chapter 47

" I like you."The three words that came out of my mouth got mixed into the cold breeze, hitting both of our faces.His lips that were forming a thin line ,not separated a little, letting out a soft, short breath. I looked at him through the pool of tears in my eyes, and his eyes looked back at me. He blinked a few times as he closes his mouth, gulping his saliva." You're crazy." He whispered, finally opening his mouth. A soft chuckle of disbelief left his mouth as he muttered again, " You're insane."" I like you, Min Yoongi." I whispered and whimpered at the same time. " I don't care what you call me but I like you."" This is unbelievable." He left out an other chuckle from his mouth." I don't care." I stepped closer to him, my body wanting nothing but to touch him and feel his warmth against cold snow falling around us. " I like you."" Why?" He steps back as he breathes out, leaving his mouth open. " Why do you me?"Why do I like him?Is it because of his smile? It's it because of his pale skin? It's it because of his activeness in basketball? It's it because of his passion in music? Or is it because of the things as simple as the way his cheeks puff up when he eats? Or the way he closes his eyes everytime he listens to good music? The way he talks? The way he laughs? The way he lives?" I like you because..."  I wiped away the tears that were stinging my cheek as the cold wind flew. " You're you."" Bullshit." He kicks the snow from the ground, making me jump in surprise." I didn't knew that I would end up looking someone like you. Someone who I despised from the beginning. A person who's mean to everyone. One who keeps on repelling people. A person who never showed any single sign of affection. Never in a million years I neither thought nor wished that I'd like a person like you. But this is not in my controls. "  More tears start to roll down my eyes as my voice starts breaking. " I like you because of the reasons I myself don't know."It felt like a needle was taken out of my heart. It felt like the heavy load that was pressed on my chest was now gone. I breathed out as deep as I could, sighing at the same time.He squeezed his eyes shut, breathing out as he drags his palms from the sides of his forehead to his jaw. He then shakes his head slowly, taking a step closer to me." Don't kill me like this in silence. Please say something. Curse me, hate me. I know you won't forgive me. You were in hosp-"A warm thumb brushes across my cheek, wing the drop away. I shuddered a little under his touch that o I wasn't able to complete what I was going to say. The warmth felt so comforting like havinga hot chocolate on a winter night. Or going to bed after a long day. It felt great and I never wanted it to stop. His thumb felt like home.I closed my eyes as his thumb gently pressed n my cheek." No one..." He said, making me open my eyes. " No one has ever liked me the way you do."His thumb left my cheek. He steps away, his eyes never leaving mine, the sound of snow getting stepped on became a noise like nails scratching a blackboard." I don't know Dara, i really don't..." He says, as he stares right into my eyes. " I don't know what to say right now."" Then don't say anything and let me talk." I instantly replied. I stepped closer to him, handing him the present that was now stained with tears and snowflakes. I stretch my arms it and as he takes it, I let them flop back down to my sides." I don't want it." He says coldly, pushing it back to me. I pushed it back harder, nudging him a little." That's for you. You can sell it if you want, or you can even throw it in the garbage. I know you hate me. I don't care what you do to it but all I want us to give it to you. "The tears seemed to have dried up from my eyes, and I could feel nothing but a tingling sensation all over my face. " Just....please accept it."He finally takes it with the both of his hands, his eyes full of sorrow and melancholy. " This does not change the fact that I was in the hosp-"" I'm sorry." I say unhesitatingly. " I'm sorry for making you get into an accident. I'm sorry for trying to break into your bubble. I'm sorry that I cared about you. I'm sorry that I cannot stop thinking about you. I'm sorry that.... I'm sorry that I like you."" Dara..." He whispered as he seemed to be out in a trance." I don't even expect you to forgive me, but I just want to let you know how extremely sorry I am. I know you want me to always stay away from you but that will never stop me liking you." I avoided and smiley the same time as a single drop of tear fall from my eyes. " Why do I like someone like you?"" I never asked you to like me." His voice gentle, yet harsh at the same time." I know. But even if I want to stop myself for the both of our sake," I take a deep breath as I wipe my face with both my hands before flashing him one last forced smile as I start to walk away." It's too late now." ♡♡♡