Chapter 25
Mend My Heart
Theodoreâs P.O.V
Yesterday, I had the most fun I have had in a long time. I finally got to spend some time with my children, which is something that had been nagging my conscience for a while now. Though it was a once in a blue moon kind of situation, it felt utterly refreshing to not maintain a stoic look on my face whilst I bustled away tediously in my sterile office. I smiled and laughed so much that my facial musculature hurt, even till now.
I donât know how Iâd started to feel like I was alive again, but something had definitely shifted since yesterday. I woke up on the right side of the bed, which is a rarity for me, and even whistled a tune as I took my morning shower. I closed the faucet, stepped out and wiped my body dry with a towel before going over to the sink to shave, dry my hair and brush my teeth. My chosen outfit for the day was a white polo neck, a navy-blue suit and brown dress shoes Iâd picked up at some expensive shop. I honestly couldnât remember where. Once dressed, I strapped one of my Philippe Patekâs onto my wrist before proceeding to check my appearance in the mirror. I looked great, as usual, but the only difference is that the was a genuine smile emblazoned on my lips.
I had no idea that it was there. Why the hell am I all smiles and in a good mood? Because of one certain woman and her addictive kisses, thatâs why. Even my subconscious wasnât too arrogant to admit it on my behalf. My thoughts flew to last night when Iâd stolen more than enough kisses from Maya, and I was awed that our little encounter had ended just at first base. I could have easily lost control on her, but my senses kicked in and reminded me that I didnât want her to be just another mindless hook up.
Iâd established that she meant more to me than that.
I donât know why I feel the way I do around her and what I felt for her, but it was undiluted. I would not dwell on it too much, lest I end up overthinking and end up inadvertently hurting her like the last time I brought that red-haired bimbo I got from a bar. Admittedly, that had been an utterly shameful move but Iâd done it, and I wasnât proud of it. If I could go back in time and change that unsavoury occurrence, then trust me I would.
I slid out of my room and jogged down the stairs and entered the dining room. I sat at my usual seat, and pulled my phone out of my jacket to check out some mail Iâd received yesterday. Iâd gotten so carried away that Iâd neglected my duties completely. That was going to bite me in the arse today, no doubt. When I heard footsteps a few my head flew upwards in anticipation of a familiar angelic face, only for my eyes to meet with Meredithâs plain one. I felt my heart tweak but quickly masked my disappointment.
âGood morning, Theo. Iâm here with your breakfast,â she tried, emphasis on tried, to sound chirpy but failed horrendously since she ended up sounding like a robot. Dude, when did you start noticing such insignificant details about her? My brain wasnât functioning the way it normally did.
She placed the food tray in front of me before opening it to reveal toast, eggs, bacon and tea. What the hell was this? Why was she serving my food and where on earth was Maya? I looked at the dish with such distaste that I almost threw the damn plate out of my sight. I was now a fan of pancakes, thank you very much. âWhereâs Maya?â I wasted no time in asking, and this made her frown.
âShe has apparently fallen ill and couldnât even get out of bed. Something about a fever or whatnot,â she spoke in a bored tone, whilst I bolted out of the chair as soon as she said ill. I started for the direction towards a room, only to be stopped by Meredithâs contemptuous words.
She tsked. âIt seems youâve grown a little too fond of that loathsome, inconsequential wench,â she spurted cuttingly, causing me to pivot on my heels and pin her to the spot with my deadliest glower.
âI know you and I have history but when you are under my employ, you will not speak to me in such a manner or question my actions. Iâve been lenient with you but I can no longer put up with your infernal behaviour. Either you adjust your way of thinking and give Maya the respect that she deserves, or I will have no choice but to fire you,â I told her levelly and she gasped heatedly before flouncing away in indignation.
I still do not comprehend why she acted to badly towards Maya. I cannot tolerate anyone doing that to her. Oh my goodness, are these words coming out of my own head? I shook my head and smiled at my odd internal conversations, before pacing over to Mayaâs room. I arrived at the door and knocked twice before letting myself in.
There she lay under the covers, her body contorted in a foetal position, her wild curls peeking out of the duvet. I could here her groan lowly as she wriggled slightly about in pain. I immediately went over to her and sat beside her, worry settling in my chest. I reached out my palm to her forehead, only to sense that her temperature was way too high.
She flinched at my touch and turned to face me, a grimace marring her sweet features. âTheodore, w-what are you doing here? You should be on your way out by now,â she spoke with strangulation. It was also the first time she called me by my first name and I found it oddly satisfying. Could I get any weirder?
I brushed the hairs out of her face, not hiding the concern from my face. âYou have a fever. Whatâs wrong? You were fine last night. Do we need to visit a doctor?â I asked her gently and she scoffed before moving upwards into a sitting position, her upper half leaned back on the head board.
âI donât need a doctor for this particular ailment,â she replied gingerly but not quite making eye contact. But she was basically scorching, in the literal sense that is, and she was claiming not to need a physician?
âWhat if itâs serious. You have no idea what-,â I urged but she cut me off with an exasperated tone, and a glare.
She threw her hands up in vexation. âIâm on my period. There, I said it. I usually get sick on the first day so itâs not a big deal. Iâll be fine in a couple of hoursâ¦and you just made me admit the most mortifying thing possible to a man. Are you happy now?â she all but spat through gritted teeth. I blinked at her sudden outburst before erupting into a fit of laughter. I heard her scoff at my reaction and push at my shoulder.
It was cute that she could be this free and snappy around me, probably due to the delirium induced by the fever, because letâs face it, if she were in the right state of mind, she wouldnât have called me Theodore or just shoved me away. It was very refreshing to be around her without the air around us infiltrated by sexual tension or animosity.
âI donât think thatâs at all mortifying. Itâs a normal part of womanhood, nothing to be ashamed off. Have you taken any medication?â I added calmly and I saw something flash in her eyes so fast that I couldnât decipher it. She shook her head and bit her lip before looking away. I wasnât supposed to be turned on by that simple gesture but my nerves were haywire. I better leave before I do something stupid.
I stood up and cleared my throat. âWell, Iâll send over Ann with something from the medicine cabinet. You have my permission to rest for the whole day, if youâd like. No need to leave the bed and stress yourself out,â I said whilst sliding my hands into my pocket.
âOkay,â she muttered and her honey-coloured irises met mine. So innocent yet so tempting. Before I could stop myself, I bent over and cupped her face compassionately before placing a lingering kiss on her forehead. Her eyes fluttered shut and her small hand covered mine.
This is exactly what I meant when I said I am an impulsive man. I always ignore my voice of reason and end up getting myself in unusual situations. In what warped universe does a boss treat his employee so warmly; so tenderly? There are many reasons as to why this is wrong but at the same time, it felt natural that Iâd gravitated towards Maya. There was a magnetic force behind her fierce yet shy persona. Her eyes were hypnotic, her lips mesmerising. But most importantly, I was greatly drawn to her personality.
And thatâs when I began to realise that my heart wasnât as shuttered as I thought it was.
It was still very much alive, and beating fast right now because of her. All evidence was pointing towards the fact that Iâd grown fond of her over the last few weeks, which is something that hasnât occurred in years. Yolanda had fought hard to capture my heart but it always eluded her. Iâd interacted with many women, even bedded a whole lot moreâ¦so what was it that had me in the palm of Maya Knightâs hand? When all we have done is share kisses?
Pushing my agonizing train of thought away, I stroked my thumb over her cheek before completely pulling away. I pivoted on my heels and strode out of the door, not letting it be evident that the guilt I was feeling almost made me collapse to the floor. Youâre not suitable for her, my conscience reminded me as I walked towards my room to grab my briefcase. I can only drag her into my dark and gloomy world of self-loathing and fear of commitment.
I have never felt this defenceless before; like a lost kitten in a labyrinth. My inner voice was right, Iâm not the right man for her. She already thinks Iâm a walking red flag, which I totally am. Iâm leading her on with my confusing actions and if Iâm not mistaken, that emotion I saw flashing in her eyes was admiration and something close to a certain emotion I once felt for someone. And that blasted emotion ruined my entire outlook on relationships and life in general.
âI should have listened to Yolanda,â I sighed, leaning back in my office chair. Iâd already been at work for three hours and yet I couldnât concentrate on a damn thing.
I could always go overseas to handle my foreign affairs, but my mother would chop my head off and barbecue it on an open flame. That was definitely off the table. Distancing myself from her would only drive me insane, so that wasnât really an option either. What am I going to do to put an end to what exists between the both of us?
The answer came in the form of none other than Yolanda Heinz herself.
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Hi guys. How are we doing? Did you enjoy your weekend?
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Are we ready for Yolanda's return?
Warning, lots of drama up ahead and a major turn of events! ðð¢
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