Breakups

Selena’s POV

I woke up and all of yesterdays events came flashing back. The stupid dance between Colton and Emily and the time with Adam.

I’m sick and tired of being Colton’s girlfriend. There is no love, just hatred and abuse. I couldn’t care less about the sex tape. I have reached a point where I can’t keep hurting myself. I need to stop crying over Colton because he is no longer worth it.

Colton has never been there for me at all. In my darkest hours he ran away with me and came back to me once I was fine again. Every time I used to stay at his house and had my nightmares he would get pissed off and drop me off home straight away. He never comforted me and called me a freak. How could I possibly still have feelings for a guy like that.

I’m going to break up with him. I just can’t keep doing this.

I rolled out of my bed and went to open my curtains. I opened my curtains and saw Adam.

Shirtless.

His eyes were squinting, he probably just got up. I couldn’t help but look at his toned stomach, his 8 packs were on display, his V was showing and his skin looked so tan like he had been laying under the sun.

“Like what you see” He gave his signature smirk and raised his eyebrows at me.

“You wish” I stuck my tongue at me.

“Don’t need to wish, I already know” This guy is way too big headed and cocky.

I rolled my eyes at him and did my curtains.

I quickly turned around and got ready for the day.

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It was lunch and I was looking for Colton.

I saw him walking past his locker.

“Colton” I shouted his name and he came towards me and picked me up. Quit the act already Colton.

“How are you baby” He disgusted me.

“Listen I need to talk to you about something important” It was now or never.

“Can we talk about this after school, I really need to take a test I missed it so now I have to makeup for it” Ughhhh why?

“Okay fine, I’ll speak to you later”

“Meet me in the parking lot after school and we’ll talk, bye baby” he kissed my head and ran off.

I went into the canteen no longer in a mood to eat.

I was walking past Emily’s table and I saw Adam walking past with one of the cheerleaders. His hair was everywhere and he had lipstick on his face. So nasty. He gave me a weird look and walked off. Did he look guilty or was it just me.

I sat at the table to see everyone talking about Jacobs party.

“Lena, you coming to my party?”

“No sorry, I have homework and I’m not really the party type” I hated parties, it was full of gross hormonal teenagers who just go out of control.

Everyone started shouting at the table.

“You are coming you have no choice all of us are going, even Cole is coming” The way Chloe spoke to me meant I had no choice.

“Cole you too, why. I thought you were on my side.” I turned to look at Cole who shrugged his shoulders. I gave him a dirty look.

“Quit being so dramatic Selena”

“Seriously Ash your calling me dramatic”

“Yes I am, you need to grow up” He spoke to me as if I was child who did something wrong.

“Fine, I hate you guys, but I’m only staying for a bit” They knew I was going to give in anyways.

“We love you too Lena baby”

“Seriously Chloe”

The bell went off and I had maths. Cole was also in my maths. The other 4 were also but they stopped coming. Don’t blame them.

“Get up Cole, we have maths” I grabbed his hand and started walking to class.

On the way we saw Adam coming out of a class with his bimbo, she looked a mess so did he. Cole shot a disgusted look at him. Adam looked at our hands and looked angry. What’s his problem.

“Cole lets go” I did not have time for this we were going to get late, I looked at Adam feeling awkward. So I walked off with Cole.

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I was waiting for him in the parking lot and everyone had gone home by now so I went and stood near Colton’s car.

I was getting really nervous about this. I didn’t know how he will react. I’m so scared, but I had to end this relationship, its way to toxic.

I saw him coming towards me. The closer he got I saw lipstick marks on his neck.

He tried to hug me but I stopped him.

“Why do you have lipstick marks on your shirt” I looked at him and his gaze never met mine.

“I was doing my test, its probably pen marks” Liar. I gave him a ‘I know your lying look’.

“Forget that...I’m just gonna say it. Colton, I think that this relationship isn’t working like we tried but it just doesn’t feel right”

“What do you mean, Lena you can’t just break up with me I love you.” He tried to touch me but I pushed his hands away.

“Colton, no you don’t. If you did you wouldn’t go around kissing other girls, doing what you did with Emily, you think I don’t notice these things but I do. Colton there is no affection, love or care left in this relationship. There are no feelings and you know that”

“Is this about yesterday, that was a performance.” He started to shout at me.

“No this isn’t just about yesterday, this is about everything, you hit me, you abuse me Colton. No person who ‘loves’ someone will hit them like you do to me. You hurt me Colton and I never did anything about it” I tried not to cry but the tears came out. They were tears of my anger.

“Don’t you fucking say I hurt you, everything I did was because I loved you. How the fuck can you say they aren’t any feelings. They are still there just like the first time we met.”

“Colton...the feelings we had when we first met are long gone. Nothing is the same” I felt my voice crack.

“Stop fucking say that. I care for you I have always been there for you in your darkest moments. I love you and you love me. You have no right to fucking end this relationship.”

“Colton stop lying, you have never been there for me. When I was in my dark moments you would leave me at my house. You wouldn’t even text me to check me. You called me a freak. I have no control over things like my nightmares. But the fact that you left me alone and then came back when I was fine again hurt me Colton. You made me feel so worthless.”

He came forward to touch me but I pushed him back.

“Colton stop....please”

“Don’t fucking say that I left you. You are the one being a fucking whore. I see how you act with that Adam and Cole, all over them you fucking whore. I notice everything but I don’t say anything. You are a worthless bitch with no fucking shame and self respect.”

His words cut me like a knife, they made my heart ache.

“Are you kidding me Colton, they are just friends. Don’t turn this on me. You have not stayed loyal to me. I gave you a second chance, despite the fact that you cheated on me. But then I see you with Emily. If you want her so bad go, I’m not stopping you because we are over”

I turned around to walk away, only to have Colton pull my hair. He turned my head around and slapped me hard across my cheek. Tears were spilling out of my eyes .

“Let go off me, you sick fuck” This angered him even more and he punched me on my face. I could feel a piercing pain. His ring had cut me.

“You little bitch listen to me, you can’t leave me I have the fucking sex tape and I will expose you for being the whore you are, you have no choice” He started to pull my hair even harder.

“I don’t care about the tape any longer, you can show everyone, I DON’T CARE” I tried to get out of his grip.

“Your going to regret breaking up with me you fucking whore”

He started to slap me, he pushed me to the ground and kicked me in the stomach multiple times. I could feel bruises forming.

“Stop Colton, your hurting me.....Someone help me” I tried to shout for help but he kicked my mouth.

“No is here to save you, you’re a pathetic little bitch. You deserve much more than this”

He grabbed a fistful of my hair and yanked it so hard, my hair felt like they were being ripped out of my skull.

“Your going to regret this you fucking bitch” He pushed me away from me in such force that I fell to the ground. I saw him take off in his car.

I got up and slowly made my way home. My legs hurt but I made it. When I got home, I was relieved that no-one was home. I went into my room and lay on my bed crying.

I was happy that I longer was tied to that monster, but I was scared. His words kept ringing through my head “fucking whore”.

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I had put ice over my bruises and the swelling went down, it wasn’t very noticeable if I had makeup on.

I went downstairs for dinner, I covered up all the bruises with makeup so my brothers wouldn’t see them. We all sat around the table and started to eat. I wanted to tell them but I waited until they finished eating. I didn’t eat much because I was so confused on the inside about everything.

I washed up all the dishes and went into the living room and thankfully all the boys were there. I sat alone on the other side because I was scared of their reaction.

“Guys I have something to say” All of them turned towards me.

“Your not pregnant are you” Josh was the first to speak

All their faces fell and they looked like they were going to kill someone.

“NO JOSH” all of the boys started to shout at him. “The fuck dude” “Fucktard”

“Well, um...today... I broke up with Colton” I looked at all of them and they all had little smirks on their face’s. What the hell.

“Did he do anything to you” Blake looked at me and asked me. I couldn’t lie to him but I did.

“No, it just didn’t feel right, I feel like he isn’t the one for me....”

All of the boys stood up and came to me. I got up too, we all had a group hug.

“Baby sis, if you need anything we are here, you’ll make it through this break up, none of us even liked him so we are happy” Well then...glad Ben was honest.

“I love you guys”

“We love you too lil sis” John finally spoke, I was worried about his reaction more.

“Well I’m going to go upstairs, shower, do homework and go bed”

“Goodnight” All of the boys said it at once.

I was walking up the stairs and I heard the all say “Yes” I turned to look and they all avoided eye contact and walked off. Weird much.

I was so glad to be up in my room. I went straight into the shower and let the hot water burn my aching skin. I got out of the shower and got changed. I could see so many bruises on my arms, legs and especially on my stomach. My face was a whole different story. I had a cut where his ring had dug in my face. My face was starting to swell up again. This was all my fault I could have put a stop to this earlier but now I have I’m glad.

I went and sat on my window seat. The moon was shining bright and it looked so beautiful.

Colton was my first love and it hurt my heart. I still remember how I fell for him. I was around 15/16 and everything seemed so perfect, we were perfect. He seemed like he was the one. But now I have realised there is so much more in this world. You can’t force love, if its meant to be it will be and I tried to maintain a relationship which wasn’t meant to be.

I don’t even know if I was love with him or if I was in love with the feeling.

I was so stupid for giving him a second chance. I should have known that if he could have done it once he could do it again. I fell asleep on my window with tears rolling down.