𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐄

Hey readers!

Hope you all doing well.

Sorry for the late update, I was dealing with writer's block and my mental health.

I feel like I'm lost. It's like I am draining myself. I feel so so lost that I don't know where to go anymore in my life. I lost the purpose of my life, I feel. My mind, my heart, my soul everything is dealing with conflicts. I  feel so overwhelmed. My emotions are complicated. I want to scream and  I  badly want to lash out everything I dump inside me to someone but I just can't.

What I'm trying to say is I don't know where my life is heading not what am I doing.

I just just feel so lost.

Sorry for the rant.

Read the chapter. Kindly vote and comment.

I groan at the bright light disturbing my sleep.

Someone turn off the light.

Uhh I groan as I pulls the duvet over myself, hoping to get some sleep but my sleep was long gone.

Whining I threw the duvet and sit straight on my bed.

Stretching, I realise that bright light is sun.

7:20, clock says.

I feel too lazy.

Last night I slept with him but now his side is empty.

When did he gone?

Shrugging his thoughts and yawning I made my way towards bathroom.

I am too lazy to even brush. I just keep staring at my reflection on the mirror.

Past few days events run in my mind like a movie.

A sigh left my mouth. He is clearly doing something to me.

I don't want this marriage but don't want this marriage to stop.

What am I really?

Why am I having two different thoughts?

Am I bipolar?

Shit!

Now he's making me question my sanity.

Great.

Just fucking great.

Aaditya. I screamed.

"What the hell are you doing to me, bastard?" I muttered under my breath.

I sighs again.

Now a days I am sighing a lot.

I stare at my reflection.

Freshly awaken Yashvi is breathtaking.

Yashvi, how could you be so beautiful, hmm?

Aaditya is really lucky, isn't he?

He better Cherish me or else I'll cut his dick and shove it down his throat.

I should tell him this line. Mmm.

Do I have to bear him for lifetime?

Arghh

I'm getting married. Today.

Reluctantly, I took a toothbrush and starts brushing, then I finished my morning buisness and freshen up, I got out.

I was greeted with mumma and Bhai. My mumma was sitting on the bed resting her head on the headboard while Bhai is sitting at the couch going through his phone.

I went and placed my head on her lap. She ran her fingers through my hair, I sighed contently and closed my eyes. I feel the bed dipping beside me. I turn and saw Bhai laying beside me his hands under his head staring at the ceiling.

Peace.

Me, mumma and bhai, only papa is missing.

If he's here he wouldn't let this happen and I might get through the emotional turmoil with his help smoothly.

I don't understand myself, him. And what's going on between us.

"He is very determined in marrying you, shorty." Bhai said.

Long ago I accepted the fact that he'll never stop calling me shorty but still, it irks me.

I shot him an annoying look and said, "I know, he's adamant."

"If things doesn't go in your way, just divorce him." Bhai suggests.

"He knows Bhai. He knows everything and still wants me. Men like him is rare." I whispered, how could he wants me after knowing how dirty I am.

"Don't think low of yourself Yashvi. He should be proud to be your soon-to-be husband." Bhai said sternly.

"I talked with him Vi, you should give him a chance not only to him, to yourself too. Just be in present, not think too much, maybe, just maybe he's the one for you. He have his eyes only for you. He's straight forward, Vi. If he wants to have some fun with you he doesn't have to marry you, right? He is straight to wife up you. I don't think that's bad. In this era, most men left their women. But he is ready to marry you. Everyone has their flaws, Vi. You're smart. Before assuming anything, Take a look at all angles. About your papa, worry not. He must have some important work to departure like that." Mumma said calmly trying to make me understand.

"Papa could inform me, mom? What important work he has to leave like that without saying a word?" I asked disappointment was evident on my tone.

"He must have his reasons, Vi. Time will reveal everything." Mom stated.

I turn and hugged my brother while he patts my back.

"If he troubles you just tell me, I'll rearrange his bones, if needed, I'll kill him." He said darkly.

I chuckle at his words and said while shaking my head a little,"Mmm."

He himself is a trouble to me, Bhai.

We stayed like this together for sometime, before mumma and bhai left.

I was in my thoughts when Ruhi barge into the room with Agastya.

"Get ready for haldi, Vi." She said as she sat beside me on the bed while Agastya lay beside me, hugging me. I gently placed a kiss on his forehead, he returned my gesture by placing a kiss on my cheek.

Our little moment came to halt when Ruhi starts to drag me up.

I groaned as I got up.

"Don't be a lazy ass, go and take a bath quickly, Makeup artists and stylists will be here soon." She said sternly as she pushed me into a bathroom.

"Good morning, Agastya." I told my favourite little human while entering into the bathroom, before closing the door, I heard his giggle.

I prepared a bath for myself then took a relaxing bath.

I wrapped the towel around myself and came out.

I went inside closet, there placed my dress for haldi. I quickly changed into it, I heard a knock whilst I am checking myself on the mirror.

Her Dress

"Get in." I said loud enough for the one outside the door to hear.

I went outside the closet after taking one last glance at myself.

"Happy Morning, madam." Hair stylist chirped, "Good Morning." I replied to her.

They were the same artists and stylists from yesterday.

Quickly they started get me ready.

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Like yesterday Krish came to take me to the place where my haldi will be held.

"As always looking beautiful, bhabhs." Krish praised me.

"As always looking handsome, little devar." I said smiling while he whined at that little devar part.

As we reached I take a look at the decorations.

Beautiful.

Soon elders started the rituals. He is sitting beside me, we had a little eye contact.

Everyone starts apply haldi on me as well as him.

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I starts to remove the jewelleries I am wearing after I removed the dupatta.

I walk in the bathroom, I removed all the makeup from my face then put my hair in a bun.

I changed into a simple kurta.

I took my phone which is on the table beside bed and checked for emails and replies to few of them while sitting on the couch comfortably.

Well, earlier Bhai gave me this new phone with my same old number as I mentioned to him Aadi broked my old phone.

Suddenly my phone rings, caught me off guard. As it is in my hand, I answered to the call immediately.

"Where the hell did you went too?" Aarav loud voice echoed through the phone.

"Udaipur." I stated calmly.

"My highness, may I know what you are doing there instead of focusing on the work?" His tone is mocking.

I sighed and replied, "Aarav, I'm getting married."

"WHAT?!" His loud screeching makes me pull my phone away from my ear.

"You heard me, prick."

"What kind of prank are you trying to do?" He asked unbelievably.

"Aarav, I'm getting married to Aaditya Raghuvanshi today."

"What the heck, woman? Are you serious?"

"Yeah, It's long story to tell now, mom and bhai is here. You better pack your bag and get your ass here as soon as possible."

"As far as I know, you went to India for buisness. what the fuck with this marriage?"

"Come here, we will talk briefly about this when you arrive here."

"Is Ishita know?"

"Nope."

"Marriage is not child's play, Yashvi." He sounds serious.

"I'm aware. Just come here man."

"Okay, but I can't come here tomorrow, might take a week for me to arrive there, Vi."

"Why?"

"Well, my boss who left to open the branch in India was vanished suddenly. And now she's telling me that she's getting married."

"That's not the answer to my damn question dumb." I cut him off abruptly.

"What I'm trying to say is there's a lot of pending work, so it'll take some time for me wrap things up here."

"Fine then, take care."

"I can't believe you're getting married."

"Even I can't believe."

"Don't stress, Vi."

"Okay."

"Then Bye." I hummed before cutting the call.

I turn around as I felt someone behind me, there he is standing leaning on the entrance.

As our gaze collided, he pushed himself into the room not before locking the door.

He looks like a whole damn meal in this Yellow kurta.

His dress

"You changed your dress." He said as he encircled his arm around my waist and pulled me close to him. I placed my hands over his chest both side.

I hummed.

He looks at me intently then comes his lips crashing over mine.

My hands went to his neck automatically,  he pulled me more to him while sucking my lips alternatively lower lip and upper lip.

He groans as I didn't let him enter. I gasped as he spanked my butt he took that as chance and entered.

His tongue roaming inside my mouth and I ran my hands through his hair.

He dominates the kiss. He sucks my tongue before bitting my lower lip. I pinched his neck indicating him to stop but he deepens the kiss. I feel that darkness surrounds that's when he left me to catch a breathe.

This bastard.

I catch my breath while he dipped his head at the Crook of my neck inhaling me.

"You're so damn addictive. Sweetheart." He husked voice rumbled against my skin, I felt goosebumps.

I hugged him by his torso tightly. I need this. A Hug from him.

A sigh left my lips as I let myself loose in his warmth.

He ran his hand on my hair while pulling me more into him.

"You're so desperate, weren't you?" I teased him. Seems like he can't stay without touching me.

"So desperate for you." He answered while biting my neck harshly.

I hissed loudly. He gaze at me with a smirk. Probably proud of his work. He ran his thumb over my lower lip.

Bastard.

"You're going to be my wife in few hours." He said while grinning.

He looks so gorgeous while grinning.

"You know you're going to get me as your wife. Handling me will be handful for you. You better Cherish me, A woman like me is very rare and you know why."

I said indicating him how precious I am.

He let out an amused chuckles. And I couldn't help but giggle at my own words.

"I won't cherish you, Sweetheart. I will fucking worship you, My divine goddess."

"You're flattering me too much." I try hard to not blush.

"My sweetheart is my goddess." He said with a no nonsense tone.

"You sure good with words." I praised him.

"Tell me how many women did you used these words?" I asked while raising my brows.

"No one. You're the first one I am talking like this and the last one. My words like these are exclusively reserved only for you, Sweetheart." He said in his deep rough voice.

I blushed.

He chuckles, His eyes were sparkling. He seems like he's too eager for our marriage.

"You seem too happy."

"I'm over the moon, I'm going to get married to you. My Sweetheart. No words can describe my happiness level. You know what, I've never been this happier. I don't even remember when was the last time I was happy."

"I still don't get it, what you see in me that you badly want to marry me?"

"You. I saw you. I want you. Only you. There's no specific reason, Sweetheart."

I looked at him puzzled.

"When I laid my eyes on you, I felt the very strong urge to claim you, make you mine."

I hummed.

Again he captured my lips in a fervourous kiss.

And again he left me panting for oxygen.

"What's with you and these kisses?" I asked narrowing my eyes.

"I want to taste your lips." He said while shrugging.

I shook my head at him then put a little space between us.

"Now, you tasted my lips, so get out. I have to take a rest before dolled up for my marriage." I said sassily.

"But I want to taste more." He said.

I shoot him a glare but he again kissed me then left the room not before passing me a wink.

Blood rushed from my neck to my cheeks.

Fuck! He's a charmer for sure.

And good with his words.

He knows women fall for words than looks.

Cunning bastard.

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Thanks for reading.

There'll be a short break as I feel like I am losing myself, I need to first pull myself together.

Kindly understand guys, I need my time to get my thoughts.

Till next update,

Take care.

Bye.