chapter 95

I felt happy for us though.But ofcourse every coin had two sides.I first felt it when we had to celebrate his birthday far away from me. And even though I know that I can't give him a present anytime soon, I still bought one for him.It hurts me so much when I'm not able to touch him, or hold his hands or give him a kiss. I hurts me too think that I can do nothing but smile at him from the screen watching his friends giving him a small birthday cake that he blew the candles from.That was also the day when he finally introduced me to his roommates, but two particular guys stood out from the rest.After that day, it slowly started to change. Or calls with each other for shorter and shorter, our messages would be left read and soon we reached to the point where we talked only once a week.It was hell, and I felt like I was being punished for suddenly leaving him alone like that.I was supposed to be there for him, to support him but I chickened out. I didn't knew what exactly I wanted. I was confused, I was brainwashed.And one day, I stood up in the middle of the classroom while the class was going on and walked straight to home to pack my bags. I'm sure this time. I won't back way.If I don't see him in person anytime soon, I'm going to go crazy. I'm fine trying to endure everything.I will go to Seoul to be with him. Well get an apartment together, I'll work part time while I continue to study. We will make it work, just like he said."I'm going to Seoul."I boldly say infront of my parents. I stood bravely in front of them, sure that this is what I want."Dara..." My mom begins to whisper, but I know where this is going and she's not going to do that too me again."No." I said, tilting my chin up as I held my bag full of clothes. "I will go. No matter whatever you say, you can't stop me.""I'm sorry." She suddenly broke down to her knees, sobbing to herself as dad bent down to comfort her. "I am so sorry.""Mom..." I mumble, a weird feeling like someone is gripping my heart from inside my chest.♫♬♫♪♬