Chapter 7

Seb's pov

I felt warm fingers on my cheek, even in my deep slumber I couldn't help but shiver to the sparks his touch brought and settle into the warmth until he withdraws them and gets up from the bed.

He have stayed on his side as promised not moving an inch from the position he slept in, throughout the night. It hurt to have him close yet not touch him but it might be better to get used to it.

I track his silhouette with my eyes half closed and watch him open the door and exit the room. I close my eyes and open them again to accommodate them to the light. I finally manage to get myself out of the bed after tossing and turning around for an hour. Freshening up before heading downstairs.

Leo is nowhere to be found in the living room or peripheral rooms where he would be visible. The doubt that he might have left immediately dissipates by the series of noises made by utensils in the kitchen.

Upon entering the kitchen, I find Leo looking at the vessels on the floor in horror and rushing to pick them up. I walk up to the mess and bend down to pick one up which makes him look up at me. The sheer panic on his face is evident when he finds me there.

He picks them up all at once before I can even manage to get hold of one.

" I wanted to make you breakfast." He says once everything is settled. "You're okay with pancakes,right? " He asks me, stirring the batter.

" You can cook? " I ask in return.

He just smiles and leans towards me taking me by surprise and he keeps moving closer until his breathe is brushing my neck, my eyes close involuntarily. Only for him to move back picking up something from the shelf behind.

Calm down Seb

" You didn't answer. " He says reminding me of his question while I try to stable my heart rate.

"Yeah. " I answer. But I didn't forget that he haven't answered my question either. I never knew he can cook, he never did when we're in our home but again I never even bothered to ask him about it and just decided he can't. So what's the point of asking about it now anyway.

" You should go and sit at the table, I'll bring these. " He says turning off the flame and I do as I am asked to. Certainly still in the shock of seeing him in kitchen.

He places the plate with a stack of pancakes and a jar of maple syrup and scrambled eggs in another vessel. He signals me to start eating when I catch myself just staring at the dishes. I dish out two pancakes onto my plate and pour some syrup over them. I take my first bite still with a dash of skepticality at the said meal.

The sweetness of the bite diffuses on my tongue and the blueberries in between making it even better, everything in the form of a perfect pancake savours my taste buds.

" Is it okay? "

And It is my turn to just smile and nod because I think he knew it already by the fact that my face probably looks like I am having my first meal after being starved for a while.

When we are halfway done, he decides to speak."I need to head back to the pack. " He says in a cautious manner making my chest ache with disappointment. I look down at the plate, the food going bland all of a sudden.

I finish my meal and walk to the sink to discard the plates as he follows me behind doing the same. I start washing the dishes, not sure what I'd do if I don't occupy myself with something.

He leans on the counter facing ahead, lost in thought as I am. He sighs as he had lost the fight within head and starts getting out of the kitchen. My body halts it's actions with fear. Fear of that one question reeling in the back of my mind.

Is this it?

Maybe this is his threshold, even after witnessing everything on that day,I still hoped it was all a lie. A vile story I made up in my head. I still hoped he'd come to me and tell me it was all a mistake. All I had hoped for is a diligent sorry which would have gotten a instant dispensation from my previous decisions. I still hoped he would choose me.

But no.

And I am not going to end it like this. I am not going to give him the satisfaction of walking away first.

I reach my bedroom with steps as rushed as my thoughts. I open the door to find him picking up his stuff and all the hesitance leaves me and the only right thing I should be doing clear on my mind.

" We need to talk. " I blurt out not wasting a second. He turns around with a baffled expression on his face which turns into one of relief when he realises the salience of it in the situation we are in.

I take two more steps to allow myself further into the room. He takes timid steps towards me but still keeping a commendable distance in between which we both need.

" They're over." I get those words out before the clump in my throat makes me mute altogether. I know it's the most vague way to start but I don't know better.

" What ? " He asks, confusion beaming in his voice.

I can't do this

We have to - Venus speaks with a similar strain in his voice.

I turn around to look at him, his eyebrows are knitted so tightly together and his fist is clasped, something he does when is severely tensed. I want to look into his eyes and know what they said but my courage falls short at it, So I averted them.

" The three months you have asked for, they are over." I repeat,even if it's harder this time.

" What three-- " He raises his voice for the first time only to stop when the realisation hits. His face distorts into something of regret.

When we got to know that we're mates, I only wanted one thing, my mate. But Leo wanted time, which I happily obliged to at that time.

One thing I never asked him is, what it was for. And I don't have to anymore.

"Look! Leo, I feel like I am forcing this on you, you need time--- you need time to figure out your sexuality and I totally respect that but you need to realise we are in this together, I don't see this going anywhere " I stop,the words getting stuck in my throat our relationship. Can I even call it that? Isn't relationship supposed to be something both of us wanted.

" You are not forcing anything on me." Leo says, through his gritted teeth with his voice low. I abondon my thoughts and look up to find his face grim. His eyes look darker than usual, his jaw tight, his eyebrows quirked up as he looks at me making a shiver run down my spine. He moves taking few steps towards me forcing me to take few steps back. My feet halts when I hit desk behind. I hold it with a death grip to avoid myself from falling.

The Leo infront of me is nothing like the guy I know from past months. His soft eyes are long gone replaced with ones that resembled something of a wild beast. His frame towering even more higher as he stood stiff upto his full height. His stature emanating dominance as he looked at me like a predator watching his prey. He looked like the alpha he is.

"That's not--" I gulp when his eyes strike me again, I lower my head in attempts of dodging his gaze. "That's not what I meant."

"Then? " He asks with his tone unwavering.

Goddess! I can't let him take the upper hand here, I can't let him fool me again. I can't. I need to think of something.

" Do you like me? " I ask, meeting his eyes with a new found courage. Something flickers in them, he looks taken aback by the question. His expression going stone cold, as I grow restless by every second.

Something cold claws at my heart making it hard to breathe as I get no answer.I am not imagining this afterall. The lack of interest from his part is due to this. He doesn't even like me. I hate that there's still a part of me that hoped that he'd atleast lie.

" How am I supposed to look forward to a life time with a guy who doesn't even like me? " I ask more quietly this time.

His posture faltered with his head hanging down. His whole alpha demeanor now disappearing by every passing second. Oh! So this a sore topic for him.

I chuckle to myself as now bewilderment reached a certain point where I'm not fazed anymore. Why is he fighting this when he doesn't even like me?

I open my mouth to comment same thing, when he mumbles something.

" What? " The words come harsher than I intended to but I am too gone in my anger to care.

" I do-- I do like you " He says stuttering while looking everywhere but me, as if he is convincing himself rather than telling me.

" You should first convince yourself before saying such things out loud. " I snort as I reply with sarcasm dripping in my tone.

He doesn't say anything to that. So I take it as my sign to go on.

" We don't have to tell everyone just yet. "

He looks at me like I just said something in an alien language he doesn't speak. The statement clearly confusing him more.

" We should-" I stop as a lump forms in my throat, tears welling in my eyes as their own volition. Goddess why is this so hard.

" We should break our bond ". The one sentence I never thought I had to utter dissolving into the air making my body empty as that's only that filled me all this while, which is our bond.

" Take it back." Comes his voice as an order, his face filled with so much grimace, making me wince. I'm nodding my head as no before I can even decide against it, which makes his eyes even darker.

" You don't mean it, take it back. " He orders through his gritted teeth, his alpha demeanor coming back, making my steps falter.

" No "

I step back as he follows takes a few steps forward. As if challenging me go against him. He keeps moving until I am stuck between the wall behind me and him. The proximity forcing me to look at him, his eyes looked like he'd kill me at any moment. A poignant fear rises in my throat making me gulp.

I don't know what he saw in my eyes, his expression changes eventually into something panicky as he tries to regain a sense of the whole scene and something breaks in his eyes as they glisten with tears. He bends down caging me even more by weighing a fraction of his weight on me. He leans on me with his forehead on my shoulder.

" Please don't do this " His voice a mere whisper. I wouldn't have made out the words if he isn't practically leaning on my shoulder.

He sounded so small and shaky breaking my heart further.

I never wanted this for us either

Blinking away the tears, I come up with whatever courage that is left in me to form my next words " It's the right thing for both of us. " The heaviness on my shoulder gradually lessens as he lifts up his head.

He looks at me with the same grimaced look." Why are you even doing this?" He says standing to his full height, suddenly making the rage in his eyes more intimidating." Is this about something I did, what did I even do? "

My resolve breaks, now the torment to tell him everything that went wrong only thing on the foreground.

" It's not about what you did, it's about what you haven't done." I take a moment to regain myself.

"You-- never took us seriously. Do you even know which university I went to until yesterday? did you ever check upon me when I got home late? What did I eat or did I eat anything at all. What are my likes. What makes me angry. You didn't! You never did. Fuck! Everyone calls me Seb even elders from the pack but you- you call me with my full name like I'm a stranger,maybe I am. You have done a great job keeping me at arms length. You never took us seriously and you don't have to anymore. " I am heaving by the time I stopped, my heart rate unsettling. I physically need to stop myself and take a few deep breaths.

" Sebastian I'm- "

" Stop! Just Stop! " I breakdown on the floor closing my ears as tightly as I can. I don't need to hear anything. All the pent up emotions evaporating from me in the form of tears, the hopes I had, the anger at what he did, the regret of loving him and my fears of being betrayed by the one I loved.

He walked closer to where I am on the ground, getting on his knees to  hold me and then everything went blur, his touch making the pain more and my heart numb and there I was, crying in the arms of the man that caused it all.

After what felt like an hour, I came back to my senses, my tears now subdued to small sobs but his hold is something that hasn't changed, he is holding me as tight as he was, his palms rubbing my back in a comforting manner.

I don't need this. His touch suddenly burns from the thought, I shiver in displeasure even though it felt like a sin to reject his touch. My mate's touch. He looks at me as if sensing my discomfort and loosens his hold, I lean my head back to look into his eyes to say my next words.

" Leave me alone. "

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SORRY EVERYONE! THIS ONE TOOK A WHILE. THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT I APPRECIATE EACH AND EVERY ONE. THE NEXT TWO CHAPTERS ARE GOING TO BE UPLOADED TOGETHER, SO STAY TUNED FOR THAT . LOVE Y'ALL