(62): Nirvana

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I haven't seen Kyle in almost two days now and I seriously miss him. He just stopped coming to visit me and I don't know why. I know he was angry and agitated about the whole Riley, Jake and Forrest's thing, but why is he taking it out on me? I did nothing.

Ugh!

"Are you sure you'll be fine, princess?" Dad asks for what feels like the 100th time after putting his signature down on the release form.

I nod "Yes, dad"

The nurse laughs watching us "I think she'll be okay, Mr Richards" She says on my behalf.

It's 16:30 now and I'm finally getting released from the hospital. I feel very much okay... physically so I'm grateful. I just have a few scars and bruises still but that's about it, no crutches or neck brace.

The nurse said my recovery was fairly speedy because they expected to keep me here for a week more. I was going to lose my mind. I mean, I liked doing nothing the whole day and just laying on a bed, but it got boring after a while especially when Kyle stopped coming.

I went for a scan three times a day, had three meals too, my friends came to visit every day and that was kind of it. I only started walking by myself two days ago because my nurse would put me in a wheelchair whenever I was off my bed. It was uncomfortable at first but then I got used to it. I really am okay thought and I'm very happy about that.

"All done?" Winnie walks into the room offering me a small smile.

"Yes" I reply at seeing her.

Dad gets my attention by placing a soft kiss on my temple "Okay well, you'll let me know when you get to your place, right?"

"Yes, dad" I assure with a meek smile.

He looks at me for a while longer to make sure I'm really okay before waving at all of us and exiting my hospital room. He wanted to go drop me off himself even though he has a Zoom meeting soon but I assured him that Winnie and I would be okay.

He's been coming to visit everyday and I've never been more grateful. Mom left and he's been doing a good job playing both their roles.

"He's cute" Winnie snorts looking at me.

I laugh softly "He honestly worries too much. Anyways thank you for coming to pick me up"

"Anytime" She waves off.

"Okay well let me leave you ladies" My nurse says giving me a smile and I give her one back "I hope you'll recover fully very soon, Chels" She says hugging me "You'll be able to find your way out, right?"

"Of course" I reply and she waves before also exiting my room.

Winnie grabs my duffel bag for me, even though I can hold it for myself, and we slowly make our way out and finally into her car. I'm kind of scared being in a car again but I swallow my fear and put on a brave face.

"I am so glad to be out" I sigh fastening my seatbelt securely "I was definitely getting way too used to the hospital smell"

She laughs "Same"

"Winnie" I start softly, concerned "You still haven't heard from Kyle yet?"

She shakes her head regretfully "Nothing"

That's so weird. I know it probably has something to do with Riley because she also hasn't come to see me. Monty left a day after he came to visit me, but he told me that Riley was staying behind. I'm so confused.

"Was he at the apartment?"

Winnie shakes her head again "Nope. I went to go see him to inform him that you were getting out but there was no one there"

"And yesterday?"

"I know he was there but he wouldn't answer" She replies softly "I'm sorry"

What's going on with him?

I sigh looking out the window "It's fine"

Maybe Riley has been staying with him and he doesn't want Winnie and them to know just yet... But what does that have to do with me? I already know everything.

"So Nicholas and that Avery girl have been hanging out a lot" Winnie says, snapping me out of my dreamland.

I nod "Yeah, they seemed to hit it off"

"It's just weird" She murmurs, eyes on the road.

I raise a brow even though she's not looking at me "Winnie, are you jealous? I thought you didn't like Nick" I tease.

"I'm not" She defends quickly "I've just never seen him interested in a girl for more than three days"

I laugh amused "Mhhm"

"Stop!" She snaps her head at me unimpressed "I'm not jealous, Chelsea"

"Okay" I laugh even more.

She just sighs turning on the radio "You're annoying me, missy"

"Just- why do you care?" I ask.

"I don't" She defends exasperated, making a turn "I just noticed it and wanted to say something"

This conversation is funny.

I snicker "I think they're cute"

"Cute? They're not even dating" She deadpans quickly.

I really think Winnie is jealous.

"How would you feel if they were?"

She shrugs "I don't know. I'd be happy for Nick. It's about time he gets an actual girlfriend"

"Okay" I drawl amused.

Winnie just shoots me a dry look before concentrating on the road again.

My thoughts drift back to Kyle when I see a turn ahead of us which is the one he took when we went to that cliff place.

What if...

"Can you turn there" I find myself saying as I point to the direction.

I just have a slight feeling that Kyle might be there. He told me he liked to go there when he is high or wants to think alone in peace, and I have no doubt that with everything going on in his life he definitely needs one of them right now, if not both.

"What? Why?" Winnie asks confused as she slows down the car.

"Just, please" I plea.

Winnie sighs but continues to drive and makes the turn. We drive a while longer with her complaining that the place was creepy and me assuring her that nothing would happen. Finally, I spot a familiar car and breathe relieved.

I was right.

"What's Nathan's car doing here?"

"Kyle probably took it" I explain "Can you park here and drop me off?"

"What? Chels? In the middle of nowhere?" She demands as she parks between two trees and looks around skeptically.

"Kyle is here" I assure.

She sighs "Are you sure?"

"Yes" I reply undoing my seatbelt "Thanks for driving me. I'll be okay"

"Chels, I don't know" She mutters unsure.

"Trust me" I press, opening my door and blowing her a kiss when I'm out and stepping on the leaves "Bye, lady friend. I love you"

"Okay, I love you too" She smiles softly and I shut the door and watch her drive away.

I take a deep breath, fixing myself before making my way to where the edge of the cliff is slowly. I'm kind of nervous. I don't really know why because it's just Kyle.

I internally smile when I'm greeted by the back of his soft-looking hair. He is facing the dam and his head is bowed slightly, his shoulders slumped. He looks to be deep in thought and I don't know if I want to disturb him. I don't get to think about it much longer because his head snaps back in my direction and he notices me watching him.

"Hi" I greet meekly.

"Hi" He breathes dazedly, as if he can't believe that I'm actually here.

I play with my hands nervously before deciding to make my way closer and take a seat right next to him, my eyes facing ahead. Gosh, I didn't realize how much I needed to smell his scent and just he in his presence as I find myself smiling even though I should be mad.

"Are you okay?" He asks.

I missed that voice so much.

I nod swinging my sneaker clad feet "Yep. Are you?"

"Yep"

Silence.

"Uhm" He murmurs getting my attention as I finally look at his grey eyes "Sorry, uh, that I couldn't pick you up"

"Or visit me" I add quietly.

He nods shamefully "That too"

"Do you want to tell me why? Did I do something?"

"It's not you" He assures immediately "Just, a lot has been going on and you were in the hospital and I didn't want to stress you out"

"You not visiting me did just that" I argue.

He sighs loudly, frowning "Okay. I'm sorry. I thought it would do the opposite"

"Is it Riley?" I ask instead.

He doesn't say anything and looks away from me causing me to frown sadly. I just watch him as he shakes his head and runs a continuous hand through his blonde locks before finally turning to me again, his eyes soft.

"It's Riley. It's Zach. It's you. It's everything. I just feel like... it's all too much" He croaks.

Oh god.

"What? What happened?" I gloom shifting closer to him and clutching his warm hand in mine.

"Fuck, Chelsea-Anne" He curses closing his eyes for a second looking pained; hurt "I thought I lost you. I didn't know what to do. I- I thought you were dead"

I've never seen him look so defeated.

"I'm not, Kyle, I'm here"

"I know, I know" He says squeezing my hand "I just wouldn't have been able to live with myself if anything happened to you. Especially because of my fucking father. He's caused enough distress in my life"

I gulp looking at him "As fucked up as this sounds, I'm glad I was the one on the hospital bed and not you"

"Don't say that" He interrupts.

"No. Kyle, it was going to kill me had the roles been reversed. I wouldn't have been strong enough. I'm glad I didn't have to go through that. If that's how you felt, I truly am sorry because I can only imagine"

"You have nothing to be sorry about. None of this is your fault" He tells me.

I blink back some tears because I seriously don't want to start crying right now "Okay" I whisper softly.

"I missed you" He says with a crooked smile.

I laugh happily, clutching his hand "I missed you too, Chambers"

"I care about you so much and it was going to kill me had anything happened to you. I'm so glad you're okay and next to me right now." He continues, his grey eyes piercing into my blue ones and it's so intense and genuine that I start to shiver.

"Me too" I whisper dazedly.

"Okay"

I smile before remembering something "Kyle... did you and Riley speak? Are you guys good?" I ask him.

"We spoke" He replies "We've been speaking everyday"

"Really?"

He nods slowly "Uh yeah. I've been speaking to Zach too. We've all been speaking"

I gulp.

"Isn't he the one who..." I don't get to finish my sentence because my voice stops cooperating.

"It's a long story, Chelsea-Anne" He says "It's complicated... weird. Just- a lot has happened since you were in the hospital"

"Do you wanna tell me?" I press.

And so he tells me everything. How his one-on-one conversation with Riley went at the apartment, when Zach showed up and all hell broke loose. How they all agreed to cooperate to try and bring their father down. I honestly couldn't believe my ears, and my mouth was wide open the whole time. They're actually working together.

"Wow" I breathe when he's done.

He snorts amused "Weird, huh?"

I nod "Yeah. I mean, Zach is actually working with you? Like, you guys are... cooperating. That is so weird"

"I know" He agrees "It's not easy. We still hate each other"

"And Riley?" I enquire "Are y'all good?"

He runs a hand through his hair, breathing deeply "I just don't think I'll ever be able to fully forgive her for what she put all of us through. One minute I'm okay with her and the next I'm so fucking angry"

"I can understand why" I assure softly.

"I just don't know if it's all worth it"

I frown confused and sad "What do you mean, Kyle?"

"Feeling like this. I haven't felt anything in the longest time and now I'm just feeling everything at the same time, all at once. It's a lot, Chelsea-Anne" He tells me, his eyes soft and somewhat... scared.

I kiss his hand "I'm sorry, baby"

"You're the only thing I'm sure about" He tells me and I swear my heart bursts right there and then.

Why is he so perfect?!

I grin widely, my cheeks hurting "Kyle"

"I mean it" He chuckles watching me "So, you know what? Fuck it. As long as you're here, I'll be okay"

This guy!

I cover my face with both of my hands "Oh my gosh, Kyle, stop it"

I can hear him laughing and the sound is like music to my ears. What did I ever do to deserve this amazing and fucking gorgeous guy? By the time I remove my hands, his face is right in front of mine and I gulp at the close proximity. I scan his his grey eyes to find that they're looking at me with such adoration in them and I'm guessing mine mirror the same look.

They move to his pink and full lips and I start to shiver. I feel my pupils dilate because I want so badly to feel them against mine. I feel

Kyle's warm hand make contact with my cheek and I gulp before moving my eyes to his own to find that they're looking hypnotized at my lips, dark and wanting.

Good lord.

"Kyle, you have to kiss me now" I whisper.

His eyes zero in on mine and I see him smile happily "Anything for you"

And then... his soft lips touch mine gently, almost as a peck and it's like the world stops. It feels like we're the only two people alive and his lips are my oxygen. I close my eyes shut as I enjoy the sensation. Good god, it's not even a second in and I can already tell that it was all worth the wait.

I swear I almost pass out at how good it feels as his lips open against mine. Mine do the same and soon we're actually kissing... and I like it; love it.

This. This is what I've been waiting for.

Sparks, electricity, shocks and fireworks is what I feel with his lips against mine. Is kissing supposed to feel like this?

He moves his lips slowly against mine at first, as I savor his delicious and addictive minty taste. His lips feel soft but firm and demanding against my own, and I gasp as he deepens the kiss. I feel tingles down my spine as my head spins. We both get impatient and desperate with the slow pace and speed it up as his lips devour mine. They feel so fucking good, I think I'm going to explode. This beats all the fantasies I've had about kissing him, it's sooo much better.

I can see why girls can't keep their paws off him. If he's this good at just kissing, then how is he at...?

The fact that I want to know scares me.

His hands hold face gently between them as his lips make love to mine. He tilts my head more so he has a better and deeper access to my mouth. I think I make a sound from the back of my throat and he grunts. My hand fists his top desperately as his tongue runs against the seam of my lips asking for entrance. I open my mouth wider, happily grunting it to him and I feel him smirk. The moment his tongue connects with mine, I moan softly at the sharp contact, not being able to control it even if I wanted to.

His experted tongue explores my mouth, making me feel pleasure I've never felt before. I let him do whatever he wants because at this point he owns me. His grip on my face tightens as the kiss gets more and more hungry as our tongues dance with each other.

Oh god.

His lip bites my bottom one gently and I gasp loudly against his mouth causing him to smirk yet again. My hand moves to the back of his head as I grip his hair in my fingers, causing him to grunt. Our lips then carry on to move in perfect synch.

It's so intense, it's so good. It's heaven.

This boy has literally mastered the art of kissing. I've kissed quite a few guys but none of them have been this... perfect.

Suddenly I don't blame all those girls if this is how he makes them feel.

We pull back after forever, gasping for air. His eyes are so damn dark... the good dark, his lips are swollen and dark red, and he looks so flustered. I try to hide a sheepish smile.

I did that to him. I bet I look the same.

"It's so much better" He utters suddenly.

I breathe "What is?"

His forehead is against mine and he looks into my eyes "Kissing you. It's so much better than I imagined"

"Speak for yourself" I blush happily causing him to breathe a laugh.

He kisses me again and I don't think I'll ever get used to the fireworks I feel exploding inside of me, as I happily return the kiss. My hand hold his rough and stubbled face, and I don't know why, but the hard texture turns me the fuck on. Good lord, he's too hot for me.

I moan against his mouth as his tongue roams inside my mouth, making my insides feel warm and my head spin. His hand is busy massaging my hair and fuck me.

If this isn't Nirvana...

"You're too good at this" I breathe pulling away for a second.

He laughs "And you're too cute"

I smile kissing him again as I bite his bottom lip causing him to grunt loudly and me smirk internally with victory and triumph.

Why is he so sexy? Why do I want so much more? I'm screwed, aren't I?

"Fuck" He sighs, reluctantly pulling back "It's getting dark and cold. We need to go"

"Okay" I murmur, looking at his dark lips.

He shakes his head, moving it away from me and laughing "Come on, lets go" He gets up and offers me a hand.

I groan pouting but I take his hand and he easily helps me up. Damn, my legs feel like jello. One kiss. One kiss is all it took for me to feel high. I'm high off his amazing mouth.

Fuck.

"Are you okay, Chelsea-Anne" He teases, watching me wobble before finding my balance, amused.

"Leave me alone" I grumble.

He just laughs, taking my hand in his as we walk to Nathan's car and enter.

"I can't believe that's what I've been missing out on" He laughs as he starts to drive.

"Serves you right" I joke laughing.

I can still feel his lips on mine and I haven't stopped smiling ever since. Is it possible for a pair of lips to feel like heaven? Cause I'm convinced they are.

Shut up, brain... and hormones.

"I missed you so much" He says again causing me to blush even more.

I look at his side profile and swoon at how gorgeous he is "I missed you too, dufus"

"Do you always swear at the guys you kiss?"

"Only the ones I really like" I grin.

We reach a red light and it's like everything comes back all at once. Everything bad; everything traumatic... The brakes not working, Kyle's eyes widening in fear and dread, the car coming from my side, crashing into me and sending me flying through the windscreen.

It feels like the car is too small as I start to hyperventilate, my breath getting caught in my throat and tears escaping my eyes.

"Chelsea-Anne, baby?" Kyle calls panicked.

"Can't breathe" I sob, clutching my suddenly dry throat in pain.

"Baby" He calls desperately and I notice a blurry green light in front of me but he doesn't move as cars start to hoot behind us.

"Kyle" I struggle "You have to drive"

"Breathe" He says sternly unclutching my seatbelt so I have more room but I'm too busy crying in pain and panic "Chelsea-Anne, you need to breathe. Look at me"

I follow his lead as he starts to breathe in and out slowly, encouraging me to do the same, until I finally catch my breath and my throat and lungs don't feel like they're on fire anymore.

"I'm okay" I say, wiping my wet face.

"Fuck, you scared me" He whispers, touching my forehead to probably make sure that I'm not burning up and moves it away after confirming.

"I'm sorry" I apologize doing my seatbelt.

The light is green again and he starts to drive away slowly watching me concerned "Shh, just breathe for me, okay?"

I nod, my eyes closing by themselves.

That was so scary. I literally stopped breathing there. Everything felt way too real.

"What happened? Do you want to speak?"

I open my eyes to see him frowning in concern, his forehead creased, as he glances at me every chance he can. I feel bad for making him like this.

"I remembered everything. The accident"

"Fuck, I'm so sorry" He curses thickly.

"I..." My voice breaks as I start to cry again, burying my face in my hands "I was so scared, Kyle, it felt so real. Oh my god"

"We'll be fine" He assures softly.

I calm myself down as we continue the drive in silence. I feel so fucking pathetic; I've never felt this weak in my whole life. It's like everything makes me want to break down. I thought I was stronger than this!

That's not fair Chels, you almost died.

I know. I just wish I could control it better.

"We're here" Kyle calls getting my attention and I look around to see him parked.

"Thank you" I murmur.

I follow suite as I get out of the car and walk with him slowly up the stairs. He's so cautious and I couldn't be more grateful for him.

"Do you want food?" He asks when we've entered.

I shake my head "No. I'm just tired"

"Now's probably the perfect time for that sleep date, huh?" He offers causing me to laugh slightly as I nod "Lets go. I'm tired too"

I assume we're going to sleep in my room but he surprises me by pointing me to the direction of his own as I follow closely behind him. I've still never seen it.

He opens his door and I enter gaping.

"No fair, why is yours so big?" I complain, looking around in awe.

He shrugs laughing "Hush"

It's nice and... freaking huge. There is a big bed in the middle of the room and he actually has a mini walk-in closet! What?! It's open and it's so damn neat. I continue to look around and also locate a flat screen TV right opposite his bed that is mounted onto the dark wall. He has a mini couch on the side, night tables, a few mirrors and black curtains that are closed shut. I notice another door which I'm guessing is the en-suite bathroom.

"This is so unfair" I complain again.

He laughs as he collapses on his bed spreading himself "Are we going to sleep or not?"

I pout following suite "Fine"

His bed is so soft!

Luckily I'm dressed quite comfortably in tights and a sweatshirt so I'm not having to change. He opens the black covers for me and I get in as so does he. He immediately wraps his arms around me and I collapse on his warm chest, feeling his heart beat under me.

"You good, baby?" His voice is quiet and I can hear he's still concerned.

I nod, moving to look at him "Yes"

He moves hair out of my face as he pulls my face closer to his and kisses me gently, causing my heart to flutter in my chest.

Good lord.

"Okay, let's sleep" He smiles after retracting.

I shake my head stubbornly "One more kiss" He laughs as I press my lips to his happily. I move them slowly against his, savoring the way they make me feel and how good he tastes. Kissing him is so surreal that I never want to stop. My hand moves on its own as it combs his hair between my fingers causing him to grunt against me and squeeze my waist under the blankets. His teeth sink into my bottom lip seductively, almost making me lose my sanity before he pulls back grinning mischievously at me.

"Sleep" He commands, voice hoarse.

I grin, my lips tingling, as collapse on his chest contently "Night, Chambers"

"Night, Chelsea-Anne"

And just like that, everything is okay as I go to sleep thinking about Kyle Chambers.

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