chapter 74

This week has been hell. It's been exactly four days, ten hours, thirty two minutes and eleven seconds since I last saw Yoongi. A part of me wanted to die. It felt like he's gasoline and I'm the engine. I'm useless without him.Cliche but true.He never went to school after that day. For every single morning, I always looked forward to see him at school but he never showed up. Every single text message or call I did, he never responded back. Their house is always empty, even his brother's car was not there. Has he completely left me behind? Did he leave me without even saying a goodbye? Is this how it all ends? Everyone is talking about it at school. Some days that he moved to a different town. Some says he got into trouble and went to rehab. No one knows what exactly had happened to him.The fact that it also has been for days since my parents forbade me to anywhere but school. My mom and dad walk around the house and act like I'm  air. Like they can't see me at all.I looked at the mirror as I wash my hands. My puffy eyes are swollen and bloodshot with big black bags of dark circles complimenting them. ( Note the sarcasm.)My lips looked like a blank sheet of paper. Dry and white. My cheeks has sunken in, almost way too much.Why am I making myself suffer like this? Why do I have to punish myself? Why can't I feel anything else but pain and hurt? And regret.Why? A tear drop falls on my cheek as I realised the answer. Because Yoongi is gone.And I'm not sure if I'll ever see him again I'm my life...♡♡Happy Jimin Day Army!!! 🥺💜💐