18. Heaven Only Knows Where You Two Have Been

*Thomas POV*

"Oh god, it feels like forever since I've picked up one of these,"

Matty sighs as he relaxes on the couch with one of his favorite smaller sized Spanish guitars in the studio, putting his feet up on the coffee table with Luca snuggled up beside him while I set up the soundboard across from them. Luca rested his dangly legs on top of Matty while drinking his coffee and smiling as if what happened last night was long forgotten.

But I would never forget.

"You're extra snuggly today," Matty mentions as he notices how close Luca was while he focused on tuning the guitar. Luca doesn't say anything as he continues to take a long sip of his coffee.

"Are you like this because you want to be or because you feel guilty due to the fact I can no longer walk straight?" Matty smirks and Luca raises his brows in surprise. I could sense the suspicion in Matty's tone since we both knew Luca only got extra touchy and cuddly after he has an attack.

"Maybe a little bit of both," Luca says and I giggled a bit as I fine-tuned the untouched equipment to my new liking.

"How are you feeling Kitten?" I asked him and as I slid my glasses back up the bridge of my nose. Matty instantly gave me a genuine look of pain and sighed.

"I feel like my ass was violated by a jackhammer but I'll do it again if you guys liked it," He shrugs and I tickled the bottom of his foot when he wasn't looking only to get a kick in response.

Matty suddenly plays the chords to that one Spanish song everyone in the world knows and I paused my prep to watch him.

"Really?" I asked him and Luca shushed me, obviously never hearing the obnoxious song. I thought he was going to sing the English version until he reaches the first line after his guitar solo.

Sí, sabes que ya llevo un rato mirándote

Tengo que bailar contigo hoy

Vi que tu mirada ya estaba llamándome

Muéstrame el camino que yo voy

Tú, tú eres el imán y yo soy el metal

Me voy acercando y voy armando el plan

Solo con pensarlo se acelera el pulso

Ya, ya me está gustando más de lo normal

Todos mis sentidos van pidiendo más

Esto hay que tomarlo sin ningún apuro

He takes a dramatic pause to breathe and looks directly at me.

"Don't you dare," I threatened but he took it as a challenge and continued.

Despacito

Quiero respirar tu cuello despacito

Deja que te diga cosas al oído

Para que te acuerdes si no estás conmigo

He suddenly stops and laughs at the face I was making while seductively winking at me.

"Good luck getting that out of your head for the next week," he laughs and I tilt my head back, groaning loudly.

"You know what scares me, the fact that Jaydean and the babies know English, Spanish, and Korean but I only know one of those three languages," I joke around but he narrows his eyes at me.

"I've tried to teach you but you're too impatient and get frustrated easily when you don't understand something. At least Luca knows Spanish," Matty mentions, comparing me to my husband and who grunts.

"Barely," He comments and Matty elbows him.

"Shh, I was trying to give you an edge," Matty whispers and Luca rolls his eyes.

"Anyway, as I was saying, you should at least try to learn. Otherwise, I'm not going to be responsible when Jaydean comes home one day and says "Je namja chinguyeyo Aboji ya'. And I am not playing translator," he adds and I crossed my arms.

"Was that a threat? Why would my beautiful chicken nugget threaten me?" I asked and he shook his head, his fingers toying with the strings as he does with Luca still quietly recovering.

"No bitch, it means 'Dad, this is my boyfriend,' see? She could sneak right behind you and let him in," Matthias mentions.

"I'll kill him first," Luca and I both growled in sync at the same exact time, but Matty ignored us. Striking another chord on the guitar.

"Now you guys are being too overprotective," He chuckles and I didn't like thinking about Jaydean as an adult.

"Jaydean's not allowed to have a boyfriend or girlfriend until she's moved out from under our roof and the same goes for the rest of my babies," I set the rule and Matty switches to an acoustic guitar, as he does Luca somehow lets out a small noise that sounded like a cross between a whimper and a gasp.

"You know it's going to happen one day. How old were you when you had your first boyfriend?" Luca asks and I grimaced.

"Listen, I was different. I didn't have the same home situation as Jaydean," I point out, grabbing a sharpie from the table and holding it in my mouth.

"Yeah and what was that like?" Luca asked out of curiosity and I stopped what I was doing to face them.

"Well, I guess it wasn't abnormal but it was nothing spectacular. My dad left to go get milk at the corner store so to speak when I was five so I don't really remember him. It was just my stepdad, my mama, Sophia, and Adrian." I confess, letting my guard down to share a small piece of me with them.

"My stepfather was always working and so was my mama so they were never home. The only attention I ever got was in school so I was constantly getting into nasty fights until one teacher sat me down and told me some shit that got me straight. I worked so hard and did so well while also dying on the inside because I felt like I was putting my sexuality in a tiny box and storing it in the bottom of my closet. Then I won a scholarship to that private school out of a lottery then we met and then...," I looked into Matty's beautiful hazel eyes and laughed remembering the times he made fun of the scrawny nerd who had a crush on him.

"I made my own family. First with the NTB gang...then with you...and then with you," I pointed to Matty first then Luca. Knowing the order of which our love for each other blossomed.

"And I must admit, I'm really proud of the way my family is turning out so far," I finished and Luca gave me a strange look.

"What do you mean by so far? Do you think it's going to go bad in the future or something?" He asked and but I immediately turned it down.

"No? I would never think that. I just think that if there's anything I've learned from the past few years I've spent with you, it's that life is an unpredictable mother fucker. Now should we get started?" I asked as I pressed record and Matty played the guitar while I sat ready at the piano. Lights Down Low by MAX begins and I could feel the emotion in his guitar.

Heaven only knows where you've been

But I don't really need to know

I know where you're gonna go

Matty starts, locking eyes with Luca as he does so and I wanted to finish this so I could just snuggle up with both of them before heading home.

On my heart, where you're resting your head

And you just look so beautiful

It's like you were an angel

I take my turn while also looking into Luca's beautiful blue eyes, remember the morning after I was shot, how hard my angel cried for me as he rested in my arms. To the first time we kissed in this same exact room with the lights down low. Matty was going to sing the next part but in a strange twist of events, Luca takes it and sings the high notes with ease and finesse.

Can I stop the flow of time?

Can I swim in your divine?

'Cause I don't think I'd ever leave this place

He sings and we naturally change between the three of us as we sing the chorus in a heartfelt harmony that was so pure I felt myself getting caught up in the emotions of our love for each other.

Oh, turn the lights turn the lights down low

Yeah, now I'm feeling you breathing slow

'Cause, baby, we're just reckless kids

Trying to find an island in the flood

Oh, turn the lights, turn the lights down low, oh

Matty continues playing the guitar as he eyes me and sings the next part with a genuine smile that takes my breath away.

Under heavy skies in the rain

You're dancing in your bare feet

Just like we're in a movie

I remember when he told me he was pregnant with the quads that I thought was just one baby at the time and it was just the two of us dancing along to his parent's wedding song after a long day of practice and taking in. Both of us were happy and terrified at the same time because the loss of our son hit us so hard. When I married him, I promised myself that I would only give him happieness and in those days it seemed like I was only puting him into a depression.

Grab my hand and we're chasing the train

I catch you looking back at me

Running through a cloud of steam

Luca sings and I remember the first time I saw him after the accident. His body drenched and shivering uncontrollably from the cold as he stood on our doorstep. How red his eyes had been from crying and how skinny he was from his depression. How Matty and I built him back up from the bottom. How we told him everything would be okay even though he never believed us and just wanted to die. When on our first night together as a trio, he shattered the glass front door after a bad attack and Matty and I ran after him because our future husband's life depended on it.

But look at him now.

Can I stop the flow of time?

Can I swim in your divine?

'Cause I don't think I'd ever leave this place

Matty belts out and together we sing the rest of the cover.

Oh, turn the lights turn the lights down low

Yeah, now I'm feeling you breathing slow, oh

'Cause, baby, we're just reckless kids

Trying to find an island in the flood

Oh, turn the lights, turn the lights down low

And I will give you everything baby

But can you feel this energy? Take it

You can have the best of me baby

And I will give you anything

Can you feel this energy? Take it

You can have the best of me baby

Oh, turn the lights turn the lights down low

Yeah, now I'm feeling you breathing slow

Oh, turn the lights turn the lights down low

Yeah, now I'm feeling you breathing slow

'Cause, baby, we're just reckless kids

Trying to find an island in the flood

Oh, turn the lights, turn the lights down low, oh

We finish the song and I let it come to a full stop before joining my beautiful husbands on the other side of the table. Kissing them until we all couldn't breathe.

*****************

CaN i StOp ThE fLoW oF TiMe!

*Author badly belts out one of his favorite songs*

Alexa! Play Despacito!

Also what Matty and Luca would sound like if they sang Despacito together