Instead, just tosses me over his shoulder

stalking back towards the car and throwing the back door open, I manage to kick backwards forcing

the door shut.

“Evelyn, stop it,” he snaps at me, but I don't instead continuing to thrash. Tears rolling down my

face and I was crying and screaming hysterically they aren't taking my baby; they will have to kill me

first.

“Evie enough,” Thaddeus says, spinning me around to face him and pressing me against the

side of his car.

“No, no you're not taking it from me,” I scream.

“It's too dangerous, we can't risk you,” he says, I could barely even see his face through my

tears as he pins me there, my feet not even touching the ground as I thrash and I know its pointless,

I am not getting away. Not from them.

“I'm sorry, I have no choice,” he murmurs, pressing his face into the crook of my neck and I go

limp, giving up. I will hate them forever if they make me do this. I could hear Thaddeus hard

breathing, his breath on my neck. Orion was standing behind him looking away from the scene

unfolding, I could tell neither of them wanted to do this, but they felt they had no choice.

“I'll let you change me,” I whisper my voice shaking and Orion's head snaps in my direction.

Thaddeus pulls back looking at me. “What?” he asks, wondering if he misheard me.

“You can change me, I won't die. Please don’t make do this.” Thaddeus looks over his shoulder

at Orion before he too walks over.

“We don't even know how far along she is, or when it would be born,” Orion mutters and I feel

hope die out.

“It worked on my mother,” Thaddeus answers him.

“Your mother had vampire DNA. Evelyn doesn't. Her heart could stop long before our blood

takes effect and is in her system” Orion says.

“I can drink it every day please, Orion” I beg, and his eyes soften before he reaches his hand out

stroking my face.

“You will drink our blood every day, no complaining, no matter how gross it starts to taste” he

says, and I nod. Thaddeus looks at him and I could see the wheels turning in his head.

“C-section, if we keep her heart beating long enough by getting it out, she should survive?”

Orion nods.

“Chances of finding a doctor once she goes in labour Thaddeus”- Orion shakes his head

pinching the bridge of his nose.

“But if your blood is in my system won't I just die and come back?" I ask.

“That's what we are hoping but the baby will be tribrid it might absorb everything. My mother

craved blood during pregnancy” Orion nods and I could see he was trying to think.

“I'll do it” Orion says, making Thaddeus looks at him.

“You'll do it, you'll really cut her open, your own mate?” Thaddeus asks, incredulous. The idea

nauseated me. Orion nods.

“Can't be that hard.”

“I'm not saying it is, I'm just asking because I know you don't like hurting her.”

“Well, I don't have a choice now do I, she won't go through with it so that's all we can do, you

and Ryland can hold her down, I will cut it out while you feed her my blood” They both look at me

and dread consumes me, they were going to cut it out of me while I was awake and could feel it.

They both stare and I realise they are waiting for me to answer. I nod even though the thought of it

petrifies me.

“And you do as we say, we have hunters after us and until things die down, we can't stop Evelyn

no matter how tired you get of moving.”

“Please I will do anything you ask, just don't kill our baby,” I beg him. He sighs pressing his

head against mine.

“Fine we can keep it,” he whispers, and my heart skips a beat, they were going to let me keep

the baby, our baby.

We stood there for a few seconds before I started to lose feeling in my arms from his grip. I

wrap my legs around his waist trying to pull myself up from the position and relieve the pressure on

my arms. Thaddeus eyes snapping to mine.

“I can't feel my arms,” I tell him. He chuckles.

“Sorry,” he says, letting go and I feel the blood flow back to my throbbing limbs. He places my

feet on the ground and steps back. His hand cupping my cheek.

“No more fighting us,” he states.

“I won't fight you.” He nods, before opening the car door and I climb in. Orion walks over to the

driver's door and hops in while Thaddeus climbs in the back with me pulling me against him.

“We need to get hold of Amara” he tells Orion and I see him nod before starting the car and

turning it around and heading back the way I came.

When we pull up at the hotel Ryland was out the front waiting with our suitcases. Thaddeus

looks at me before opening the door. “Stay in the car” I nod, and he hops out talking to Ryland

before opening the boot. Ryland climbs in the back with me and Thaddeus gets in the front, Orion

pulls out of the parking space.

“We are leaving already?” I ask.

“Yes, hunters are close, remember no fighting us” Thaddeus answers and I shut my mouth.

Ryland looks at me confused before leaning between the seats.

“Did I miss something; anyone want to explain?”

Orion's eyes flick to me in the rear-view mirror and I could tell he was smiling with the way his

eyes crinkled flickering red for a second.

“We are having a baby" Orion states.

“We are?” Orion nods, but Ryland looks to Thaddeus who looks over his shoulder at him.

“Yes, Ryland. We are letting her have the baby" he says slowly making sure he understood.

“yes, yes, yes” Ryland says before grabbing his face and smashing his lips into Thaddeus.

“Aw I hope it's a girl, we could dress her in cute little dresses” he says, letting go of Thaddeus

and turning to me. I raise an eyebrow at his enthusiasm. He reaches for me pulling me onto his lap.

“Seatbelt Ryland” Orion says to him.

Ryland clips the middle seatbelt around me pulling me against him awkwardly. “We are having

a baby” he whispers in a sing song voice below my ear. I look up at him his eyes sparkling he was so

happy. He kisses my nose crushing me in his huge arms against him, I twist putting my feet on the

seat beside me, trying to get comfortable with the seatbelt clicker digging into my backside and

now my hip.

We drive for what felt like hours and it was becoming impossible to remain comfortable, I was

barely able to keep my eyes open when I heard Thaddeus whispering to Orion.

“We will do a loop around the state and cut back across, I can't get hold of Amara and I am

assuming they went underground” Thaddeus tells Orion

“What are we going to do now, she won't be able to run for long, Thaddeus.”

“She won't have a choice” he says, moving and I squeeze my eyes shut pretending to still be

asleep and I feel his gaze on me before hearing him turn back around.

“I never should have killed all of them hunters back at Leven” Thaddeus says making me

confused.

“You lead them straight to us Thaddeus and nearly died in the process.”

“I was angry, I lost control. I didn't realise this would happen” Thaddeus admits, and I feel my

heart skip a beat. He said he stumbled across their base, but by the sound of it he went looking for

them. Was he really that much of a monster that he would go looking to kill people, he said

sometimes people die but he didn't mean it, that it isn't his intention to hurt them?

“This is why you need to give it up Thaddeus we can't keep doing this, Evelyn will get sick of

running and what will happen one day when she finds out you kill people because you like it, you

think I don't know when the darkness takes you over that you want to hurt her, that you like it when

you do, even if you don’t mean to you still enjoy her fear” Orion tells him. There was silence before

Orion spoke again.

“How many this time?” he asks.

“I killed or still alive?”

“Both,” Orion says.

“I think I killed around a hundred of them but there were a lot more. I didn't realise it was a

family base” he says and my stomach drops. A family base does that mean there were children

there.

“Doesn't matter anyway, they would have turned out like their parents,” Thaddeus answers with

a total disregard for human life.

“You don't know that Thaddeus, I am sick and tired of the blood on our hands for loving you,”

Orion snaps his voice raising above a whisper.

“Then fucking leave, you don't like it leave, Orion. You knew who I was when you met me, and I

am not changing.”

“Not even for her? Or our child when its born?” Thaddeus growls but adds nothing.

“Answer me Thaddeus, I feel it. Feel it getting worse within you, I know you like the power

Thaddeus. I know you are addicted to it. Do you want to lose her?”

“You know I don't, so why ask. I fucking love her”

“Then give it up for her, if you can't do it for yourself, do it for her.”

“It's not that simple.”

“What do you mean, just get your mother and Amara to help you.”

“It has attached itself to me Orion, okay. It's a part of me now. I don't think it is possible

anymore, why do you think I left. Do you think I want this for any of you? For myself?”

“We can find a way, there is always a way. But you have to want to give it up Thaddeus, it

attached itself to you because you let it, because you wanted it too,” Orion yells.

“Shh, you will wake her,” Thaddeus whispers the car going silent before I hear someone turn

the radio up slightly.

Did Thaddeus really kill innocent people, like went looking for them just to kill them? The

thought sickened me, I knew he was a monster but hearing this made my stomach churn, does he

really want to hurt me, want to inflict pain on me? I never realised how much of a struggle it was for

him, sure I felt him struggle against himself through the bond, felt his guilt after he did do

something that hurt me, but was he really enjoying when he did it? Nothing Orion said made sense

to me, Thaddeus for the most part was good to me, or tries to be anyway so why would Orion say

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