Chapter 1

Seb's pov

"He must be somewhere within the pack lands, I already alerted the northern side." Glen, our beta said into the call, I halted in my steps trying to refocus my senses, giving my sore feet a break from almost walking for an hour.

I looked around in every possible direction in hopes of sight of him which resulted in nothing like all the previous attempts, the thing making the whole situation more alarming is I can't sense him at all, no matter how hard i tried and concentrate on only him, he wasn't there.

"Luna ?" Glen calls me, the title still throwing me off, his voice worried due to my lack of response.

"Did the pack warriors say something about seeing him, where did they see him for the last time?"

"He went to the meeting this morning and texted saying he returned back,but he isn't in the office when I got there, no one from there actually saw him leaving the premises which is quite unusual and he haven't informed anyone about going somewhere. "

"And he left his phone in the office!" I let out a sigh in despair. One thing about him is , he never leaves his phone behind, never ever, he always takes that damn device with him no matter where he goes.

And to make everything thing worse , i can't feel him at all, atleast not the way i would, there's no scent of him even when I'm halfway into the forest where scents are actually the strongest, meaning he must have masked it. My mind can't come up with one coherent thought as to why he would do that.

Unless he doesn't want anyone to find out where he went  - Venus, my wolf adds, speaking for the first time after i started searching. I can feel his patience fading and heart picking up pace by every passing moment, honestly , I know it is the actual truth.

"And why in the world would he want that " I take another deep sigh in frustration. My mate has never been the one for wild things and recklessness, he always have been cautious especially with being surrounded by rival neighbouring packs. He left for a meeting this early morning and should be back by the noon basing on what Glen told me, so he's supposed to be in his office, since he texted Glen saying he's back, but he's nowhere to be found in the office when he got there and in the premises, nowhere in the pack lands.

I looked up at the sky , it is already getting dark. "Ugh" I took few more breaths trying to not let my anxious thoughts get the best of me. This is not the time to let your overthinking take over, you can postpone it to tomorrow's lunch break, now get your shit together and go get our mate - Venus tries to cheer me up, he honestly knows how to handle me in any situation.

I breathe in and breathe out to let my body and brain calm down. My heart almost stops with what I sense with the breathe i took in last.

HIS SCENT

HIS SCENT - Venus also relieves in Joy. Even though he acted all brave to not let me panic, I know how scared, terrified he was deep down at the thought of our mate in danger.

I can smell him, it is very faint but i can still smell him,the earthy scent mixed with a unique minty aroma that only belonged to my mate fills my nerves.

I can sense his smell - i shout into the call not even caring if Glen is still there on the other end. I follow the scent in the direction it leads me, it takes me further into the forest , the scent getting stronger with every step I take, I kept running in that direction with a smile plastered on my face finally relishing in the scent of my mate after many hours. I kept running until I'm almost at the border of pack lands.

I stop in my tracks, my body almost crashing into a tree nearby, looking around, it is almost the end of our territory, I can see the neighbouring pack lands , their buildings and some members making me realise how close I am to it and the dangers of almost entering our enemy's land.

I can't see much as it's really dark in here making me panic more.

Don't panic Seb, you got this! - Venus tries again with his cheering but it doesn't work that well this time,  I look around again to figure out where I actually am until I find a small construction, I walk towards it in hopes of hiding there in case of any danger or finding someone there but instead I am met with the scent of my mate at it's strongest with every step I took towards it.

I realised it's a warehouse when it comes into line of my vision as I'm getting near to it, the exterior of it looks crusty, the walls were cracked and it has many windows, some are without panes, some were broke and hanging. It looked abondened and haunted. So I don't understand why anyone would be here and out of all, why is my mate here.

I don't go near it yet, I stop at the nearest bench like thing to the building to look out for any signs of my mate. I don't want to act stupid and blindly follow the scent, for Goddess knows, whatever reasons it might be a trap set by any of our enemy packs to lure me in, I wait there looking keenly into the place , l  see no signs of him or anyone for that matter. " I'm really starting to think this really is a trap." I hear some muffled noices when I start thinking of going back.

I can't really make out what it is or what they're talking but it sounds like someone yelling loudly but not loud enough to make out the exact words. So I walk towards it a little more until i find a wall to hide behind near the entrance.

"-left me there, like I don't mean anything to you."

I hear a female voice but not one I'm familiar with at all.

I carefully listen to her tone, She doesn't seem like someone from the pack with the way she's speaking, Who is it then and who is she talking to, maybe I should alert them about a possible invasion.I try to peek through the spaces between the panes to figure out who it is but I'm not tall enough.

I try to find something to stand on and luckily enough I find a wooden rack near so I quickly dragged it towards the wall and tried to figure out a way to balance myself and stand on it.

That's when I heard the other voice.

"Do you think I was happy when i found out you are not my mate "

LEO.

IT IS LEO'S VOICE, MY MATE'S VOICE.

I almost felt happy for a fraction of second to have finally found him, which only lasted until my mind makes up the meaning of the words he spoke. The meaning finally settles in making me slip off the thing I was climbing.

Did he— Did he just say-

"Do you think I wasn't sad when I got  someone else as my mate? "

He spoke again, making the meaning of his first sentence clear.

"Do you think I wasn't terrified when things didn't go in the way we thought they would?"

He kept asking her these questions  making the answers more and more clear to me.

" No!, But you have to live with it , that's how life is, you need to underst- ". He kept going, but everything goes muffled in the background when I fall to my knees.

He wanted someone else.

He liked someone else.

He loved someone else.

NO.

He didn't want me.

He didn't like me.

He didn't, He doesn't love me.

Something cold claws at my heart, I open my eyes to everything blur, the tears falling, as my eyes failed to contain them anymore. Small sobs growing into bigger ones, my hands started trembling, soon my whole body following in shaking.

My mate don't love me, I am wrong, He didn't want me in the first place, so loving me is the least thing i should be sad about.

Seb, I don't think that's how it is, I think you just-

" Please Vee" I cut him off , I didn't want to hear it , i didn't want his comforting words , that might convince me to live with the lie that I've been believing for some more time.

My mate doesn't love me and I want to live with it.

Someone who's supposed to love me, protect me and be the other half of me doesn't even want me, but all these days he acted like he did, he did like me, he did want me because he had to.

He was obligated to.

I wanted to laugh at the familiarity of the situation, like it's all happening once again. After I thought I won't ever have to relive it again.

"He doesn't want me either." No, I won't just remain crying this time, I will tell them it's not my fault this time. I will tell them I am not an obligation.

I tried to get up, I want to go grab his collar and ask him why would he do this to me. I want to yell at him, I want to ask him many questions just like he did.

I opened the door, revealing him entirely, but I couldn't take one more step.

As I see him sobbing in her arms.

Just like me.

Somehow it hurted more to see them like this , than all of his questions combined, than all of my thoughts combined. It hurted more.

I just turned around, I don't want to be here for one more second, I don't want to be anywhere near him, I don't want his scent around me anymore. So I ran like I always did.

I ran and ran, I kept running until my legs gave out , my heart threatened to break my ribcage with how fast it's beating. I collapsed to the ground, my whole body going numb but I can still feel my tears that never seemed to stop. I can feel my eyes going blur again, my insides turning. My eyes felt heavy, I let them close.

I can feel everything going black before my wolf takes over.

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I wake up in our bed, I don't remember anything after I passed out, Venus must have took us home. I lie in our bed blankly staring at the ceiling.

Everything that happened felt like a bad dream, a very bad dream. The kind of dream that makes you to not fall back asleep, like never ever. The fear of falling back asleep makes me rub my eyes to feel more awake, instead I feel the wetness of tears making the fact obvious, that it is infact not a dream. Fresh tears form in my eyes.

The sound of someone entering the house startles me. I look at the clock on bedside, it is almost midnight.

Oh! He still has the nerves to come home after spending the evening with his-, whoever that is, I don't even want to know.

I quickly turn to my side pretending to be asleep , I don't want to face him now. I don't want to give him the satisfaction of seeing me cry.

I can hear his footsteps getting closer and closer, they stop and then he opens the door of our bedroom.

His usual earthy scent fills the room but now it is mixed with other scent, making me and my wolf go mad.

Is he going to come near me and hug me? like he always does while he still smells like someone else.

But he doesn't.

I can feel his eyes on me.I want to turn around look at him.

To see if he's smirking looking at me thinking about how he fooled me all this while or smiling, to the memories of his evening with her still fresh on his mind. I want to know.

Then the shower goes on, indicating he has gone straight to the shower.  " " " He has the decency to shower first to get rid of her scent, what a considerate mate" I internally clap to myself.

The sound of the shower goes off interrupting my thoughts and the door of the bathroom is soon opened, I quickly manage to turn around before he sees me.

He rustles through his wardrobe searching for clothes and quickly closes it. And he starts walking towards the bed. My heart beat rises with every step he takes. The other side of the bed dips a little when he sits , he turns around and his hand reaches me first before he hugged me from behind.

My mind goes haywire at his scent engulfing me from everywhere and his touch making the electricity pass through me , finally being able to have him this close after long hours bringing me the comfort my body needed, I almost forget about the previous events, relishing in the hug of my mate, my wolf pushing me to hug him back but I don't.

Suddenly everything comes back to me when my brain starts working again making the hug suffocating. The butterflies I felt earlier are still there but now mixed other feelings.I wanted to take his hand off , move away from his hug , leave the room and leave the house but I can't. So I still lay there letting him hug me until he falls asleep.

I Don't Want To Be Here Anymore.

A/N:A Big Thanks to everyone who clicked on this story and made it through the first chapter, it really means a lot to me that you have spent your precious time reading the story of Seb and Leo, I hope you love them as much as I do. I haven't really decided on a update schedule but I will try to upload a chapter per week. No promises tho/:

Any feedback regarding the writing is always welcome and I wish we can have a healthy space here where we can exchange opinions with no toxicity. Again Love y'all and I'll see you again