Chapter 273
Ex-Husband's Regret
Ethan and I dated for months?â I ask âSo I must have slept with him somewhere along that time line, which would explain how I got pregnant.
Werenât we using protection?â I voiced out my thoughts, so lost in them that I forgot that Rowan was next to me.
He growls, the words coming out through clenched teeth: âAva, please donât mention you, another man, and sex in the same sentence. I donât want even to think about itâ
I donât even want to think of another manâs hands on my body, so I keep quiet. Itâs still hard for me to accept that another man has touched and tasted me. Itâs hard to accept that Iâve had another man inside Î Î.
Shaking myself from those thoughts, I focus on him and ask the question that I dread the answer to âWhat about you? Did you sleep with Emma?â
My heart is painfully pounding as I wait for his answer.
Sharp grey eyes penetrate mine as he replies. âNo. I didnât have sex with her. I didnât even kiss her because it felt so fucking wrong.
Yet, I fucked another man. How can he even look at me and Iris?
Iâm sorry that I let another man touch me.â I whisper, feeling ashamed of myself, He gently grabs my jaw and forces me to look at him. Caressing my cheek, he places a soft kiss at the corner of my mouth before his grey eyes turn to me again.
âItâs not your fault, and donât ever fucking apologize for that. If it wasnât for your relationship with Ethan, then Iris wouldnât be here, and I would never regret that little girl because she owns part of my heart.â
That touched me so much that I couldnât stop myself from locking my lips with his. I thread my fingers into his hair as I bring him closer. Our lips tangle, and my desire spikes. Fuck, I wanted him badly.
Without breaking the kiss, I get out from beneath the covers and straddle his hips. The evidence of his arousal presses against my wet center.
My panties were drenched and stuck against my opening, but that didnât stop me from rubbing against his hard on. The groan he releases travels all the way to Clit. I swear I could cum from just that damn sexy HB BONUS Nothing made sense except what was happening between us. What were we even talking about before?
nsure it wasnât important right? Not when his tongue was in my mouth, his hardened length was rubbing against center and his hands was kneading my ass. Nothing in this world mattered except for this moment night here between us.
Pulling my hands from his hair, I was about to remove my nightgown when he stopped me.
âNo.â His voice was firm and strained.
âWhy? Donât you want me?â I ask in confusion.
His hardness told me he did want me. Unless his arousal wasnât because of me.
âYouâre testing my fucking control, Ava.â He sighs. âFuck yes do I want you, but that will be taking advantage of you.â
Using one arm, he lifts me from his laps and places me on the bed. Then he gets out of bed and starts heading towards the bathroom.
âI donât understand,â I call after him, making him stop He doesnât turn, but he answers. âWhen I take you, I want you to believe my feelings for you; I want to be the only one you want and think about; I want to be the only one you have in your heart, and I want you to have nothing but love for me. Only then will I take you and claim you as mine.â
With that he walks into the bathroom, leaving me speechless and more confused.
What the hell did he mean by he wants me to have nothing but love in my heart for him? Did something happen that made me hate him? And also, if Ethan was Irisâs dad, where the hell was he?