46. When nothing empty, vacants more.

ROOHI.

"Wha-What...Do...y-you mean? " He asked me while he was astonished.

And Rudram came inside.

"He -" I stopped in the middle as I couldn't bring myself to talk.

"Naanu just be fine for now. I will talk about everything with you later." I said wanting not to put the burden on him.

"Whatever decision you make. It's on you. I won't say in your choice. But always remember once a person mistakes him step, it won't take lot from him to take misstep forever. " He said to me as I nodded.

"And Naanu, if he saves himself from that misstep. He will forever keep eyes on his way. " I said and he smiled.

"You know it. That's all I want." He groaned in pain and said to me. Believing that I won't make wrong choices again.

~

I was standing at the window. My eyes were out but my mind was blank. I heard my phone ringing and I picked It up.

"Hello?"

"Ma'am we failed again. All the test didn't matched. " The caller said as I squished my eyes in dissapointment and a tear rolled down my eyes.

"Don't waste time though go and look other places." I said to the man and he cut the call.

I went towards my desk and saw the calender I had.

Day26 I read and cut it with the red pen.

Today another failure day went away. And I couldn't do anything to save him. Couldn't find anything to save him.

Why in not anything. But I'm failing at here.

The door opened as I saw the person. I wiped my tears and looked at him trying to smile.

He have drained out of color and life. His entire skin is shadowed with black color and his hand were half his usual. His smile was full but dull and his shoulders shrunk. As his body filled empty.

I went to him and hugged him.

"How are you feeling now?" I asked him as he pulled me out of the hug.

"I have told you stop asking me that question again and again.

I'm more more than fine." He said as I nodded.

"Let's go. " he said and I raised my eyesbrow.

"Where?"  I asked him as he looked at me with sweet eyes.

"We will see. "

"No let's just stay here na... Please. You will get more tired if we will roam around. "

"I won't." He said and I looked at him with quitting face. But he won't listen to me. So I just started to leave with him. He took me out.

"Lets go in car." I said as he shooked his head.

I ruined his company. I don't know if I should feel guilty or not.

"No we have to walk for it." He said as I nodded and slid my hand in his and looked at him.

"Okay. " And we started to walk out of the office gate to somewhere. We started to walk. As he looked at me with a smile and kept staring as I yelled.

"What!!?" I asked him as he laughed.

"Nothing. You are so beautiful. " He said as I laughed at him.

"I'm not." I said as he laughed.

"You are." he said and I quit the fight.

"Where are we going ?"

"Just walking around. With you. Thats fulfilling enough." he said and I giggled. Once again.

This feels surreal.

Not that I have forgotten anything. But at the same time. This doesn't feel wrong.

Am I correct if I am doing this.

Does it matters though?

Passing from some streets and turns. We came across a little park. We went inside and sat on the bench.

"It's 26th day. And seems like I'm alive." He said and sighed loudly as I looked at him shocked.

"Why are you saying things like that? We will make up okay. We will find a match. Somewhere. " I said and he took my hand in his.

"I survive or not. Make sure to live a long and happy life. And have a proper wedding with someone nice. Who loves you truly. " He said and tears rolled from my eyes. "Don't let my death be a hindrance in your life." he said and I couldn't control myself and I brokedown as I hugged him.

"Please don't say something like this! Please Survive for me! Please?" I cried my heart out, my heart feeling so heavy.  My chest was aching. I could control my tears. No matter how much I wanted to stop. Something was deeply hurting inside.

"Please Rudram. Please. " I murmured as he hugged me back.

"I guess this is my payback. I don't feel broken. I am reaping what I sowed. " He said. As I broke from him and looked at him.

"If that's the reason than I have forgiven you. Why can't god? " I said  "I forgive you for everything. Everything why can't god just stop this." I said and he hugged me this time.

"Lets just except this Roohi. Live a happy life for my sake. Please. " he said and I hugged him tightly.

After a few minutes of crying. We both went apart and I relied on the bench as I played with my finger.

"Do you know Sukriti is a fashion designer?" he said as I looked up at him.

"She was studying while she was in slum. And she made it. She is in internship at a big company now. " he said as I smiled.

"Really? "

"Yeah. And also the kid got into a national kid sport team. He is preparing for football." he said and I felt relief a little. "And of course your aunt is doing good too." he said and I was so happy finding this. "Everything is good. Just get this good too." he said as he was more worried about me than himself.

"I love you. " he said as I looked at him.

"What??"

"I want you to know that I love you and that I want to die with good memories of you. So please don't cry ever again please." he said as I didn't wanted to hear this now

"We will find the heart." I said gritting on my teeth as he took my hand again.

"Even if we don't. Remember that I was just a dream. A bad nightmare!"