chapter 32

Ryan's POV'Huh?' thought Ryan. Mia hugs me and leaves.The whole journey to my house from Angel's house was a bit... wait I mean Mia's house was a bit confused.I didn't understand what Mia meant. I do like spending time with Mia. I mean we have gone out and today too we went out but I thought of it as just friends. I guess that's why I was so comfortable with her. Last time we went to the movies. I really liked it. We laughed, giggled, joked and all but... I don't think that I'm comfortable with the couple thing or us being a couple.I know I had thought of moving on from Angel and to be honest I did. That's the reason I spent more time away from her. But ughhhh I can't believe that this would cause an issue between Mia and my relationship.Having thoughts about all these I reached my home. It was quite late. So I changed and freshened up and sleep.While I laid down on bed, my mind kept lingering on what Mia said tonight.I should probably speak to her. I know I should, I can't let her think that I'm comfortable being us as a couple. If I would want to, then I would love to be with her. But I know that won't be right, neither for me, nor for her. I can't lead her on.I have... at least I try to move on from Angel. But that doesn't mean I'm ready to commit to someone I don't have feelings for, especially in a way which is important for the other person.Yes, that's final. I shall speak to Mia about this and clear it out. I really hope I can do this. She will be heartbroken. It would be very difficult for me to do this as I know how it feels to be loved… one sided.I take a deep sigh and try and fall asleep.The next morning. It’s Sunday.Sunday was just like any other weekend. I got up late, ate brunch and then watched some movie with Rhea and then slept.The next day. MondayI got up at 6 a.m. for school with puffy eyes. I hadn't slept the previous night nor the night before it.The night before I kept thinking about Angel, Mia and I. I thought about everything. Every possible time when I could have said to Angel about my feelings, how Mia and I met and we went out together as friends, how Angel and I were friends and there for each other but... We can't be together. How I tutored Mia. The times we both spend together.The times I spend thinking and imagining stuffs about Angel and I together.The time when she was upset, after the fashion show, or after Viki had threatened her about the past initially. How I used to get crazy every time she kissed Zach...I take a deep breath. After all this, it's hurtful to see that no matter what I do Angel will always be my first love. 💕No matter what, I will always be there for her when she is in trouble. And most importantly, I can't be with someone and be a boyfriend to someone who loves me as I don't reciprocate that love... At least not now... And I don't wish Mia to suffer because of me.She has all the rights to move on. At least she deserves to be happy. One sided love is difficult and I know it's more difficult when the one you love, loves another.But that doesn't mean that I keep leading Mia on. I thought we were just hanging out as friends but now when she said it the other day clearly. I can't and I won't lead her on.It's best for both of us that way. It's best to be hurt before than wait along for years to continue being hurt.Yes, today at the end of the day I will tell her and clear out things.Thinking all about this it became 6:30 a.m. I better get ready for school.At 7:15 a.m. I was ready and I went down for breakfast.Rhea and I, we both had our breakfast and left for school.We reached school and she said she has to meet for some project with some classmate of hers as finals were in few months. And we also had to probably finish our assignments and submit. So she left.I was walking the hallway towards my locker. That's when I saw Angel who had her back to me.I take my books from the locker and then close the locker and walk towards her.“Hey Angel!” I say while I keep my hand on her shoulder for her to turn towards me.She jumps up and is startled and shaken up when she turns to face me.“Ohh, I’m sorry I didn’t mean to startle you.” I said.She quickly puts something in her bag.“It’s ok, I didn’t see you there, anyways so how are you?” she said.‘How am I? Why is she asking this suddenly? And to be honest I don’t know how am I so what will I even answer to her? By the way why is she all stressed out and sweating. She totally looks confused’ I was thinking.“Anyways I will see you later. Bye” she said and turned to leave.I walk towards her and hold her by her shoulder to stop her and said, “Wait. I’m good but how are you?” I ask.“Good. Bye.” She says and leaves again.“Hey wait up!” I quickly hold her hand making her stop from leaving.“Ryan, please leave me. I need to go.” Said Angel“But what’s the hurry?” I ask“It’s nothing, just leave me.” She insists.“Not until you tell me what’s going on?” I say.She takes a deep sigh and was about to say something when someone irritating interrupted us.“Hey man! Hey Babe! What’s up?” came Zach from behind Angel.“It’s nothing, I was just leaving. Bye Zach.” Said Angel and before I could realize that I had left my hand when Zach appeared and she could have said something all this happened and she left.“She seems to be blushing after our date on Saturday and what happened after that was just amazing.” Said Zach.“Date? What happened there?” I asked.“You know… what usually happens after a kiss between couples. We did it that night.” Said Zach while smirking.I was boiling inside at this moment, my fist were curved almost if he said something next I would probably smash him down.But to look normal I continued our talk…“You did that night?” I asked“Well, almost… her weird little sister barged in without knocking and I had to leave, but I sure enjoyed what I saw and felt.” Said Zach.And I smashed his face as he completed his sentence…. Well that’s what I did in my mind at least. It is natural I would have done this… due to two major reasons, one obviously because of Angel and second, how could he call my princess as her weird little sister. ‘Ugh he is really lucky I tell you’In reality, he was lucky the bell rang or else what happened inside my mind would have been his nightmare or maybe daymare.We both left for our classes then.After our classes it was break time.I go in towards the cafeteria and see everyone sitting together.Rhea and max were hitting it off with each other and so were Leah and Leo for first time they weren’t fighting.Lucas and Zach were talking.Mia was eagerly waiting for me and when she saw me come in, she smiled brightly and waved at me. It was hurtful to see her like that, by the end of the day I will have to clear out things with her.As far as Angel is concerned, she was quietly sitting and eating her food, again for the first time. I knew something was wrong.I kept thinking about what Zach said, could it be because of that or is it something else?Whatever it may be I’m supposed to find out in any case.I then go and sit in between Angel and Mia as that was the seat available for me.It was weird sitting in between them.The bell rang and Angel and I both had the same class.She got up to leave and I quickly followed her. She was behaving strangely that day since morning.“Angel wait up! What’s the hurry? Are you avoiding me or is it something else?” I asked her while grabbing her hand so she could stop.“It’s nothing” she said.I take a deep sigh and stare at her in disappointment.She looks back with a blank expression.“Angel I know you very well, so speak up” I sayShe now looks disappointed and says, “Fine, but not now, I will tell you after our class, for now let’s go.” She said and I agreed and we left for class.After 2 and a half hours of boring lecture, worried and impatient me couldn’t wait anymore.After everyone left, the students as well as the teachers, we two were alone in the class.I had messaged Mia to wait up for me after her class which would get over after another haft an hour. So I had enough time to talk to Angel.“To be honest Ryan it’s nothing, trust me” Angel said.“I do trust you, but not the way you’re behaving. I know for surety that something is wrong. Is it about you and Zach?” I ask.“Zach and me? What do you mean?” she asked.“He told me about what happened on Saturday night. I just want to know if you’re comfortable with it, as a friend of course and that it wasn’t forceful as you have been acting weird lately around Zach and me.” I say.She is silent for a few seconds and then says, “It’s not about Zach at the moment. And he shouldn’t have told you this, but whatever… I would want that to be between Zach and I just the way you and Mia as a couple wouldn’t share things with me would you?” she said.I went blank again, ‘I mean what’s wrong with people? Why do you think if a guy and a girl go out for movies or dinner it means a date and they are a couple? And seriously angel sees me with her but it doesn’t make any difference to her, it’s so painful to see that she can’t see my love for her…’ I thought to myself.Anyways I just wanted to clear this confusion she had even though it is pointless having this conversation.“Mia and I aren’t a couple, we aren’t dating.” I say to her.Her sulking face suddenly had a glow and spark.“What?” she asked.“Yes, but I’m not here to discuss about Mia and me, we are here to discuss about you and your worry. So speak up.” I say.“Fine, it’s about this…” she says while removing something from her purse.She hands me over a sheet of paper which was folded.I take a look at it and felt weird.It was a letter.The words seemed strange and no doubt Angel was worried while looking at it and so was I.I asked her, “Where did you get this? And who gave it to you?”She said, “It was in my locker today in the morning. When I opened it, it fell and I saw what was written in it and was confused and worried.”The letter read:“Hmm I don’t know who has sent this. But we will figure it out don’t worry. It is signed by M, do we know anyone by that?” I ask.“Mia” she says.“Hmm, but if she wanted to say something like this she would have directly said it.” I say.“I don’t know I just have been worried by the words, I don’t know who they mean about and who would have written such a thing.” She says.“Listen don’t worry about that now, we will figure it out later, and just let me know if you get anything like this ever again.” I say.“Alright! Thanks Ryan for always being there for me.” She says and hugs me.I just smile and hug her back.It was time now for my conversation with Mia which won’t be easy for us.I say bye to Angel and she leaves too and I go to the courtyard.I stood there for few minutes until someone came and hugged me from back and I was startled.It was Mia.“Hey Ryan! Sorry for coming late. And thanks for waiting for me” she said while blushing.“Uh…no problem…it’s just… I wanted to talk to you.” I say. Hey guys!!! So who sent the note? Who is M? Is it Mia or someone else? How will the conversation go between Mia and Ryan? Stay tuned to find more drama.Do like, share and comment… I do read all the comments and really feel nice when you guys reply.P.S – Thank you all for all your love and support till now. It means a lot and keeps me motivated. I keep re – reading all the comments. So thanks to you all :)Â