: Chapter 9
Fury Frayed
When he saw me, Fenris straightened away from the wall and ran a hand through his already mussed hair, a look of guilt on his unusually serious face.
âIâm sorry about Aubrey,â he said.
The door closed behind me. Apparently Adira didnât much care about our drama.
âDonât sweat it. Eliana told me about your mate run thingy. Are you considering Aubrey?â
âNot if I can help it.â
âThen, why donât you tell her that?â We stayed where we were in a quiet corridor without other students.
âIâve tried. You saw how she treats the others. Itâs worse when she doesnât think she has a chance.â
Heâd just given me more reason not to like her. I hated bullies.
âIs that why she has a problem with me? She thinks I threaten that chance?â
âShe knows I hung out with you and that Iâd like to do it again.â
As much as I liked the idea of continuing to piss Aubrey off by just existing, because it was nice to know someone else lived in my hell, I didnât want to lead Fenris on.
âLook, I like hanging out with you, Fenris, butââ
âAubrey wonât be a problem. I have a plan to keep her distracted this time.â
âUm, thatâs not what I was going to say.â
The bell rang.
âWeâll talk about this tonight. Okay? Iâll swing by your place after school. Elianaâs taking you home, right?â
âYeah.â
âPerfect. Iâll catch you later.â
He turned on his heel and jogged down the hall to the stairs.
Wondering why Iâd been crazy enough to want to come to school, I followed. Slowly. When I reached the end of the hall, Oanen stood there. His expression wasnât neutral this time. Disapproval tugged at his brow and lips.
âWhatâd I do now?â
âYouâre late for your first session.â
âI know. Iâm going.â I grabbed the railing, intending to start up the stairs. His hand closed over mine. The heat of his skin distracted me.
âDo you even know where youâre supposed to be?â he asked.
I pulled my hand out from under his.
âSecond floor. First hall. Third door on the right.â
âNo. Principles of Human Integration is your second session. Introduction to Self-Discovery is your first session. Iâll walk you there.â
I rolled my eyes and gestured for him to lead the way. Instead of taking the steps up, he turned and went down the wide hall that Adira first showed me and stopped at the second door.
âThis is it. Iâll see you in Lucasâs session.â
âYou mean you donât have this one?â
He studied me for a second.
âI already know what I am,â he said quietly.
âSo this class is about figuring out what I am?â
âI donât know. Never had to take it.â
âWhy do you know my schedule?â
âBecause I knew you wouldnât.â He turned and walked away, leaving me at the door.
I stared after him a moment, wondering what his deal was. Was he really like this with all the girls or was I getting special treatment because of my association with Eliana?
Pulling my gaze from the view of his retreating backside, I entered the room and interrupted a woman mid-sentence.
âMegan,â she said. âIâm LuAnn. Come in and take a seat. Adira said youâd be joining us today.â
I looked at the students and immediately saw Elianaâs smiling face and the empty seat beside her.
After almost ninety minutes, I understood that Self-Discovery wouldnât give me a straight up answer about what I might be. Instead, it was just like it said. Meditative self-discovery crap.
With a promise to find me during our lunch break, Eliana said goodbye in the hall. In the crush of bodies, I kept my eyes on the floor and found my way to Lucasâs Principles of Public Integration session without incident.
Most of the desks were empty, except the group at the front. I openly smirked at Aubreyâs dirty sundress. She scowled at me. Ignoring her, I winked at Fenris. The soft rumble of her growl filled the room. Satisfied, I took my seat and waited for the bell to ring.
âWhy must you purposely annoy her?â Oanen asked from beside me.
âAccording to Adira, pissing people off is my superpower.â
âDonât you take anything seriously?â
I thought about it.
âNot really. That must be another superpower.â
He exhaled slowly and sat back in his chair, not talking to me again until the bell rang ten minutes before eleven.
âIâll walk with you to the cafeteria,â he said, standing.
It wasnât an offer; it was an order. Oddly, though, it didnât annoy me. I had no idea where the cafeteria was anyway.
âOk. Eliana said sheâd meet up with me there.â
We stepped out into the chaos. Only, this time, I didnât have to hug the walls and avoid eye contact. With Oanen beside me, people moved out of the way. Even Finnegan nodded to Oanen and gave him wide berth.
I glanced at the guy beside me, wondering what hold he had over everyone. It couldnât just be his incredibly good looks because his hold wasnât only on the students. The faculty all treated him with respect, too. Instructors nodded to Oanen when they passed him in the halls. And, when we reached the cafeteria on the ground floor, the lunch lady gave Oanen a wider smile and an extra helping of grilled trout and fried greens. She offered me the same because I was with him, but I politely declined. Iâd have enough trouble finishing what was already on my tray.
Turning away from the extremely bland but nutritionally packed lunch line, I spotted Eliana already at a table. She waved at me, and I quickly started across the crowded room.
Mid-way, my temper flared. I froze, the tray dropping from my stiff fingers. Sniggers erupted around me. I clenched my fists and started to turn, already feeling the location of the object of my rage.
Before even seeing the person, arms wrapped around me.
âI donât think so,â Oanen said. He lifted me off my feet and strode toward the side door. As soon as the door closed, I felt fine.
âWas it Aubrey?â I asked. âI could have taken her.â
Oanen set me on my feet, his head bent as he looked down at me disapprovingly.
âSorry to disappoint you, but Fenris and his followers always go for a run at lunch.â
âI liked you better when you were still trying to figure me out and didnât scowl at me all the time,â I said.
The door opened, and Eliana rushed out.
âAre you okay? Do you want a hug?â
âIâm fine. A hug isnât necessary.â Did she think I was embarrassed over dropping my tray?
âBecause, I could, you know, take some of that anger, if you wanted.â
âOh! Sure. Hug away.â I opened my arms, and she shyly wrapped her arms around my torso and laid her head on my shoulder.
Elianaâs hugs rocked. The anger lingering inside me immediately melted away, leaving me with an uncommon mellowness. It felt weird but oh so nice. Knowing I had Eliana to thank for this new feeling, I hugged her in return. The embrace turned into more of a snuggle, but I didnât care.
âI think thatâs enough, Eliana. Sheâs starting to smile,â Oanen said from beside us.
I was, and realizing it made me smile more.
âYou have my permission to hug me anytime I look like Iâm going to lose my temper,â I said before Oanen pried me off of her.
âOnly if Iâm not around to stop the fight myself,â he said. âStay here, and Iâll get you a new lunch. Weâll eat outside.â
Again with the bossiness. I stared after him, noticing the way his shirt hugged his shoulders and the way his jeans rode low on the curve of his tightâ
âCan I come over and talk to you tonight?â Eliana asked, interrupting my thoughts.
I wrinkled my nose.
âIâd say yes, but Fenris is coming over. He and I need to talk.â
âOh?â she said with a teasing grin.
âNot that kind of talk. Although I enjoy doing anything that will piss off Aubrey, I donât want to lead Fenris on. Iâm not healthy for a relationship. Especially one of my own.â
Her playful smile fell, and she looked at me rather sadly. Before she could say anything more, Oanen returned with two trays, and we finished our lunch period in relative quiet.
My second and third sessions, General Living Skills and Advanced Human Studies, were a joke. The fight that I almost caused during the free time between the two sessions was just as sad. I didnât land a single decent punch thanks to Oanen.
Eliana met me in the hall after Advanced Human Studies, which was on the third floor.
âOanenâs already on the roof. He told me to tell you, no fighting.â
I rolled my eyes and followed her down the stairs. No one moved out of the way for us this time.
âWhat gives? When Oanenâs with us, everyone moves. When heâs gone, people try to push us into the walls.â
One of the passersby snorted and kept going. Eliana didnât say anything, but I caught her smirky grin.
Outside, people mingled by their cars. Fenris stood near the sporty red car heâd arrived in while talking animatedly with Aubrey. She caught me looking, and I blew her a kiss. Before she could take a step in my direction, Fenris grabbed her arm and pulled her toward their car.
That same eagle cry weâd heard on the way to school echoed around the parking lot.
âWe better get going,â Eliana said.
I glanced at the top of the building and saw Oanen perched there. His golden gaze pinned me.
âNo one likes a bully, Oanen,â I said softly. âI should know.â
I got into the car and buckled up. A shadow fell over the hood, circling.
âIs he always like this?â I asked. âHow has he not smothered you, yet?â
Eliana shrugged as she backed out of her spot.
âDo you think youâll come in tomorrow?â she asked.
âNot if I can help it. I thought I missed people, but today reminded me why Iâm better off at home, reading the notes and watching the videos. Why do you go?â
âI didnât, but Adira talked to Mr. and Mrs. Quill and told them it would be in my best interest to attend.â
âMr. and Mrs. Quill?â
âOanenâs mom and dad. My guardians.â
âAnd has it helped?â
âNot really.â She glanced up at the sky then took the turn out of the Academy.
For the rest of the drive, neither of us spoke. When Eliana pulled up in front of the house, I thanked her for the ride.
âLet me know if you want company tomorrow after school,â she said before she drove away.
I waved then looked up at the sky for Oanen, but heâd disappeared.
A single day of school should have cured me of my boredom; yet, now that I was home, loneliness surged again. Probably because Iâd found someone I actually liked. Not just Eliana, either. Oanen, too, even though he could lighten up a little. And Fenris. I sighed, thinking of him and the upcoming talk. Usually I liked making people cry.
Shaking my head, I walked around to the back and let myself in.
Over an hour later, Fenris knocked on my front door. With a smile, I welcomed him and waved him to a seat in the living room.
âAs promised, Aubrey is conveniently distracted,â he said with a small bow.
I chuckled, unable to help myself.
âGood to know. Is that why she came here? Because sheâd found out that you took me to town?â
âYeah. Even over the stink of the exhaust from that old car, she caught your scent when she saw me. Our noses are a pain in the ass sometimes.â
We sat on the couch, and I turned toward him. He continued to watch me with that open, attentive look he gave everyone.
âFenris, I need to be straight with you. Iâm not interested in being anyoneâs girlfriend. My life is too complicated.â I shook my head. âMy issues have issues. Iâm more likely to spontaneously hit you than kiss you. Hanging out like this, although really awesome for me, is just going to cause you more trouble.â
He grinned a smile that would have melted the coldest girlâs heart.
âYouâre adorable, and that is my favorite rejection, by far.â
I rolled my eyes. âLike anyone ever rejects you.â
âYouâd be surprised,â he said with increasing seriousness. âWhat did Eliana tell you about the mate run?â
âNot much really. Just that, like most teenage boys, your hormones will get the best of you; but whatever willing girl you find yourself with, whenever that magical moment occurs, youâre stuck with for life.â
âWilling? She doesnât know as much as Iâd thought.â
âWilling was my addition. Would you actually force someone?â
âNo. I hope not.â He rubbed his hand over the back of his neck, his frustration clear. âFor us males, when our biological clock goes off, weâre a slave to our instincts. Or, so my father has told me. The first female we smell, we want, and we tend to chase her down. Thatâs the mate run. Chasing her until she stops and gives in. My father says itâs a playful chase.â He exhaled slowly.
âSo Aubrey is sticking to your side in hopes that your clock will go off when sheâs near, so you can playfully chase her down, have your way with her, and make her your wife for life.â I gave him a sympathetic look. âThatâs rough.â
âNot just Aubrey but all the rest of the girls in my pack who are around my age.â
âArenât there any other guys?â
He shrugged and sighed.
âThank you for being honest about not being interested in me. Iâd still like to hang out, though, if you donât mind the occasional evil eye from Aubrey.â
âI think I can handle that.â
He looked toward the foyer a second before someone pounded on the door.
âBe right back,â I said, already moving to answer.
I opened the door to Oanen. Bare-chested with jeans riding low on his hips, he stood barefoot on my porch. Sweat glistened on his chest, right between his pectorals. I licked my lips and tried not to stare.
âOanen?â
His gaze barely swept over me before settling on something over my shoulder. I glanced back at Fenris.
âSheâs on her way here,â Oanen said. I knew he meant Aubrey when Fenris groaned.
Fenris looked at me apologetically.
âIâm sorry.â He stepped in and hugged me, breathing deeply next to my hair.
It didnât quite feel like a platonic hug. Awkwardly, I hugged him back.
âYou know sheâll smell you on her,â Oanen said. âKnock it off.â
When Fenris pulled away, his pupils looked a little too dilated, like he was high or something.
âIâll see you soon,â he said. He leaned in once more to smell my hair then slipped past Oanen and jogged to his car.
Fenris quickly peeled off down the road.
âCan I come in?â Oanen asked.
âSure.â I motioned to the kitchen and closed the door behind him.
Instead of going to the kitchen, he went to the living room and sat on the couch. A position he kept just long enough to eye the length of his chosen seat before he lay down on it. His feet rested on one arm and his head, the other.
âOkay. Make yourself at home.â
He stood and strode toward me. Before I knew what he had planned, he pulled me into his arms and buried his nose in my hair. Having Oanen do what Fenris had just done shocked the hell out of me. Oanenâs hands smoothed over my back, pulling me firmly against his front, and I shivered at the full body contact. This was nothing like what Fenris had done.
Just as soon as Oanen had hugged me, he released me.
While I still reeled from having that bare, chiseled chest pressed against me, he strode outside, leaving the door wide open. The sound of a car pulling up in front drew my attention. Oanen stood on the shoulder of the road, shaking his head at the slowing, shiny red car.
Anger bubbled up inside me at the sight of Aubrey. I fisted my hands, ready for her to try something. She didnât stop, though. At seeing Oanen, she continued by.
Oanen waited until Aubrey was out of sight then looked back at me.
âBehave, Megan.â He walked into the pines and took flight not long afterward.
I closed the door and leaned my head against the panel.
âMonday from hell,â I whispered.