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She fights her own demons

A month passed by and the pain Aradhya held increased.

Verbal abuse from Reyansh scratched the wounds her parents gave to her.

She didn't try to bond with the other family members of the family too.

It was just some small talks,she would initiate with them and nothing else.

She turned her all focus on her studies.she would study at least 8 hours a day even if it meant to sacrifice her sleep.

But she wasn't actually sacrificing it as she has insomnia.

Last night was horrible as she thought to sleep early which she shouldn't have,She got a nightmare.

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Reyansh entered inside his office and continues his daily work.

In the evening he thought to message Neha.

He opened the Instagram but her post stirred up something inside him.

"NEHA!"he roared entering inside her apartment.

Neha came out of her room and Ritik tailing behind her which did nothing good but fueled his anger.

He was calm when she always said he was her bestfriend but not now.

"Why the hell was this dickhead kissing you?"He asked angrily.

"Reyansh you need to calm down first"she said.

"What's there to be calm about Neha?"

"Listen reyansh we can't be together anymore,you have a wife now you should love her and move on from me and i am also dating Ritik now"she said.

"What the heck are you saying Neha!you know i will divorce her after 6 months!"

"6 months reyansh 6 months!we don't know what can happen in six months,I can already see changes in you.you are always angry now,you don't give time to me anymore always working and working"

"I wasn't angry at you baby, it's all that aradhya...I was busy in the new project upcoming I am not neglecting you"He said softly.

"Whatever it was Rey,we can't be together anymore,you need to understand it"she said trying to calm him.

He scoffed and said"so we are breaking up?"

She sighed and nodded.

"Fine"he muttered and left from there.

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Aradhya flinched by the loud sound of door closing.

She looked at him who just entered,he was looking so much angry.

'what happened to him?'she thought.

She was trembling internally knowing it would come out on her.

He took predatory steps towards her and she took few steps backwards.

It went on until her back touched the wall and now she was trapped between the wall and him.

"It's all because of YOU"he yelled.

"W-what?"she asked timidly and patted her shoulder internally for getting this courage.

"Because of YOU,Neha broke up with me,you are a Bad omen,piece of shit"

His words shattered her heart into pieces that she was trying to mend with so much difficulty.

"B-but"

She couldn't complete her words when he again shouted"you are such a bitch,your voice hurt my ears don't say any word until I say so you got it?"

She couldn't do more than just nod at his words.

"Words!I need words"he punched the wall.

"Y-yes"she voiced out.

"I will make your life living hell,my dear wife"He said in deadly voice and left to another room.

'isn't it already hell?'

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As he said the misery started.

He would verbally abuse her in the start of day,make her do all the cleaning of the bedroom, would torture her for small mistakes and sometimes would torture even if there's no mistake.

Reyansh spitted out the tea and throw the tea cup on the floor.she flinched due to this sudden act of him.

"Did you put salt in it?"He demanded.

She cursed herself to not pay attention while making tea.

"I-i am sorry hukum sa,it w-was unintentional"

"Ofcourse it was intentional"he said and she shook her head in no vigorously.

"Seems like the punishments you are getting are so small"he said and a fear gripped her heart.

"You aren't getting any food for 7 days"He said and asked her to go out.

'7 days???Mumma dadda once kept me hungry for 3 days,they were horrifying days'

She looked at him as if he might change his decision but she also knows he won't change it.

"GET OUT"He shouted and she scurried away.

7 days to her felt like years and the another punishments he was giving wasn't helping her situation either.

Days passed by and torture kept increasing and increasing.

'should she suicide?'the question echoed in her head.

She gripped her hairs tightly as the voice became more louder and louder.

"No no no I am not doing that"Her breathing became heavier.

She entered inside the bathroom and Locked it.

Her hands trembled as she holds the blade.

'no no i shouldn't do that'

'just do it,do it'

She closed her eyes tightly and makes a cut on her hand.

Few more cuts followed by.

Under the increasing abuse and punishments of Reyansh, Aradhya has Turned to self harm as coping mechanism.

Self harm for aradhya is a way to express the pain she feels inside,a pain that words can't adequately convey.

She looked at the blood bleeding and a surge of guilt rushed through her body.

'what the hell did I do?'

She cleaned the wounds and bandaged them.

Dear Diary,

Today was another difficult day. Hukum sa's punishments and harsh words have become unbearable. I feel so trapped and helpless, like there's no escape from this pain. The constant abuse has left me feeling numb, and sometimes, the only way I can feel anything at all is through self-harm. It's a way to release the overwhelming emotions that I can't express otherwise.

I know it's not the answer, but in those moments, it feels like the only way to cope. The physical pain distracts me from the emotional agony, even if just for a little while. But afterwards, the guilt and shame wash over me, and I realize that I'm only hurting myself more.

I wish I could find the strength to break free from this cycle. I want to believe that there's hope, that things can get better. Maybe one day, I'll find the courage to seek help and surround myself with people who truly care about me. Until then, I just need to hold on and remind myself that I deserve better than this.

Writing in this diary helps a little. It's a small comfort to know that I can pour out my thoughts and feelings here, even if no one else understands. I hope that one day, I'll look back on these entries and see how far I've come.

For now, I'll take it one day at a time.

Love,

Aradhya