chapter 93

" Here we are!" Yoongi's brother finally dropped us once again into the railway station, making me reminisce the first time he did that for us."You have been such a great help to us." Yoongi says, walking forward to hug him quickly. They both exchanged awkward looks as they pulled away from each other."Let's go, jagi." Yoongi says, taking my hand with his, the other holding his trolley bag."I'll be off then." Yoongi's brother cheerfully waves as he blows out the aur from his cigarette. "Don't do anything crazy."He then leaves us alone in the middle of the train station, surrounded by people who are complete strangers to us, together with our bags and tickets to Seoul.The train started to swoosh and make noise as it arrived , the announcer saying the destinations booming in the speaker, the laughter of children running down, the clock ticking.Something doesn't feel right."Hey." He tugs on my hand. "Or train just arrived. Let's go now or else we will be left behind."He looked so excited and happy. He likes like a bird finally being set free from his cage after years of confinement.We entered the train and sat in the row closest to the door. He thought that it's efficient so that we could get off right away once we have had reached Seoul. I sat down and tried to swallow the lump in my chest but it remained there.For some reason, it started there."H- hey." I say holding his hand. "I'm...""I know you're scared, jagi. I am too." He nods as he lays his palm on his chest. "But this is for the better.""E- exactly!" I say, shaking my head as I shake away the thoughts.What am I thinking?I am finally going to be with Yoongi.We'll be there together all the time without fearing that anyone would find out. We'll live in the same house, share the same space, eat the same food and reach for both of our dreams.' He'll never choose you from his dream.'No stop!Please, Dara. Stop thinking about this.' He'll never choose you from his dream.'"Dara? Are you okay?" He asked me but everything started to become blurry. All of the noises that I was hearing started to fade away, and the only thing I can hear is my heart beat and my mom's voice.' He'll never choose you from his dream.'And before I knew it, I stood up from my seat and hopped it of the train, my hand holding my bag. "Dara!" He calls out for me from the train and runs to chase me. He touches my shoulder, his fingers clasping on them as he turns me around to face him. "What are you doing?" "I can't to do th- this." I began to sob hysterically."Dara..." He says as his disappointed eyes look at me, making me feel even more guilty. "I can't... I can't just leave my parents and leave my... My future behind." I sniffed. "You know that I- I lo-love you so much b-but I cannot ju-""It's okay." He says embracing me. "Why didn't you just tell me?"I pull back."Because you looked so happy and I don't want to be the cause of loss of that happiness.""It's okay." He repeat himself, embracing me once again. "We can make it work. I'll always write to you, we'll always text, we'll call each other. We'll make it work." "Promise?" I looked up at him as he flashed me a soft smile. "Promise." He pulls back and gives me one last kiss that i never wanted to end. "And promise me that you are going to keep your ring finger empty because once I become famous, I'm going to put a ring on it." "Yoongi." I whispered as I clutched myself into him, not wanting to let go. I pull back to catch a glimpse of his eyes and takes both of his hands, funding comfort from his palms that I'll never be able to hold again for a long time. "I promise.""Well looking at the same moon, Dara." He whispers as the announcer from the speaker then announces that the train is leaving, making Yoongi look at the train from his shoulder."I have to go." He mumbles, letting go of my hands. "I love you.""I love you." I whispered back to the air as he hopped into the train, glancing at me for the last time.I watch the train leave, my heart breaking into a million pieces as it does. I watch him closer his eyes as he pass by me, and I blink, the train is already gone.♫♬♫♪♬