Chapter 167

Chapter 0167

ASHANTI’S POV.

There’s a sinking nervous pain in my stomach that I choose to ignore when I go back into the arena.

Alina’s words are replaying in my mind like an audio disc and no matter how much I want to deny her words, deep down in my heart, I know they are nothing, but the truth.

Lycans are a proud species. They would rather burn to the ground than let their Alpha marry an ordinary werewolf and have her rule over them as queen.

There’s no place for me here as Alina rightly said. I have no future with the Alpha. Everything we have now is going to end. That’s if it hasn’t, already.

“Ashanti.” A baritone voice sounds my name and I don’t need to look to know it’s Alpha Reagan. I stop in my tracks and turn like a robot to face him. He’s frowning like I’ve done something wrong.

“Where are you coming from?”

“The balcony. Went to take some air.” I reply lifelessly. I’m still trying hard to believe he’s talking to me like this.

“You can’t just take breaks without asking for permission.”

“I’m sorry, Alpha. It won’t happen again.”

“Good. Now, for your punishment. Five rounds around the arena. On your mark!” I start running before he can say the next word. Alina is snickering at a corner. The guys are exchanging confused looks. If Alina had not told me what was up, I would be just as confused as they are about what was going on.

The elders probably scolded him and made him understand they would only accept me as their Luna over their dead body…

Hold up.

How come I’m already talking about the elders accepting me when I don’t know if he has accepted me. It’s true that he treats me specially and most people think there’s something going on between us, but there’s nothing.

I don’t even know if the an has feelings for me or if he has been treating me so specially because I f**k him well. I have no idea what’s going through his mind. The topic of how we feel about each other has never been brought up.

Gah!

This is driving me crazy.

After my punishment, I joined the others and combat training lasted three hours. Alpha. Reagan does a good job ignoring me throughout that time and only acknowledges my presence again when it’s time for duels. He pairs me with Ashanti and we’re the last pair to duel for the day, as usual.

“You good?” Kyle asks when I go to drink water at the sitting area. The first pair are already

dwelling in the circle.

“Yeah, why?” I lie and look at him.

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“The tension between you and Alpha Reagan is almost suffocating everyone in the room.”

“That’s because he woke up this morning and chose to be an a**!” I say, shooting Alpha Reagan and stern glare and I know he heard me because he looks at me. I roll my eyes and look

away.

“Don’t let him hear you calling him that.”

“Oh, I think he already did!” I slam my water bottle on a nearby chair and walk away, frowning.

When it’s time for my duel with Alina, I don’t hold back and neither does she. We both fight fiercely and the duel ends in a draw. Alpha Reagan doesn’t look too pleased.

Now I don’t know if he wanted me or Alina to win.

‘Ashanti.” He calls me when I step out of the circle. I turn to face him, still breathing fast from the brawl.

“My Lord.” I give him a curt bow. He inches closer to me, his eyes drilling holes into my face.

“It’s been weeks already since you matched up to Alina’s strength. You’re supposed to be winning duels with her by now. What’s happening?”

“I’m sorry My Lord. I’ll train harder so I can win the next duel against Alina.”

“You had better not disappoint me.” He walks away.

I head straight to the sitting area where I pick my bag and storm out of the arena with tears welled up in my eyes.

He’s cruel.

He’s a cruel d!

HOURS LATER.

“Alina could be lying, you know.” That’s Tessa’s response after I just told her what Alina and I discussed back at the Arena. I tilt my head to the side and look at her as though she has lost a screw in her head.

“What would Alina gain from lying about something like this?”

“Your tears. Your pain. You, doubting Alpha Reagan’s intentions towards you.” She lists out easily and I think about them for a while before nodding.

“True. But I don’t think she lied. Alpha Reagan’s behaviour towards me at the arena proved she was telling the truth. He was so cold and mean. It felt like he was possessed.” I cry. She sighs and shifts closer to me.

“I still think you should hear it from his mouth before jumping to conclusions.”

“He’s never going to say anything, Tess. He never does. This should also serve as a wake up call for me. I need to calm down from the heat of this passion and think more about the kind

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of relationship we have. It’s a secret. He has never publicly proclaimed me as his exclusive lover.

It’s true that he has shown it with actions, but you and I know it’s important to make verbal affirmations to certain things. As it is right now, I don’t even know how he feels about me. It’s painful.” The tears in my eyes spring free down my cheeks and before I know it, I’m crying and shuddering and wheezing and splintering into teardrops.

Alpha Reagan probably doesn’t even have feelings for me and even if he does, the elders and citizens will never accept me as their Luna and Alina is threatening to have me decapitated if she ever becomes Luna of this pack.

How did my life become so messed up?