Chapter 20

G R A Y S O N

Today was the day Jean and I would be going back to America. France was absolutely amazing but I was kind of getting a little home sick, even though there is nothing but horrible memories back home.

Our bags were packed and we were saying good bye.

Violetta gave me a huge hug. Closer to the end of the week we had been hanging out a little bit more. She actually took me out to go shopping, which was surprisingly really fun.

"I hope I will see you soon." She squeezed me tight.

"I'm sure I will, and even if I can't I will call you." I smiled.

"Your too sweet Grayson." She smiled.

I shook Basile and Célian's hands and said good bye.

Last was Charlotte. She gave me a hug and whispered to me, "Call me when ever you need a mother to talk to." That thought, knowing that I have some one who can be a motherly figure to me, warmed my heart.

"Thank you." I smiled and she lightly kissed my cheek as she pulled away.

Jean said his good byes and we were headed for the private jet.

When we got in the jet I sat beside Jean and pulled out my phone.

I hadn't used it, only to take a few pictures. I had hadn't checked my messages so when I opened my phone I saw that Katherine had blown up my phone.

I smiled and put my phone in my pocket, I will worry about her later. I leaned on Jean's shoulder and let out a sigh.

"Are you happy to be going home?" He asked me.

"Yeah, I was starting to get a little home sick for reasons unknown. All my memories there are horrible. But I think I will miss your mom the most." I smiled up at him.

"She is an amazing woman. And you know you can call her when you need her. She see loves talking to you." He kissed my cheek and I smiled.

My eyes became heavy but I wouldn't go to sleep and Jean chuckled, "Go to sleep love."

I let out a small yawn and nodded, snuggling into his side.

***

I woke when we had landed, Jean lightly shook me awake.

"We are home love." He smiled.

I smiled up and him and slowly stretched, waking up my muscles. I got up and Jean walked me to the limo and I nearly feel asleep in the limo. I had no idea why I was so tired.

"I have to go to work tomorrow." I groaned as we walked in the house. Charlie running up to greet us.

The other men brought our luggage in the house and I collapsed on the couch, Charlie crawling up and sitting in my lap. Jean sat down beside.

"It's not so bad." Jean said, "And besides if you really wanted to, you could quit. You don't have to have a job as long as you live with me." He smiled.

I seriously thought about it for a good couple of seconds then I let it go and shook my head, looking him in the eyes, "I like making my own money though. I like being in control at least of my money." I smiled at him and he kissed me.

"Your so smart." He said pulling away. But I wanted his lips back on mine.

I heard a door closed and jumped slightly. It was the front door, I had almost forgotten that they men brought in our bags.

I looked back to Jean and placed my hand on the back of his neck, pulling his lips to mine. His lips were so sweet and in that moment I felt like I couldn't get enough of them.

I pushed Charlie off of my lap, she didn't make a sound but I had a feeling she would be giving me a deadly glare if I looked at her.

I climbed on top of Jean and wrapped my legs around him. His hands went to my back, holding me close.

My hands ran through his hair, pulling it slightly as Jean slowly began pulling my shirt up. I pulled away enough for him to slide it off of my head and then my lips found his again as I steadily began to unbutton his shirt.

I unbuttoned it and managed to get it off with out breaking apart our lips.

My hands now traveled down his abs, tracing every one. His hands slid down to my butt. He wrapped both his hands around my ass and gave it a tight sqeeze. I gasped slightly, feeling him grow hard beneath me.

He pulled away slightly, our breathing heavy, "Do you want to go to the bedroom?" He asked between pants.

I nodded before even realizing what I was agreeing to.

I knew I loved him and that I wouldn't want to be doing this with anyone else but I didn't know if I was ready.

He stood up and walked up the stairs, my head on his bare chest as I thought.

I had so many flaws, so many scars that tainted my body. Was I ready to show them all, let him see every part of my body that I hated so much.

We had made it to the bedroom and he sat me on the bed. He climbed ontop of me and placed steamy kisses on my neck and down my jaw. He reached my lips with a passionate kiss.

His hands went to my pants. He was about to unbutton them but I stopped him. It took everything in me to pull away from the amazing kiss and shake my head.

I closed my eyes tight, trying to keep in all the emotions that I held. Sadness, anger, regret.

Sadness because I was too ashamed of my body to let him see. Anger because my damned father had made me this way. And Regret because I didn't let him continue.

"What's wrong?" He asked, concern filling his voice. I felt tears form in my eyes so I refused to open them and see his face. I didn't trust my words in fear of breaking down.

"Grayson. Did I do something? Did I hurt you?" He asked, now sounding worried.

I shook my head, trusting my voice enough to speak, "You didn't hurt me. I just can't do this, not now. I can't let you see everything, you would hate me." I managed to say as tears fell from the corners of my eyes.

I refused to open my eyes and see his face, "Grayson look at me." He said kindly but I could still hear authority leaking in his words. I opened my eyes and saw that his face was soft but his eyes were serious, "I could never hate you, don't ever, ever think that again. I love you Grayson, not a thing in the world can change that."

More tears fell at his kind words, "But my scars." I said lightly, "There hideous." I let out a quiet sob.

"They mean nothing to me, all I see is what is on the inside. I see a beautiful soul, tainted with fear of rejection." He said softly and kissed my tears away.

He laid down beside me and held me close, "I'm sorry for going so fast, I knew you weren't ready, I just couldn't help myself." He appologized.

"It's okay." I said lightly, "I got carried away."

Jean kissed the top of my head, "I love you." I said in a whisper.

"I love you too." He said, rubbing my back gently.

I don't know if we laid like that for an hour or ten but it was perfect and I fell asleep like that.

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