Chapter 24
Down and Dirty
Cheyenne
The cool ocean breeze swept across the rocks, making me grateful I wore a windbreaker. Abe fiddled with his fancy camera, trying to capture the perfect photo of the iconic Peggyâs Cove lighthouse.
I was mesmerized every time he brought out his camera. Photography was his passion. I could see it in his face when he was taking pictures. Similar to how I felt when I was baking.
I didnât understand why he was taking a marketing job in New York City. He didnât need a job. His trust fund would afford him the luxury to pursue his passion.
âDid you get some good shots?â I asked.
âYeah,â he replied as he put the camera back in its case. âItâs beautiful here. Itâs hard to believe we started out at the Pacific Ocean and here we are, staring at the Atlantic.
âCanada is a gorgeous, scenic country. Iâm so thankful I had the opportunity to see it the way we did.â
âMe too,â I agreed as we joined hands and enjoyed the breathtaking view.
I would never forget that moment as long as I lived. It was the last day of our trip. The next morning, we would drive to Fredericton, New Brunswick, and return the RV.
And embark on the next chapter of our lives. Our ~life~. Together. As a couple.
âWhatcha thinking about?â Abe asked, squeezing my hand.
âNothing.â
âYou look like youâre about to cry. So itâs not nothing.â
âIâm just feeling a little emotional,â I confessed. âIâm sad the trip is ending, but Iâm excited and nervous about what comes next.â
He nodded. âI get that. Change is scary. Even when itâs a good change.â
âWanna get some ice cream?â I suggested. âI saw a place on the way here.â
âSure thing, sweetheart.â
After we purchased our cones, we settled at one of the red plastic tables on the patio. âCan I ask you something?â I asked.
âOf course. You can ask me anything.â
âWhy are you taking the job in New York? I get the feeling you have no desire to work in marketing.â
He took a bite of his cone, chewing thoughtfully. âIâm not sure.
âI guess I feel like I went to college and spent a lot of my parentsâ money on a graduate degree in business and marketing, so I should work in that field.â
âEven if it doesnât make you happy? Why donât you work as a photographer?â
He finished his cone and wiped his face with a napkin. âYou ask a lot of hard questions.â
âThis is our last stop on the trip. We have to go back to the real world tomorrow, Abe. You asked me to come to New York with you. But weâve never talked about it again. Did you change your mind?â
âNo,â he replied with a heavy sigh. âI want you with me. I wouldâve never asked you to come if I wasnât one hundred percent certain about our relationship.
âItâs the job thatâs the problem. Itâs not fair of me to drag you to New York if Iâm not sure I even want to be there myself.â
Tears burned behind my eyelids as I processed the meaning of his words. It sounded like he was having second thoughts about more than the job. Even if he wouldnât admit it.
âWe should get back so I can start dinner,â I said, tossing the remainder of my cone in the trash can.
âCheyenne,â he said softly. âI donât think weâre finished with this conversation.â
âI am,â I said sharply before turning and walking toward the Jeep.
My stomach churned with a mixture of anger and sadness. I climbed into the passenger seat and slammed the door shut. I shouldâve seen this coming.
Everything was great in our protective bubble, away from the real world. But Abe was still terrified of commitment.
The trip was almost over, and reality was crashing in like a tsunami, hell-bent on destroying everything in its wake.
âI think you misunderstood what I was trying to say,â he said as he started the ignition.
We drove the short distance to the park in silence.
As soon as he put the Jeep in park, I jumped out and headed inside to start gathering ingredients for dinner. Cooking always brought me comfort when something was bothering me.
âCheyenne,â Abe started. âCan we please talk?â
âThereâs nothing to talk about,â I said with my back to him.
âCan you please look at me?â
I turned swiftly, my arms crossed under my breasts. âTalk away,â I snapped.
âI didnât say I changed my mind about you coming to New York.â
My cell phone rang before he could say anything else. âExcuse me,â I said, wiping my hands on my jeans before grabbing my phone off the counter. âHello?â
âHello. Iâm looking for Cheyenne Carson.â The woman on the other end of the line spoke in a high-pitched voice.
âThis is Cheyenne.â
âHi, Cheyenne. My name is Angela Cooper. Iâm calling about the pastry chef internship you applied for at Caesarâs Palace in Las Vegas.â
âYes?â My heart was pounding so hard, I expected it to burst from my chest at any moment.
World-renowned pastry chef Phil Waring had come to my classroom to observe students and interview for a paid internship at his bakery in Las Vegas. I was one of ten students chosen for an interview.
But Iâd heard that he visited several culinary schools, interviewing hundreds of people, and I didnât think I stood a chance.
âCongratulations! Chef Waring selected you for the internship. If you choose to accept, youâll need to be in Las Vegas next week.â
âOh my God,â I whispered. âYes. Iâll be there.â
âGreat. Iâll email you all the details.â
âThank you so much.â
âYouâre welcome. See you next week, Cheyenne.â
I hung up the phone and placed it on the counter. My head was spinning. I had a paid internship. With Phil Waring. One of the greatest pastry chefs in America. At his bakery in Las Vegas.
âWhat was that about?â Abe asked.
âI got a paid internship in Las Vegas with a famous chef.â
âWow! Congratulations, honey. Thatâs awesome.â He pulled me into his arms, squeezing me so tight I struggled to get air into my lungs.
âWhat about New York?â I asked, pulling back.
âI wonât take the job. Iâll come with you.â He smiled down at me, caressing my jaw with his thumb.
âHow can you do that? Didnât you already accept the job?â
He let go of me and leaned back against the counter, his eyes narrowed as he crossed his arms. âDonât you want me to come with you?â
âOf course, I do. But I donât want you to give up your dream so I can have mine.â
âFirst of all, marketing is not my dream. I believe we covered that earlier. Second, Iâm pretty sure there are tons of marketing jobs in Vegas.â
âMy internship is for a year. I probably wonât stay in Vegas after that. What if you get a great marketing job and youâre just starting to climb the ranks, but Iâm ready to move on?â
âIf you donât want me to come with you, just say so, Cheyenne.â
âI didnât say that! Didnât we just have this same argument about New York?â
He ran his hands through his hair, drawing in a deep breath before blowing it out slowly. âIâm gonna take a walk and clear my head.â
âOkay,â I whispered, fighting back tears as I watched him grab his camera and head out the door without another word.
Why did life always have to be so complicated? Abe was the man I was supposed to be with. There was no doubt in my mind. If we wanted to be together, one of us had to turn down a job offer.
But I couldnât give up my dream. The internship was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. And if Abe gave up his position in New York, he might end up resenting me for it down the road.
I pulled two steaks from the fridge, laying them out on a platter before applying my secret rub to the meat. After washing my hands, I headed outside to light the grill.
Would Abe come back for dinner? How long would he be gone? Maybe I shouldnât put the steak on yet. Tears stung my eyes as I cleaned the grill.
A cool blast of wind blew through the campsite, sending the awning into a flapping frenzy as the sun disappeared behind the clouds.
The hairs on the back of my neck stood up, a shiver traveling down my spine when I hung the brush up on its hook.
I sensed someone was behind me. Before I could turn around, a strong arm circled my neck and shoved a rag against my face. I tried to scream, but no sound came out. Then everything went black.