𝟎𝟐𝟑. 𝖻𝗈𝗇𝖿𝗂𝗋𝖾

𝟎𝟐𝟑. 𝖻𝗈𝗇𝖿𝗂𝗋𝖾

💌 𝖿𝗋𝗆 𝗉𝖺𝗂𝗀𝖾 𝗉𝗈𝗏

after the dinner with her parents sydney mood had drastically went down, i know it didn't go as she imagined and god knows i prayed and hope it did but it didn't.

she's been cooped up in the apartment only leaving to go to classes or when she really needed too. i visited her here and there but basketball was taking up a lot of my time.

"how is she?", i ask eden as i dribble the basketball up and down the court. "she's been better but i think she's fine", eden replies. "she's been blasting Hamilton but only one last time, burn, dear theodosia and it's quiet up town... all the sad songs", eden adds on.

i sigh at the news, "she needs some fresh air, do you think she'll like to go on a bonfire?", i suggest eden smiles nodding her head. "yeah i think she'll love it", eden says.

an soft okay leaves my lips, "ill be there in about an hour, just keep checking up on her for me", i plead and eden lets out an hum, "i gotcha", she says and we end the facetime call.

i throw the ball across the court and start to grab my things, "yo where you going?", kk asks. i look at her as i threw my gym bag onto my shoulders, "taking sydney out for an bonfire, hopefully it will lighten her mood a bit", i say grabbing my keys out my pocket.

"but we just got here", she says

"so, my girl needs me", i say bluntly and leave.

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an quick run to target and an shower after, i headed to syd and eden apartment. i greet eden quickly and then make my way towards sydney room.

i knocked on the door softly opening it a bit, she was bundled tight in her sheets and blankets while she watched hamilton mumbling the lyrics.

"hi baby", i say as i walk inside the room and shut the door behind me. she looks at me and her smile lifts an bit but it wasn't the big smile i was use too, "hi", she replies.

i look around her room to see it a bit clutter but even for sydney that was odd because she was an neat freak who always made sure that her room was clean and in order.

"i know, i just haven't had the motivation to clean it", she says as if she reads my mind. i shake my head slightly, "im not judging you, just a little worried", i assure as i take an seat on the bed beside her.

she hums laying her head into the pillow, "im okay, you don't have to worry about me", she tells me. "i know but i do anyway", i lean down and kiss her softly.

"i want to take you outside for an bit", i say and she raises her eyebrows an bit. "it's still an bit chilly", she makes an excuse. i rub my thumb across her cheek softly, "it's a bonfire", i tell her.

there's an silence, "okay", she agrees and im a bit shocked because i thought i would have to beg her to go but she cooperated easily.

"okay", I smile at her. "go take an shower and get dressed I'll straighten your room a bit for you", i say and she nods her head poking her lips out for a kiss which i gladly lean back down and give her another kiss.

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when we arrive at the site the night was slowly turning dark, i grabbed the thick blankets and basket off food that i got from target.

"i thought you said it was a bonfire", sydney raises her eyebrows at me as she looks around for fire. i laugh slightly, "girl it ain't gone appear in thin air we gotta make the fire", i say and she smiles wrapping her arms around my body.

"you're gonna make me a fireeee", she squeals softly and i laugh at her. "yes, but it's just a fire", i say and she unwraps her arms around me so we can walk.

"it's not just a fire, I know you're doing this because you feel sorry for me", i say and i turn around an bit looking at her. "i do feel sorry for you but im doing this because I miss that smile, that laugh and you talking my head off... I just miss my happy sydney but i still love my sad sydney", i say placing a kiss onto her temple. "thank you", was all she says.

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it was an bit rough but after an watching an youtube fire we finally got an big enough fire to keep us warm and sit around. we wrapped ourselves into the blanket.

"baby tell me a did you know fact", she says as she twirls her marshmallow around on the stick in the fire. i place my marshmallow onto the graham crackers making an s'more, i hand my s'more to syd so she can take an bite first because i already know she was going to ask.

she takes an bite and hums in satisfaction, "that's good", she says and i smile. "okay now tell me a fact", she pleads and i let out an okay as i ramble an brain to find one.

"uhhh did you know that the moon landing was fake", i say taking an bite out of s'more. "baby that's an conspiracy theory not a fact", she corrects me.

"but it's true, I don't believe it's real", i defend myself and she shakes her head. "yeah that's an conspiracy theory until you can prove it's not real", she says and starts to make her own s'more.

"welll did you know that i love you, that's a fact that i can prove", i say and she smiles at me and not that little smile she gave me earlier but that big smile that i had grown to love. "oh really?", she teases.

"yeah",

"prove it",

i wasn't really sure how i could actually prove it to her other than raiding her with kisses and telling her over and over that i love her.

she pushed me away with an laugh, "okay okay, you proved it", she says and i smile at her giving her one last kiss. there's an silence as we eat our s'mores and listen to the fire cackle.

"do you think we'll be in love forever?", she asks randomly in a soft whisper almost as if she was afraid to ask the question. i look at her and nod my head, "yeah, I don't have an doubt that we won't be", i say honestly.

"but what if life happens", she says., "if life does happen that doesn't mean I'll stop loving you... it's impossible for me to stop loving you.", i say hoping with my fingers crossed that life didn't happen.

she leaves the conversion at that, "thank you again for all this, i feel a lot better", she tells me. "you're welcome baby".

💌 𝖾𝗇𝖽 𝗈𝖿 𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝟢𝟤𝟥，

𝖻𝗈𝗇𝖿𝗂𝗋𝖾．