(47): Confession Session

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10!"

It took me forever to finally enter because there was a crowd by the door that just wouldn't move. I finally managed to get past them.

"9!"

I'm freaking out because I can't find Kyle or any of my friends in this busy and loud place. Why is everything annoying me? Ugh, Zorro really did ruin my night.

"8!"

"Chels, there you are"

Finally. I smile relieved when I see Kat and Nathan holding hands.

"7!"

"Where were you. Kyle was looking for you" Nathan tells me after he's excitedly counted down the latest number.

He was?

"6!"

Before I answer, Kat starts to shoo me away "Go find him. It's almost time. I know you two want to kiss"

"5!"

I can't help but smile as she winks at me reassuringly.

"4!"

This is it. I'm going to kiss Kyle. I don't care what happens. I'm going to put it all on the table. It's not even the alcohol saying this, I'm completely sober at this point. That conversation with Zorro did that to me.

"3!"

I literally start running and shoving everyone that's in my way as I make my way to where we were standing. I doubt he moved.

I can't even focus on anything else that's going on. I think I spot Nick but I'm too distracted. All I know is that I have to find Kyle. I have to kiss him. His lips have to be how I start my new year.

"2!"

Oh my gosh! Where is he?! I start to run faster and breathe relieved when I see his blonde hair three feet away from me. I calm myself down and quickly fix myself as I walk there.

"1!"

I get closer as I come at different angle and see that he's with a girl. Angeline. He looks to be saying something to her but she's too busy happily counting down with the crowd with her hand on his shoulder.

I freeze in my spot. What's happening?

"HAPPY NEW YEAR!"

And then my worst nightmare comes true... her lips connect with his and it literally feels like I've just been stabbed with a knife in my stomach as the world stops.

I look away as quickly as I can after I've just registered the awful sight as my gaze starts to blur with tears. I don't want to blink but I do and a single tear falls down my cheek before they all start falling down rapidly. I numbly start to walk away. I don't know where I'm going but I just want to get out of here.

It hurts so much.

So that's the girl I know well that he was talking about? Because she used to be a frequent visitor at the apartment? Oh god. How stupid could I have been thinking it was me? Kyle could never like me.

"Little Chels!"

I don't look back when I hear Nick call my name.

He catches up to me and turns me around. I'm greeted by a confused and concerned face "Chels? What's wrong? Why are you crying?"

I shake my head, words refusing to leave.

"Chels?" He says softly "Speak"

"Hey y'all! Chels, did you get your new years kiss from-" Kat stops mid-rant when she sees my face "Oh god, what's wrong?"

"She won't tell me either" Nick says.

Nathan touches my shoulder "Chels, what's wrong? Please speak"

"I want to leave" I croak, above a whisper.

I doubt they can hear me with the music so Nick moves closer to my mouth with his ear and I repeat my statement.

They all frown but follow me to the exit that I had just entered and soon we're outside.

"Guys" Winnie is the next to appear.

"Oh hi" Kat greets looking at nothing but me.

"I literally chased you guys out here" Winnie says, her voice sounding closer. I can't see her because I'm looking at the ground "What's happening?"

I sniff as I wipe my face.

What am I doing crying over Kyle? He's not even my boyfriend. He probably doesn't even like me. That's why he kissed Angeline and not me. It has to be.

"It's Kyle, isn't it?" Nick confronts.

Oh no.

The mention of his name from someone else sends daggers to my heart as I start to sob uncontrollably.

"Yes" I sob nodding.

Kat immediately envelops me into a hug as I cover my face "What happened?"

"He... he" I sob "He kissed Angeline"

I hear the others gasp.

"Are you sure?" Nathan asks slowly.

I nod against his girlfriend "Yes. I-I saw it with my own eyes"

I probably look like a nightmare. I'm pretty sure my make-up is smudges and mascara is running down my cheeks.

I can't bring myself to care.

I feel another arm hug me and I can tell it's Winnie because of how tiny it is. And I can't smell her signature vanilla cologne.

"Chels" She coos "Maybe it's a misunderstanding"

I shake my head hastily as I move away from the both of them "No it's not. I like him and he doesn't like me. I've never felt more stupid"

"He does" Nick assures.

More tears start to fall down my face "Then why did he kiss Angeline and not me?"

I wipe my face again angrily. How dare these tears betray me like this? I feel so weak.

I am weak.

"Look, I like Winnie but I kissed someone else who isn't her tonight" Nick says causing the others to narrow their eyes at him. Winnie just tucks a piece of her hair behind her ear.

Is that supposed to make me feel better?

"It's not the same" I cry and Kat hugs me again tighter against her "I wanna leave"

It hurts so much.

"Have you guys seen Ch..."

It's Kyle.

I hide myself tighter into Kat. I can't let him see me like this. But hearing his voice just makes this hurt even more as the traitorous tears start to fall against Kat's fur coat. I'm pretty sure my now wet mascara is going to mess it up.

I hope she won't hate me.

"I think you should leave" Kat bites harshly.

I can feel her vocal chords against my hair. I want Kyle to leave but I also don't want him to leave at the same time. It's not his fault I'm weak. It's not his fault that I like him and he doesn't like me. But God, it hurts so much.

"Chelsea-Anne" He ignores her, his voice sounding closer to me. I feel his hand against my shoulder and shudder.

"Dude, I think Kat's right" Nick says softly.

"What the fuck? I'm so fucking confused. Will someone tell me why she's crying?" His voice sounds angry and agitated.

"I told you that she liked you and you kissed Ang, dude, she saw you" Nathan says angrily.

HE TOLD HIM?!

I'm glad he's angry on my behalf but he still told him? What the fuck? I need to confront him after this.

"What? She kissed me! For like one second and I pushed her away" He shouts.

He did?

"Okay, I think we should give them some alone time. I knew it was a misunderstanding" Winnie says "Kat, please let her go. I know you're not happy about this"

I hear Kat sigh as she kisses my hair and moves away from me. I wipe my face before facing the reason for my tears.

I probably look horrible.

"Call if you want me to come back" Kat tells me sternly as her boyfriend grabs her hand.

The others give me one more assuring smile before walking away and I watch them disappear inside.

I sigh, half-embarrassed.

"Chelsea-Anne?" He calls as I look at him.

I hum sniffing "Yes, Chambers?"

"Are you okay?" He asks moving closer to me. I've never seen him look this concerned. His forehead is slightly creased and I can't help but smile softly.

At least he cares.

"Yeah" I nod meekly.

"Okay" He says.

I sigh loudly after a while of tense silence as I clear my face again "God, this is so embarrassing. I'm sorry. I'm probably acting like one of those clingy chicks you try to avoid"

He laughs softly "Not quite"

"Well, uh, Nathan said he already told you so I guess you know why I'm like this" I murmur.

"For the record, I knew before he told me"

Can the ground open up and swallow me? Like now please. That would be perfect. Can this get more embarrassing?

"You did?"

He nods "Yeah. Cause I liked you"

What?!

My eyes widen and my breath gets stuck in my throat as I chock on non-existing saliva and start coughing hastily. Did he just...

He moves closer to me laughing as he hits my back "Uh, are you okay, Chelsea-Anne?"

I nod sheepishly as I recover from my fit.

"I'm sorry" I say holding my head as if I've just had a concussion "Just, what did you say just now? I think I'm hearing things"

"I said I like you" He says amused.

So I wasn't hearing things.

"You do?" I gape an octave higher.

He nods rolling his eyes "Yes. Don't make me say it again, Chelsea-Anne"

"Then why'd you kiss Angeline?" I frown.

"She kissed me. I was asking if she had seen you and then she just attacked my lips. I pushed her away like a second later"

Wow.

I can't help but smile sheepishly.

"See? You wasted your tears for nothing" He jokes lightly.

I sniff stubbornly "I still saw it"

And it's still kind of hurts. I didn't welcome my new year with his lips... she did.

"So you like me, Chelsea-Anne?"

I roll my eyes smiling "No. Gross"

He barks out a laugh which sounds so good "Yeah you always lie about things like this. Just admit it and stop being a pussy"

"No" I protest.

"Oh come on, I admitted it" He tries giving me a crooked smile, his eyes shining.

"Do you really?" I can't help but frown.

What if he's just saying that to make me feel better? Worse... what if he's drunk and doesn't know what he's saying.

"No, I'm not drunk" He says knowingly. How he knew I was thinking that I'll never know "And yes. I like you. I don't know why"

I can't help but smile "Cause I'm awesome"

"It's definitely not that" He snorts.

I sigh, blushing "Okay... uh, I like you too, uh I also don't know why"

He raises a brow "Really now?"

"You're so hot" I blurt breathlessly and he laughs "I don't think I ever stood a chance"

He shrugs "No surprised there"

"Ha-ha" I deadpan dryly, narrowing my eyes at him.

We are then enveloped in a tight silence.

He actually likes me! He likes me! Kyle Chambers likes me! The guy I've liked since god knows when. The guy who literally brightens up my day without even trying. I can't help but smile as butterflies invade my stomach. I wonder what we do from here. He hasn't asked me out so we're definitely not dating. So what is this?

"I'm tired of this party" He announces "Do you want to leave?"

I nod immediately "Yes please"

"Let's go tell the others"

I nod as I start to follow behind him happily. He likes me! Even my legs feel like jello at this point.

The other four are all together a few feet away from the door and dancing happily with each other. I can't help but smile at the sight.

"Hey guys" I greet to get their attention.

They stop the dancing and look between Kyle and I curiously. Their eyes lingering for what feels like forever.

Weirdos.

"You're glowing" Winnie notes before anything else can happen "What happened?"

I roll my eyes amused "Nothing"

"Did you two finally kiss?" Nick asks pointedly.

"Can you shut up?" Kyle deadpans "Chelsea-Anne and I want to leave"

"Leave where?" Kat demands.

"Kathrine, I'm tired" I excuse slowly "I just want to sleep now"

"But it's new years" She protests.

I sigh "We already welcomed it"

"Are you guys making an excuse to go have some make-up sex?" Nathan smirks skeptically.

"No" I screech exasperated.

"Really?"

I point a finger at him "You, mister, have no right to be asking me any questions. You broke my trust, remember?"

"Oh come on, Kyle forced me" He defends.

"When?" I demand.

"At the resort. We had a skiing race and he said if he won then I had to tell him how you felt about him"

I look to Kyle and shake my head at him but he just shrugs triumphantly.

Cheat.

"Oh so you two admitted your feelings?" Winnie smiles widely.

"Maybe" I reply.

The others grin widely.

"This is nauseating" Kyle sighs watching their happy faces "Chelsea-Anne and I are leaving"

He doesn't wait for their response as he grabs my hand and drags me with him. We maneuver our way past the crowd until we're outside.

I came with Winnie's car and he came with Nathan's so we call for a cab which was luckily already around the area. We enter as we give the driver our address and he starts to drive away. I'm too deep in my thoughts to say much. I'm happy but also not quite happy at the same time. The Zorro thing really unsettled me... also seeing Kyle kiss another girl.

It was horrible. So horrible.

"What are you thinking about?"

I snap my eyes at him and smile softly. This beautiful boy actually likes me... me "Nothing. Tonight was just long"

"Yeah. Any new year resolutions?"

"I'll tell you in the morning" I say "My head is all over the place right now"

He frowns slightly "Okay"

Can I kiss him? Like now? I mean we like each other so what's the problem? I think I should wait for him to make the first move though.

His hand is still in mine and I squeeze it to assure him that there's nothing wrong.

We get to the apartment a few minutes later as Kyle pays for the both of us, I'm too tired to protest like I normally would. We walk up the stairs and I watch him unlock as we both enter.

"Kyle, I have to tell you something tomorrow" I tell him nervously.

I have to tell him what Zorro said.

He raises a confused brow "Your resolution?"

I laugh slightly. He's so cute "No, something else. Just remind me"

"Okay" He mutters thoughtfully.

"Okay" I squeak back.

He rolls his eyes amused. I think we're having one of the 'perhaps okay will be our always' moments. Look at us... already cute as hell and we aren't even dating yet.

He then sighs looking dreadful.

"What's wrong?" I frown.

"My room is such a mess. The guys were getting ready in there. I'm pretty sure there are clothes all over my bed"

I hum thoughtfully "You can sleep with me"

"What?" He laughs amused.

I roll my eyes "As in, we can share a bed or something. You're probably too tired to clear it all up"

He shakes his head "Are you sure?"

He's acting like he's never slept with a girl.

"Yes" I assure rolling my eyes "I like you, remember? I don't think I mind. At all"

"Chelsea-Anne. You never ever fail to surprise me" He laughs loudly.

I give him my hand laughing with him and he happily takes it "Come on, mister. I'm very very tired"

I walk him to my room and he let's my hand go as he stand by the door awkwardly. Why is he so nervous? It's like he's never even been inside my room before.

"One would swear you're the virgin here" I muse watching him.

"I've never just slept with a girl"

"There's a first time for everything"

He sighs running a hand through his hair "Okay, fine. I'll be back when you're done changing"

Right.

He's about to leave but I remember something.

"Chambers" I call out and he stops, gesturing for me to continue "Uhm please undo my zip. Only if you don't mind"

Stop rambling!

He sucks in a breath but nods nonetheless before making his way to me slowly. I move my hair to the side for him. His always warm hand trails on my neck soothingly sending chills down my spine before moving to my zip.

Oh lord.

He holds it between fingers and moves it down slowly against the rest of my body. I hear him groan loudly after he's unzipped down my back. I think he notices my lack of bra. He touches there smoothly and I swear I feel electricity sparks when he does.

I'm not even exaggerating.

I hold the dress tightly against me so it doesn't fall yet. Kyle finishes the rest of the job, just above my black underwear. He probably saw a hint of them.

I can't seem to mind.

I turn around to be greeted by his darkened grey eyes and clenched jaw.

"Thanks" I squeak sheepishly.

He nods tightly before exiting my room.

Is it me or is it suddenly hot in here? His hands against my body felt so damn good!

I take off the dress and heels, feeling much more comfortable. I put on my warm black-and-white fuzzy pajamas, tie my hair, and rinse my face before I get inside my blankets and wait for Kyle.

He comes back a second later in a hoodie and black shorts which look kind of old. I eye his gorgeous legs sheepishly. I wish he was shirtless though, but it's winter so I can't blame him.

Maybe next time.

"Are you done?" He teases.

I roll my eyes "Leave me alone"

He just laughs at me before slowly climbing onto my bed and I open the covers for him as he gets under them.

What now?

He's not even touching me, much to my dismay. He is laying on his back and I'm also laying on mine. I can hear his soft breathing. It feels like we're oceans apart though.

"It's winter" He announces.

I look at him to find that he was already looking at me "And?"

"Won't it be warmer if we're against each other?" He asks with a small smirk.

Yay!

I laugh "Cuddling?"

"Yeah, that" He says.

"Okay" I squeak blushing.

He rolls his eyes, opening his arm that's on my side "Well come on then, you're the one on the edge. I don't bite"

I start to move closer to him until his arms is under my back as he rolls me against his chest so that his arm is wrapped comfortably around my stomach area. My head is between his shoulder and chin and I inhale his heavenly scent happily.

This feels right. He smells so good.

He wraps the blanket tighter against the both of us adding to the comfort. I place my hand against his chest as I play with the sweater.

"You're warm" He muses.

I smile "So are you"

"Good" I can feel the vibration of his strong voice literally everywhere; on his chest, on his neck area. I like it.

My short legs tangle with long ones under the blankets and I smile happily.

This is HEAVEN.

"Your hair smells good... like lime" He mumbles against it.

"Really? It's the shampoo. I wasn't sure about it at first cause I'd never tried it before. Anyways I decided..."

I hear him breathe a laugh "Sleep, child, you speak too much"

Meanie. But he's right.

I close my eyes grinning "Night, Chambers"

"Night, Chelsea-Anne" He murmurs and I feel him kiss my hair softly.

I wish it was my lips.

I can't complain though as I grin wider, absentmindedly wrapping myself closer to him before sleep envelopes me.

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Literally had a smile on my face the whole time writing the second half of this chapter!

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